Venting Back Here Again. Meaningless Vent. [Self Harm CW]

[Anonymoususer1234]

I always leave for a while and think I'm doing better. Sometimes I genuinely am. Sometimes I'm just deciving myself. It's hard to tell the difference.

Anyway I've fucked it up again. I've gone and triggered myself on purpose like a fucking idiot.

I keep doing things that I know will only upset me. I keep looking at stuff that makes me want to die. That's how I end up back here, usually.

I think I might just break my four months self-harm-free streak streak tonight. (Or maybe I already have? Depending on how you see it. Does looking up stuff to upset myself counts as self harm?)

I just need a proper release. I want to slice myself open.

 

[Lary]

Eu tenho a mesma sensação. Quando pareço estar melhorando, acabo voltando para cá. É um círculo sem fim, tudo sempre se repete. Como se todos meus esforços fossem inúteis. Eu só queria alguém para conversar. Alguém que não me julgue por eu ser assim

 

[wastingpotential]

i feel you. i know exactly what would set my mood in a worse state and get self destructive and i still do it. the thoughts are always on my mind regardless though.
recently broke my self-harm streak of idk how long cause of it all. hope you manage to keep your streak up for a bit longer, if you can't manage, i send you my love and hugs regardless