S
suisuiforum
Experienced
- Jul 4, 2021
- 239
It is literally so annoying when every time there is a smidgen of hope, any sign that things might improve, the impending but inevitable downfall will soon follow. I am so over this incessant vacillation, and I should know better by now but this innate drive to live will delude me every time even when I rationally know that it'll all come crashing down eventually. It would've been so much easier if I was never brought into existence, never forced to contend with morality itself by remaining shrouded from the horrors of life. I wish I could also just conceptualize a plan and be done with it, but no, there are so many sticky situations to deal with and loose ends to tie up when I never asked for this in the first place.