GrumpyFrog
Exhausted
- Aug 23, 2020
- 1,913
Hey. Well, this is embarrassing but oh well...There is this girl... She's amazing and I have the biggest crush on her. Her birthday is tomorrow and she invited me to the party. And I really want to see her but I feel so painfully self-conscious I want to CTB by hitting my head on the nearest wall until I crack my skull open. I feel like everything I do and say is stupid and/or crazy and I will embarrass myself in front of her and everyone else and ruin her party. I was already fairly anxious all week, but today my roommate made a comment about me not being able to conceal the fact I'm mental no matter how hard I try and it certainly didn't help, I'm heading for a mental breakdown now. I don't know what to do. I tried to cope out of coming but it seems like she really wants me to come. I'm dying inside somebody please tell me what to do, I need a hug. Yeah, I know, I'm nearly 30 and I have 13-year-old's problems.
Just for context, there isn't any chance for two-sided romance there whatsover. I'm a girl too, she's straight and she invited a guy she likes that she is sort of in a process of getting together with. Literally everyone else she invited are straight couples in long term relationships, so I'm the unique third wheel to everyone else. I haven't been to a party since 2017. No one ever invites me anywhere these days, so this is a unique oportunity. Can somebody tell me what can I do to avoid fudging it up really really badly like I always do? (just please don't tell me not to drink, I am a person with severe social anxiety and an alcohol problem, being sober just isn't happening). Thank you for reading this stuff. I know, not real problems but it's driving me crazy, I just need to talk to someone about it and this is the only place I could go to.
Just for context, there isn't any chance for two-sided romance there whatsover. I'm a girl too, she's straight and she invited a guy she likes that she is sort of in a process of getting together with. Literally everyone else she invited are straight couples in long term relationships, so I'm the unique third wheel to everyone else. I haven't been to a party since 2017. No one ever invites me anywhere these days, so this is a unique oportunity. Can somebody tell me what can I do to avoid fudging it up really really badly like I always do? (just please don't tell me not to drink, I am a person with severe social anxiety and an alcohol problem, being sober just isn't happening). Thank you for reading this stuff. I know, not real problems but it's driving me crazy, I just need to talk to someone about it and this is the only place I could go to.
