Autism ruins everything

[soap]

Every major problem in my life can be linked back to the autism.

My injuries and health problems were a result of clumsiness and an already frail body, both are related to autism. My nt parents and brothers are healthy and robust.

Lack of empathy made me do some extremely cruel things, again this is typical of autism.

No comment is needed when it comes to career. If i was sociable, smart and assertive i'd have a good career. My family all have prestigious careers and high iq.
My brothers are all assertive fighters, meanwhile i was a bullied loser throughout school.

Social life is non existent ofc, that's where autism limits you the hardest.

It's just an all round curse.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I can't imagine how hard living with autism must be.

Anyway, you can talk to us here at least. We will always do our best to help you.

Feel free to pm me whenever you want.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[Gonjoolie]

I understand what you mean completely. I'm also autistic and this shit can be mentally exhausting just because of how society treats us. Some parents don't want their kids to have autism so badly that they put bleach up the kid's butt to get rid of "worms" when it's really just the lining of their insides. Of course that doesn't even cover what you mentioned, just all the shit you have to deal with in your own head. I don't know how to describe other than I don't feel like myself a lot of the time.

 

[WatermelonMel]

It's a living hell, maybe you guys have these problems too:
Eye contact feels impossible and is very uncomfortable
Being around strangers feels like someone is judging your every move and gives uncomfortable feelings like every muscle twitching slightly

It doesn't help that Society is very unforgiving.

 

[Gonjoolie]

It's a living hell, maybe you guys have these problems too:
Eye contact feels impossible and is very uncomfortable
Being around strangers feels like someone is judging your every move and gives uncomfortable feelings like every muscle twitching slightly

It doesn't help that Society is very unforgiving.

Yeah both of those are extremely common symptoms of autism. I start panicking if I keep eye contact with anyone for too long unless I know them super well.

 

[soap]

It's a living hell, maybe you guys have these problems too:
Eye contact feels impossible and is very uncomfortable
Being around strangers feels like someone is judging your every move and gives uncomfortable feelings like every muscle twitching slightly

It doesn't help that Society is very unforgiving.

Got all this and way more. I've always accepted the usual consequences of autism, but its influence on my health is what made me start hating it for real

 

[Blue Rose]

You will be so glad to know there are the more people who have the high functional autism or Asperger Syndrome than you had thought.
I can't type their name, but some confessed their autism or Asperger to me. They felt myself comfort.

I don't know whether you will be surprised or not, but there is a fact.
Between the autistic people and those who have very or extremely high IQ DO SHARE so many same or similar traits with each other.
In these case, the standard of 'that' IQ is over 130 SD 15. On this world, the average is 100 SD 15. Anyway, Some called them the gifted people.

But as I met them, so-called the gifted people considered themselves as the cursed people.
All they were shunned in their school. They were treated to the arrogant, the weird, and the morbid.

They were very, very vulnerable to all kinds of stress and anxiety. Even some intense stimulate, they felt discomfort.
All They also had serious difficulty to form social relationships with other people. All they had tasted their bitter failures.
They stick to the rule, pattern, rationality too. Only With these examples, you will be able to understand what I wanted to say well.

There are many gifted people in SS too. For their gift or curse, For their, maybe too reasonable views,
For their awkward or poor social skills, They consider their CTB often. I am a cursed victim too.

 

[untimelydemise]

autism makes things so diffficult i dont like it and it is disabling

 

[popcorn]

Every major problem in my life can be linked back to the autism.

My injuries and health problems were a result of clumsiness and an already frail body, both are related to autism. My nt parents and brothers are healthy and robust.

Lack of empathy made me do some extremely cruel things, again this is typical of autism.

No comment is needed when it comes to career. If i was sociable, smart and assertive i'd have a good career. My family all have prestigious careers and high iq.
My brothers are all assertive fighters, meanwhile i was a bullied loser throughout school.

Social life is non existent ofc, that's where autism limits you the hardest.

It's just an all round curse.

i used to be a support worker for autistic adults, once i got to know them they were the coolest and most interesting people ive met. one of my best friends has Asperger's and he is brilliant at cheering me up

although it was a paid job i do genuinely think i made some real friendships with my clients and cared a lot for them

apologies for my ignorance buy do you have a special skill which you excel at more than the norm that you could use?

if you ever want to talk please feel free to message me xox

 

[soap]

i used to be a support worker for autistic adults, once i got to know them they were the coolest and most interesting people ive met. one of my best friends has Asperger's and he is brilliant at cheering me up

although it was a paid job i do genuinely think i made some real friendships with my clients and cared a lot for them

apologies for my ignorance buy do you have a special skill which you excel at more than the norm that you could use?

if you ever want to talk please feel free to message me xox

Zero special skills or positive features, no joke. My hair is literally the only redeeming feature I ever got, but even then it's been greying since my early twenties.

 

[PeacefulRest]

I have failed to fully comprehend the consequences of my behavior and my actions, over and over and over. And I am not able to gauge emotional responses to my actions, or my inacttions. And thus, I suffer consequences and often have no idea why, or any idea how I might adapt and change and learn from these misadventures. I have no idea what motivates normies, most of the time, or why I continue to disappoint them or confuse them so much.

I've mainstreamed and have a mask for every occasion. Hell, people call me charismatic! But what's under the mask? Fuck if I even know. Probably nothing.

I feel like I'm already dead - or maybe that I never really was alive - not really real, perpetually outside and othered, this is what it feels like all the time. It gets harder as I get older. That's why I'm here now.

 

[muffin222]

I completely understand. I'm autistic, too, and it's definitely a huge factor in why I'm suicidal. People who aren't on the spectrum can't possibly grasp the myriad ways autism leaks into every area of your life and causes problems.

Living in a world not built for people like you is a form of slow, silent torture that very few people understand or even sympathize with outside of the Internet.

 

[LittleJem]

I have a little bit (I think) of autism - I don't understand people, had to teach myself small talk etc and it definitely makes life really hard. It's kind of a curse in a way - makes everything more difficult, makes life uncomfortable, takes a lot of joy out of life - and can go with depression too.

I don't know what helps me - weed helps me a bit to feel more empathy with people and more connection, to be a bit more human. I have read a little about magic mushrooms helping people with autism. The weirdest of all is FMT which has had some studied success with autism, but is hard to access unless maybe you are in Australia or go somewhere specialist.

But in general today, I just feel the world is against me, everything is stressful and everything is going wrong. And that is kind of what these extra challenges are like in my life too.
I think - I am trying to make my mental illness and issues into some kind of superpower and say that while my life cannot and will never be normal, is there something it can be that I will or can enjoy, and how to find that. I feel that way when my depression is not too bad (which at the moment it isn't thanks to Taurine and St John's Wort). Like what unique experiences can I have (erm those are generally on drugs), what would I not get to experience were it not for my 'uniqueness'.

 

[filthyrottendirty]

I could have written a lot of these responses. Why don't they just kill us at birth? No point in living with this disability.

 

[Yiyo123]

I'm also autistic and was diagnosed when I was an adult, For me
it was pretty hard to accept. I also have major depression disorder, high anxiety, psychosis, paranoia and a few other mental health conditions,

I gave up on life a long time ago. I don't care and nobody cares, I can't make eye contact, feel like everyone judges me. I don't have friends, don't go out by choice (only to doctor's appointments) and i'm suicidal all the time (can't stop thinking about it).

No supportive parents and brothers… you name it. Work environment was harsh. I was constantly bullied for years until I resigned (medical reasons).

So I concur with a lot of these comments.

 

[ViperDepression22]

Having autism is hell

 

[sfabians]

People who have autism may resort to masking. "Masking autism may sometimes help protect autistic people
from being 'outed' or harassed at school or work. It's a social surviving strategy"

Understanding Autism Masking and Its Consequences

Autism masking is a survival strategy for autistic people to mimic neurotypical behaviors in social situations. Doing this can take a heavy toll.

www.healthline.com

 

[BipolarExpress]

Autistic here, diagnosed in early childhood. I went through years without any shame for being autistic, but the past two years made it difficult for me to mask. I developed odd fixations and fears like the ones I had in childhood, and all that collided with the manic psychosis I had earlier this year. My brain fucking broke, and I don't think I can live down the shame, embarrassment, and self-hatred.