Autism, especially Asperger's, and violent CTBs.

[disabledlife]

According to this scientific article: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25200592/

Hello, do you often have the same thoughts as me, to have violence in you, especially when you are victims of injustices or witnesses of injustices, see to have desire for violent CTB?

 

[ayaneechan]

I'm aspie, but no, violent CTB is what i actually want to avoid for me

But yes, i can be angry with others and I really struggle sometimes to stay calm
I'm not someone who want to hurt others so I'll always try to calm down

 

[FuneralCry]

I have Aspergers and I just want to pass away peacefully like falling asleep forever, such a thing sounds so ideal to me and it repulses me how humans are denied the option of a peaceful and dignified death. I don't get why anyone would want to attempt ctb painfully as with more painful methods the SI is more likely to kick in and lead to the attempt failing, sounds horrific ending up failing ctb with injuries. And also I despise existing here but I never really even feel angry, I just feel tired of being trapped here.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

i do fantasise about violent methods of ctb a lot, but as funeralcry mentioned logically i would chose to have a peaceful method to avoid complications with si. but i guess it all depends on when i decide to go and how desperate i am, i dont really have a preference as long as it results in my death.

 

[chocolatebar]

The article is written in french, so my reading was mostly limited to the abstract, but it looks like they just pointed out that, in the researched data, there are a lot of violent methods, not that there's an association between autism and use of violent methods.

I believe the main results are the high percentage of suicidality in the group (~21%), and the high percentage of all suicidals who are autistic (7%).

 

[▪︎⚠ ＫＯＨＩ ⚠▪︎]

I even joke with friends of what would occur if I died by a trailer truck, where I live there are plenty of those, but being honest I've thought of it thoroughly.
I do normally think of a more chill way to ctb but sometimes I think that even if it is violent, if it's quick I might take the option, not entirely sure but sounds kinda tempting to me.

 

[TAW122]

I would certainly go for peaceful methods if I am able to acquire them, execute it successfully, and go in peace. However, since this world has made just about all peaceful methods of exiting either inaccessible, ridiculously difficult to access, or just outright ban them, I have to resort to other means that are less peaceful. I too am averse to pain, and while I don't like going via a violent method to exit this cruel world of suffering, that may be my only option if I could not 'reliably' acquire peaceful means to exit.

 

[woh6]

I have the same thoughts, and I may act impulsively on them, but when I'm thinking rationally I'd rather go peacefully and with as little pain as possible.

 

[Fml]

I have Aspergers and the methods I usually think most about are quite violent like the train and gun methods. I think about these not because I want a painful method but because I imagine they'd be very quick and reliable and thus you wouldn't have time to feel any pain.

 

[suicidaleeyore]

I'm autistic and I'm very afraid of violent ways out. I'd prefer my death to take longer and overdose/poison myself than die quickly and violently.

 

[deomlez]

It seems soooo logical... not diag on my side, but a suspicion about it with my therapist As a female, +50, without family to tell about my youth, it s difficult to go through the diag.
I am able to support many pain and suffer, and if i find a way to ctb which is reliable, reachable and mainly painful, I won t hesitate. I have tried every ways to "ctb" me withoit killing me, such as food restrictions, social suicide and so on. In french : méme pas peur...