woofwag
Bad dog
- Sep 17, 2025
- 466
Genuinely one of the reasons I'm so suicidal is because my attention span is FUCKED. I have ADHD and I'm sensory-seeking autistic, so already I'm at a disadvantage. But I've been heavily addicted to my phone since age 9, and it's only gotten worse. Short-form content is so absorbing, and I will spend hours scrolling scrolling scrolling without being able to stop. I also have POTS, so sometimes even doing things that require me to sit up can be painful.
I can no longer focus on long-form content. The only scenario I can tolerate it in is if I'm watching a movie with friends. Other than that? I last maybe 15 minutes at best trying to watch long-form before I get so anxious and desperate for stimulation that I have to walk away.
It's not like I can break my phone addiction. I literally need to use my phone to function in life. But it is so exhausting. People send me reels on insta and I get sucked into that. But I also want to see what people are up to without having a million numbers saved in my phone. I've tried to delete TikTok, but I always go back. There is genuinely a lot of valuable info on there that I don't want to lose... and because my attention span is so low, I can't bring myself to keep up with news, so I just see shit on TT or Twitter and look it up if I think it's interesting (horrible way to get news, I know).
I have tried endlessly to break my addiction, but I always go back. The only way I can do anything now is by at least having something on in the background (like I can't crochet without a video essay on or something). It's pathetic! It makes me want to die! I don't have the energy to make art as it is, but now I also can't focus on it long enough to get anything done. I'll always be doomed to that guy with "potential" and no drive to live up to it. Fucking kill me
I can no longer focus on long-form content. The only scenario I can tolerate it in is if I'm watching a movie with friends. Other than that? I last maybe 15 minutes at best trying to watch long-form before I get so anxious and desperate for stimulation that I have to walk away.
It's not like I can break my phone addiction. I literally need to use my phone to function in life. But it is so exhausting. People send me reels on insta and I get sucked into that. But I also want to see what people are up to without having a million numbers saved in my phone. I've tried to delete TikTok, but I always go back. There is genuinely a lot of valuable info on there that I don't want to lose... and because my attention span is so low, I can't bring myself to keep up with news, so I just see shit on TT or Twitter and look it up if I think it's interesting (horrible way to get news, I know).
I have tried endlessly to break my addiction, but I always go back. The only way I can do anything now is by at least having something on in the background (like I can't crochet without a video essay on or something). It's pathetic! It makes me want to die! I don't have the energy to make art as it is, but now I also can't focus on it long enough to get anything done. I'll always be doomed to that guy with "potential" and no drive to live up to it. Fucking kill me
