Attempting with a bad method

[Wolf-Alice]

I have no doubt I can't buy good drugs to ctb with (the dark net etc. is beyond my scope to deal with) and sometimes I get the urge to just swallow my family's entire medicine cabinet and alcohol stash to ctb.
Obviously this must be a method unlikely to work, but I don't like the violence of methods beyond poisoning myself.
I wanted to do this just now but after taking a few moments have decided against it. It'd be impulsive and likely to fail, after all.
Not sure what I want to achieve by posting this. Whatever.

 

[Ash]

I think a lot of us have that urge, even though we know that it'll just make us extremely ill, probably have horrible long term consequences but won't actually turn the lights out. I don't know if it's ingrained from books and the media or why we're so attracted to the idea of ODs but I find the only way to overcome it is to keep reminding myself what will and won't happen.

 

[AnonymousL]

There's no point in taking the risk of hurting yourself and damaging urself beyond repair if you already know the attempt will fail.
However I do understand the urge to do so.