I'm sorry it has come to this for you, you don't deserve to be in this position. Good luck with everything, I hope that your journey is a comfortable one. If you feel like changing your mind, there's absolutely no shame in coming back, okay? I hope that you're able to find peace, no matter what you decide to do.
If there's a chance the rope will break, wouldn't it be better to postpone a little though? The last thing anyone would want is the rope snapping halfway through, it might seriously complicate things. Either way, I hope it turns out the way you want it to.