Attempting soon with SN

[lunaticLipid]

I'll try to live-post through it. Hoping to provide some useful info to expand current knowledge on the SN method.

Here's some random info in case it's relevant to the effects of the substance:
Male, 25 years old, 179cm, 70kg. I have acid reflux, probably vitamin d deficiency, and last time i had a blood test i almost fainted from taking a single sample, so i might have low blood pressure or iron deficiency or something.

I'm going into the woods with two plastic bottles with 50ml of water in each and two 20g portions of SN (98.5% bought online from a chemical supplies company, not tested) wrapped in aluminum foil, as well as two glasses and a teaspoon.
I also have a third bottle with the solution already mixed, but i suddenly got worried that it will deteriorate or something if i keep it like that. I'll drink the freshly prepared portions first.
I didn't take any meds. I guess, despite all the thought i put into it, my suicide is still a little impulsive.
I did fast though. I haven't eaten in over 12 hours. Haven't drank water in the last 2 hours. Heading out now.

 

[blackcatnash]

Best of luck. Sorry you have to go through this, I hope you have a peaceful way out.

 

[TheQ22]

Sorry, I hope you find peace.

 

[Smudgedlines]

Are you absolutely certain? When you say impulsive... please just make sure you are absolutely sure and calm beforehand. Talk if you want to or if you can.

If you are absolutely certain then go in peace and with love.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace, please remember you are welcome back home here if you change your mind. Wouldn't want any of us to go impulsively

 

[Racon]

Good luck. Thanks for making the effort to give us live information.

 

[lunaticLipid]

Are you absolutely certain? When you say impulsive... please just make sure you are absolutely sure and calm beforehand. Talk if you want to or if you can.

If you are absolutely certain then go in peace and with love.

Yes, i'm certain. Didn't meant to make anyone worry. It's more that I just want it to be over already. Thank you for the kind words.

 

[yetme]

Have a peaceful journey!

 

[Deathbydemo]

I wish you eternal peace.

 

[lunaticLipid]

Man i should have picked a better spot there are mosquitoes and deer flies all over me. Time to start mixing

 

[BipolarGuy]

I hate these threads :(

OP, I hope you don't mind me asking but could you tell us about symptoms you experience after taking SN, if you decide to go ahead?

 

[lunaticLipid]

I hate these threads :(

OP, I hope you don't mind me asking but could you tell us about symptoms you experience after taking SN, if you decide to go ahead?

Yes, that was the plan. Gonna drink the first glass now. If my sentences become simplistic, thats not a symptom, im just trying to post before i faint.
Feeling nervous and hesitant.

 

[suicideisgood]

Yes, that was the plan. Gonna drink the first glass now. If my sentences become simplistic, thats not a symptom, im just trying to post before i faint.
Feeling nervous and hesitant.

Good luck and i hope your suffering ends forever

 

[BipolarGuy]

Yes, that was the plan. Gonna drink the first glass now. If my sentences become simplistic, thats not a symptom, im just trying to post before i faint.
Feeling nervous and hesitant.

If you're hesitant, don't do it.
There is absolutely no reason why you can't not go ahead :)

 

[lunaticLipid]

Still didn't drink it. Goddamit i was never good at commiting to anything.
I'll just sit here and think for a while, try again in a couple minutes

 

[BipolarGuy]

Still didn't drink it. Goddamit i was never good at commiting to anything.

If you don't want to, then don't.
This website isn't a weird suicide cult, but an open peer to peer support platform. The support extends not only to those who want to die.

 

[lunaticLipid]

If you don't want to, then don't.
This website isn't a weird suicide cult, but an open peer to peer support platform. The support extends not only to those who want to die.

Thanks, i appreciate it, but it's only my survival instinct talking. I don't want to go back home. I wish i could just fall asleep right now and not wake up. Don't worry - this is an informed decision, i have thought this through, i have tried other options. I just don't like living.
Drank the whole glass

 

[BipolarGuy]

Thanks, i appreciate it, but it's only my survival instinct talking. I don't want to go back home. I wish i could just fall asleep right now and not wake up. Don't worry - this is an informed decision, i have thought this through, i have tried other options. I just don't like living.
Drank the whole glass

Ok well I'm really sorry you're going through a very tough time.

How are you feeling (in terms of the drink)?

 

[lunaticLipid]

Instantly retching, but didn't vomit

 

[Smudgedlines]

How are you feeling

 

[lunaticLipid]

Instantly retching, but did n't vomit fuckin internet is cutting out very dizzy

 

[Xander_McG]

Good luck my friend, i hope everything works as well as it can for you. Go in peace

 

[Everglow]

Sending big hugs ♡ x

 

[lunaticLipid]

Afyer initial retchibg dont want to vomit so much
Fingers tingling
Not so bad
Ringing ears for a moment
Do it in a bed if you can but this is fine

 

[BipolarGuy]

Afyer initial retchibg dont want to vomit so much
Fingers tingling
Not so bad
Ringing ears for a moment

Remember you're not a guinea pig for us. Relax and keep it private if you wish.

 

[Smudgedlines]

Rest now OP.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you the smoothest, gentlest journey

 

[BipolarGuy]

How are you feeling now?

 

[timetofly]

Thank you very much for providing info about your experience! I hope you find peace. You're very brave!

 

[BipolarGuy]

.....And now I feel awkward.