Carlon55
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- Nov 19, 2018
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i wish if i can do it too! but i am afraid in next life and what i am going to tell to God? and sometimes i feel God will forgive me.
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No, you're not... I felt so terrible, sad and desperate because of you - and there's a reason for that. Because in our conversations you showed me that you're a very kind person. I'll send you a detailed PM in a little while. We'll talk about everything, OK? Until then: *BIG HUGS*I'm such a piece of shit
Don't beat yourself up,we all know how hard it can be.Many of us have failed,I failed three times if it could make you feel better.We are here for you,we will get there eventually.Fuck fuck fuck I failed again. I'm such a piece of shit, I can't do anything right. I feel so stupid for failing. It could be so fucking simple, but there's always something keeping me from ctb, and most of the time it's the survival instinct. It's so stupid, I'm fucking depressed all the time, I wanna die all the time, but when I'm about to do it the survival instinct kicks in and I get all these stupid irrational thoughts that keep me from ctb. And I get so scared, it's so painful.
It all makes no sense, the survival instinct makes no sense. How can pro-lifers say that wanting to end your life is irrational when the survival instinct is one of the most irrational things?
I had two chances to ctb this month, I fucked it up twice. I probably won't get another chance this year, which means that I have to deal with my shitty life for now. I wish I had my own apartment, ctb would be much easier because I could do it anytime. I feel so trapped, I don't want to live another month or even longer. Everything is so pointless. I don't want all this pain.
What I need right now is a big hug. I wish I could be with you. I want someone to comfort me. But sadly we're all spread across the world. I guess I'll have to continue to suffer alone :(
Fuck fuck fuck I failed again. I'm such a piece of shit, I can't do anything right. I feel so stupid for failing. It could be so fucking simple, but there's always something keeping me from ctb, and most of the time it's the survival instinct. It's so stupid, I'm fucking depressed all the time, I wanna die all the time, but when I'm about to do it the survival instinct kicks in and I get all these stupid irrational thoughts that keep me from ctb. And I get so scared, it's so painful.
It all makes no sense, the survival instinct makes no sense. How can pro-lifers say that wanting to end your life is irrational when the survival instinct is one of the most irrational things?
I had two chances to ctb this month, I fucked it up twice. I probably won't get another chance this year, which means that I have to deal with my shitty life for now. I wish I had my own apartment, ctb would be much easier because I could do it anytime. I feel so trapped, I don't want to live another month or even longer. Everything is so pointless. I don't want all this pain.
What I need right now is a big hug. I wish I could be with you. I want someone to comfort me. But sadly we're all spread across the world. I guess I'll have to continue to suffer alone :(
I hope u find peace and i give u a really big hug.
Its makes me a lil bit sad but i wish u the best! U are a real nice person <3
I'm still here, the survival instinct took over:( this makes me sad but I wish you the best
I don't have access to fentanyl/SN and antiemetics. In fact the only reliable method I have access to is partial.Why not fentanyl or SN should be easier, oncee taken no point of return
Don't be ashamed about it. Survival instinct is a bitch and is strong af.I'm still here, the survival instinct took over
It's okay. It is brave to enough try this method ♡I'm still here, the survival instinct took over
Hey buddy. I'm really sorry things didn't work out. Please don't beat yourself up over this. So many people on SS including myself tried this method and failed. You are not alone my friend. Hanging is a very difficult method. Everyone has their limits when it comes to what they can take. You are not a piece of shit, not weak or cowardly. You're a human being who's in a lot of pain and deserve nothing but love and support.Fuck fuck fuck I failed again. I'm such a piece of shit, I can't do anything right. I feel so stupid for failing. It could be so fucking simple, but there's always something keeping me from ctb, and most of the time it's the survival instinct. It's so stupid, I'm fucking depressed all the time, I wanna die all the time, but when I'm about to do it the survival instinct kicks in and I get all these stupid irrational thoughts that keep me from ctb. And I get so scared, it's so painful.
It all makes no sense, the survival instinct makes no sense. How can pro-lifers say that wanting to end your life is irrational when the survival instinct is one of the most irrational things?
I had two chances to ctb this month, I fucked it up twice. I probably won't get another chance this year, which means that I have to deal with my shitty life for now. I wish I had my own apartment, ctb would be much easier because I could do it anytime. I feel so trapped, I don't want to live another month or even longer. Everything is so pointless. I don't want all this pain.
What I need right now is a big hug. I wish I could be with you. I want someone to comfort me. But sadly we're all spread across the world. I guess I'll have to continue to suffer alone :(