Discussion Atleast grateful........

[Obliviate]

The closer I get to CTBing and gathering my supplies and thinking about how horrible life has been I am atleast grateful that we are somewhat living in the "best time to be alive" period. As I read more about history and how people of color were brutally murdered/colonized/enslaved/tortured it makes me sick. It takes some serious stubbornness for our ancestors to keep reproducing in hopes of that their descendants will live in a time of peace and harmony but unfortunately we all know that will never happen. Imagine going through slavery/torture and NOT CTBing.......it's insane. I keep imagining if I were living in those times......bro I would have CTBed sooo quick. I am grateful atleast to have these painless options possible and this forum. It just makes me reflect everytime SI comes in and I tell myself "You're still lucky to have this method.......It could be a lot worse, you could be in the position of your ancestors or you could be in a third world country where bombs are exploding, you could be homeless." I am grateful to have food to eat and a roof over my head even though the good deserve so much more. It's sad we even have to think this way but it's the truth

 

[theboy]

I am struck by the fact that are your CTB goals aligned with your ancestors?

 

[Zegers]

would have CTBed sooo quick

No because SN/N was not available.

 

[Obliviate]

No because SN/N was not available.

I meant that I would have CTBed in which ever means instead of living in those horrific times.

 

[Hollowillow]

You're black? I feel ashamed of my white ancestors. I had a taste of segregation, hatred, people wanting my unvaxed ass in a camp... Pure terror. I don't understand why slaves had children. Probably from rape... Or desperate to have a glimpse of a normal life... Or maybe it seemed normal to those born in slavery, unable to know anything better... Atrocious. Now we pretend that the dkavewage people are free so they don't revolt. Having to beg a master to take them so they don't starve homeless... I long to be an animal... Or a rock... Or just void... Yeah.

I long for a normal life but to the people paid to help just do torture... I want out...

How god how

 

[Zegers]

For me it's a pretty dark time but it's not a bad time i guess.

 

[Hollowillow]

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I meant that I would have CTBed in which ever means instead of living in those horrific times.

How? I can't get stuff...

 

[Obliviate]

I am struck by the fact that are your CTB goals aligned with your ancestors?

I'm not sure if I am understanding but One of my reasons for CTBing is the disgusting history that occurred and how humans have proved to HAVE been disgusting, ARE disgusting and always WILL be.

You're black? I feel ashamed of my white ancestors. I had a taste of segregation, hatred, people wanting my unvaxed ass in a camp... Pure terror. I don't understand why slaves had children. Probably from rape... Or desperate to have a glimpse of a normal life... Or maybe it seemed normal to those born in slavery, unable to know anything better... Atrocious. Now we pretend that the dkavewage people are free so they don't revolt. Having to beg a master to take them so they don't starve homeless... I long to be an animal... Or a rock... Or just void... Yeah.

I long for a normal life but to the people paid to help just do torture... I want out...

How god how

I'm not black but I am a woman of color. Remember slavery was in MANY different countries by colonization. Here in the US the African slavery was what we acknowledged more and it was just insane and so inhumane and my heart broke for them.

 

[theboy]

Ah, now I understand. Of course, there are exceptions: People who do and seek good, but most of them are as black-hearted as obsidian.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm not sure if I am understanding but One of my reasons for CTBing is the disgusting history that occurred and how humans have proved to HAVE been disgusting, ARE disgusting and always WILL be.

I'm not black but I am a woman of color. Remember slavery was in MANY different countries by colonization. Here in the US the African slavery was what we acknowledged more and it was just insane and so inhumane and my heart broke for them.

The very way life works for predators like us is to prey & kill. It eould be better if we were plants. Herbivors have to graze all day for energy. Carnivores benefit from their work and can explore other stuff. I think we're just 1 giant organism, but it sucks for the preys. And I'm a freaking prey to humans and it sucks!

 

[Obliviate]

The very way life works for predators like us is to prey & kill. It eould be better if we were plants. Herbivors have to graze all day for energy. Carnivores benefit from their work and can explore other stuff. I think we're just 1 giant organism, but it sucks for the preys. And I'm a freaking prey to humans and it sucks!

Same the good people are always the prey. So sad. I just can't wait to not exist in this disgusting world. There better be kingdom of god or whatever. We atleast deserve that.

 

[hatehypocrisy]

The world currently has 8 billion people, does everyone deserve alive?

 

[Obliviate]

The world currently has 8 billion people, does everyone deserve alive?

In those 8 billion people, there are rapists, pedophiles, racists overall evil itself. Those people deserve worse than death. They deserve to rot in hell.

 

[Idiotic]

The world currently has 8 billion people, does everyone deserve alive?

Everyone deserves to have chances.

 

[hatehypocrisy]

In those 8 billion people, there are rapists, pedophiles, racists overall evil itself. Those people deserve worse than death. They deserve to rot in hell.

In fact, he lived very happily, and it was only us who were about to die soon!

 

[Obliviate]

In fact, he lived very happily, and it was only us who were about to die soon!

exactly......ugh karma is such crap.

 

[niki wonoto]

exactly......ugh karma is such crap.

Karma is bullshit. There is no karma (or if there is such thing as karma/god/whatever, then it's either incompetent or evil one).
Life is random.
Some people are lucky, some people are not.
It's unfair, yes.
& it's depressing.

 

[hatehypocrisy]

There is no real absolute fairness in this world, some people are creating real fairness for people which is good, but there are more people who use it just for their own benefit!

 

[Hollowillow]

Same the good people are always the prey. So sad. I just can't wait to not exist in this disgusting world. There better be kingdom of god or whatever. We atleast deserve that.

I just want eternal rest. Not eternal traumatic memories. That would even make heaven into hell. Can't watch anime in heaven. Just boring clouds. We'd go to hell, suicide is a sin. Would be more entertaining... My every body parts burn like hell already anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it horrifying to think how in this life things could always get worse. After all, theres no limit as to how much we can suffer. The problem has always been how people have continued to bring humans into this world who will have to endure awful existences all for no purpose.

I see it as never being beneficial to bring someone here as only the living can suffer but the non existent cannot. Thinking about how much people have suffered in the past is so awful to think about. I have a strong dislike for existence itself, life itself will always be the problem, and it's understandable wanting to leave this world behind.