At 21 I lost friends when I told them I was suicidal

[FireFox]

When I was 21 years old studying law at university my depression began to emerge. I was friends with these women in my law class. During my final year of university my mental health spiralled out of control and worsened as final year progressed.

One of my friends who I met in my first year of university I always helped her and looked out for her whenever she was having problems. I was really close with her because our backgrounds were similar. This friend was a devout traditional Christian . When I told her orginally I had depression and was suicidal she told me to go to church, how my depression is my fault for being feminist and how a woman's purpose in life is to be a wife and mother. Eventually she began to avoid me at university. One time I noticed she was with other people we normally hang out with and when she saw me she was whispering to them and runaway from me. It was so obvious. After exams ended she knew how depressed and anxious I was about graduating. She stopped talking to me all together. She ended up failing her exams whereas I passed very well.

Another friend in my law class who I worked on projects with I told her suicidal and planned to end my life after graduation. I changed my mind and she knew this. She avoided me completely and stopped talking to me. I am 26 and have no friends
Suicide prevention campaigns can go fuck themselves in their "reach out" for help bullshit

 

[bedhead_baby]

Blaming people for their depression will never not infuriate me. I'm sorry you don't have friends, but it doesn't seem like you had any to begin with. I would love to talk and try to make a friend

 

[FireFox]

Blaming people for their depression will never not infuriate me. I'm sorry you don't have friends, but it doesn't seem like you had any to begin with. I would love to talk and try to make a friend

@bedhead_baby I will be your friend The same friend even experienced a family member dying by suicide and was even acting as if it made her an expert. She preached to me about the impact it will have on my family if I do successfully kill myself.

My friend wanted to be a tradwife with kids and looked down upon other women lifestyles .I feel so sorry for her future kids because if one of them turns out mentally ill because she will an awful mother. She doesn't believe in mordern treatments for depression and thinks Jesus is medicine

 

[FuneralCry]

People like that just sound so insensitive to me, I don't believe that other people can be relied on and I just think in general there is a lack of compassion towards those who suffer. Suicidal people are treat badly everywhere, those people don't really sound like friends at all.

 

[FindingHome]

You did not lose anyone because they were never friends to begin with. A friend will be there for you during the low moments in life.