SadCryingBunny
Student
- Apr 10, 2025
- 109
Hi I'm from Australia, male age 27 and I just want to in the most polite way state this. I want to DIE. Peacefully, without pain or fear. I want to die, be buried 6ft under and forgotten and move on. I've tried the Nitrogen method until my ears started ringing, losing sense of my surroundings etc. Initially it felt like getting numb dots all over my face, which was very uncomfortable. Second and third attempt were better. I think maybe my face got used to it. 3rd time it wasn't the most pleasant but possible and is intimidating to continue through with it until I pass out. Charcoal is too complicated with a tent, etc. My 3rd and final option is to go through the assisted suicide overseas in the Netherlands, Belgium or Switzerland etc. and apply for it stating I've been suffering depression for many years due to my self harm scars & hair loss and I don't want to live. Could somebody please supply me with an application link or what needs to be done. Like the government needs to stop forcing people who don't want to live to continue on. I'm a $20000 annual financial burden anyway so long as I live. So killing me is better. Even if my cuts magically disappeared, I don't want to live with the psychological trauma the rest of my life. I'm mentally scarred. What can I do to get them to accept me for assisted dying? Here in Australia it's only for those with severe terminal illness. I've got a dozen cuts in my forearm and have been on Centrelink payments for all my 20s unable to work and am now heading in the directions towards long term disability because my mental health is worsening with my previous suicide attempt at 23 from hanging and I sincerely humbly beg God I gain the courage to kill myself with Nitrogen once I've setup my mini mask setup which is less claustrophobic than a full face mask. I want an end to this and it be Final. I believe in a higher power behind the universe/life, but I don't know what or who it is. Call it god or whatever. I've begged it over and over to just take me and as always, no response. Do I have to climb up a mountain like Moses and do some ritual for it to accept, go to Makkah etc? I'm done.