NSFW Ask me anything: My last moments

[jifscrater]

I am deep in the woods. Waiting for CO poisoning to take hold and for me to fade out into deep sleep. I thought I might let you all ask me anything if this method interests you or if you have any questions about the method/me. (If I stop responding, then I am most likely gone.)

 

[evanescent_eva]

What's your hottest take in this final hour?

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for <3

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

Have you done everything you wanted in this life? If not, what are they? Hope you rest easy now.

 

[LastNite]

No questions just wishes and love <3 . Rest well. I also hope someone finds your body. I personally hate the fact that I'll decompose in the open after death if not buried or cremated.

 

[encore]

i will be joining you in forever slumber soon. you are not alone. and i hope the transition goes smoothly for you

 

[locked*n*loaded]

First and foremost, I'm truly sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope all goes well for you and that you finally reach the peace you deserve. What in life made you decide this was the only way going forward?

Are you using a tent? If so, what size and did you seal it up any? How much and type of charcoal? Are you just "guesstimating" the amount to use?

 

[jifscrater]

First and foremost, I'm truly sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope all goes well for you and that you finally reach the peace you deserve. What in life made you decide this was the only way going forward?

Are you using a tent? If so, what size and did you seal it up any? How much and type of charcoal? Are you just "guesstimating" the amount to use?

I have been depressed for a while. But I began to realize my depression isn't due to some physiological imbalance or some other neurological issues. No, it's just that objectively my life sucks a lot. I feel stuck, and this is a thought-out and planned-out thing I am doing. Not some impulsive action. I just don't see the point in continuing to suffer in a life I hate.

It's a small cabin I booked on Airbnb. It's about 2m^3 in size. Very small. And I am using about 3kg of hardwood charcoal, which is supposedly 90% carbon

i will be joining you in forever slumber soon. you are not alone. and i hope the transition goes smoothly for you

Thank you

Have you done everything you wanted in this life? If not, what are they? Hope you rest easy now.

Far from it. But hope to have a restart or be reincarnated as a cat in my next life though

What's your hottest take in this final hour?

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for <3

I think everyone would benefit if we gave people who wanna die a dignified and safe way out.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

No, it's just that objectively my life sucks a lot.

So does mine. I hear you. There ain't no pill for that.

I didn't know they even had cabins that small. Still, 3kg doesn't sound like a lot of charcoal, at least not an amount that will reduce suffering to a minimum. I'll be using at least 3x that much in a 3-person tent. I'm not sure about the 90% carbon content.

Have you already gone into the cabin with the burning charcoal? If it doesn't feel like you are going to pass out within a few minutes, AT MOST, abort the attempt. That's too long. You can suffer severe neurological damage if you somehow don't die. If the level just isn't high enough to do the job, it's better to abort and not be impaired, so you can live to die another day.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

How does peace feel like?

 

[jifscrater]

So does mine. I hear you. There ain't no pill for that.

I didn't know they even had cabins that small. Still, 3kg doesn't sound like a lot of charcoal, at least not an amount that will reduce suffering to a minimum. I'll be using at least 3x that much in a 3-person tent. I'm not sure about the 90% carbon content.

Have you already gone into the cabin with the burning charcoal? If it doesn't feel like you are going to pass out within a few minutes, AT MOST, abort the attempt. That's too long. You can suffer severe neurological damage if you somehow don't die. If the level just isn't high enough to do the job, it's better to abort and not be impaired, so you can live to die another day.

Hate to admit another failure. But I think you are right. 3kg just isn't enough. I did have a second grill with another 3kg but that was having issues and I thought this one would do the trick by itself.
Also this cabin seems to have too much airflow.Didn't think it would matter that much. But guess I am wrong considering I have been in here for 2 hrs now.

Welp. Time for my backup plan then. I will buy a tent tomorrow evening and attempt again tomorrow night. Any suggestions of which types I should be looking for. I am a complete noob when it comes to it.

Also this is the charcoal am using. Not sure where I read the 90% number but i remember ordering it online after spotting it specifically

 

[Lyn]

Hate to admit another failure. But I think you are right. 3kg just isn't enough. I did have a second grill with another 3kg but that was having issues and I thought this one would do the trick by itself.
Also this cabin seems to have too much airflow.Didn't think it would matter that much. But guess I am wrong considering I have been in here for 2 hrs now.

Welp. Time for my backup plan then. I will buy a tent tomorrow evening and attempt again tomorrow night. Any suggestions of which types I should be looking for. I am a complete noob when it comes to it.

I'm really sorry to hear that you've reached this point. I hope you'll get what you really want.

As for tents... I don't know much about this. The only thing I can tell is that you might want to search this place for some keywords like "Malawi 2". People who used it seemed to additionally seal it a lot though.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

so how do you light all that charcoal, to where it can all be utilizied at the same time?
i assume you light it outside and bring it in, right?
what tools do you use technically?
to light it and everything.

hope you obtain whatever result you want <3

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Hate to admit another failure. But I think you are right. 3kg just isn't enough. I did have a second grill with another 3kg but that was having issues and I thought this one would do the trick by itself.
Also this cabin seems to have too much airflow.Didn't think it would matter that much. But guess I am wrong considering I have been in here for 2 hrs now.

Welp. Time for my backup plan then. I will buy a tent tomorrow evening and attempt again tomorrow night. Any suggestions of which types I should be looking for. I am a complete noob when it comes to it.

Also this is the charcoal am using. Not sure where I read the 90% number but i remember ordering it online after spotting it specifically

Yeah, sounds like it's best to abort this attempt. Please, for any future attempts, if after a few minutes you are not unconscious, GET OUT into fresh air.

As far as a tent, make sure it has an attached ground sheet and none of those "peak" vents. As few screened vents as possible. One entrance. You are going to have to seal any/all screens/vents. Plastic of some sort and tape, or maybe a rubberized "sealant" could work. A former member used a Regatta Malawi tent. It's one of those pop-up styles. It's only a 2-person tent, though, but should be enough room if you use small-ish metal pails to put burning charcoal into, and keep them at center of tent on bricks. Starting charcoal in chimney starters and waiting until they're burning nice and red hot before transferring to pails is how I'd do it. Then move pails into tent and wait a little more, 15 - 20 minutes, for CO to build up. Then get into tent quickly and get entrance closed.

REALLY, if after a few minutes you don't pass out, the CO level isn't high enough. Just get out to fresh air, revise your plan, and try again at another time.

The charcoal is *probably* ok, although I can't know for certain.

 

[jadeturtle]

Was there a moment in your life that if it went differently, you wouldn't be here and you might be happy?

 

[jifscrater]

One entrance. You are going to have to seal any/all screens/vents. Plastic of some sort and tape, or maybe a rubberized "sealant" could work.

What type of plastic are you thinking of the only once I can think of are plastic bags, but will they be enough? and what's a rubberized sealant, can't find it anywhere.

And thank you so much for the help. You are an angel