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NoRespawn

NoRespawn

permadeath
Jun 8, 2024
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long before my pc died, (with a graphic tablet) so did my passion for drawing/animating. Spent years practicing to get better, when I should've been outside forming connections and learning how to communicate with others.

It upsets me that even after years of inactivity, i can still pick up a pencil and draw decent anatomy, and if I kept at it I know I get to where I used to be, but I just don't feel it anymore.

nowadays i only draw a quick sketch (and never finish) just to get some emotions out and then go inactive till the next blue moon.

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if any of you have any art of your own or anything you go to when you're feeling suicidal, i'd love it if you'd share with us please.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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Here is a piece of vent art I made a while back

 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
I got one of these 'Boogie Board' sketch pads a little while ago and drew this. Sorry about all the dust it collected. There's just so much dust in my house. :/

Normally I don't consider myself a very good artist to successfully rely on art therapy though. I used to make crude comic strips in my notebooks but they much like myself are extremely cringe and also weren't actually all that helpful…
 
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overmorrow

overmorrow

it hurts so bad, i can taste it
Oct 15, 2024
261
I wish I could draw like you, I'm decent but not drawing for a while, and still making good sketches is impressive ngl, I'm pretty rusty rn
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
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I totally get you, I spent my life until early 20s drawing and painting a lot, feeling like I was behind everyone else. I forced myself so much that I started hating to draw. It resulted in a 10 year art block.

I restarted painting around 2 years ago and when I was actively suicidal I did paint more as I couldn't work. I did a painting of myself hanged from my own brain, which I felt captured my feelings quite well and I liked my painting techniques, but if I look back at it I can still see a lot of flaws.

Painting is such a personal thing, I should have never tried to make it my job, it ruined the magic.

I hope you can recover, art is a great outlet. It felt good to be able to ctb in my painting, I think art can be liberating.
 
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binturong

shining of stars calls me home
Jul 4, 2019
105
After graduating as an artist, I almost stopped drawing, studying exhausted me. Later I realized that I don't want to sell my art and that I don't want to draw serious things, I decided that I will draw only for myself, it doesn't matter whether others like it, I just want it to be sincere. In recent years, my inspiration has been returning and this year I promised myself to start implementing my ideas but I got stuck in an OCD episode (I don't have OCD, but I have something similar because I'm autistic).
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absolutelyyou

absolutelyyou

peaceful
Jul 26, 2023
168
Really forcing myself into my art hobbies has helped me mentally a lot. I kinda had to 'fake it till i make it' if you will as I wont WANT to create (I dont really draw but I do sew) but I still intellectually understand that its good for my brain. It redirects thoughts, gives me a different focus, and gives me some dopamine from accomplishing things that makes it feel a little easier to come back to it the next time. You should keep up with your drawing more, you have a great style and talent already and I bet with more time spent doing it could end up being really really incredible, dude.
 
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