Venting Arranged marriage

[callofthevoid_]

i spend a lot of my time weaving the perfect scenario where there's a chance for me to have a life. If I'm being completely realistic, my only way out is to marry a strange man in the hopes that he'd let me live a happier life, there are a lot of issues with that tho, the most pathetic one being that there's no damn man who wants my hand in marriage, it's like im completely invisible. but then, even if i do somehow get married, he'll want to get close to me, to know me, im terrible at getting people to like me once they know me, and he'll want kids, pretty much all guys go for arranged marriages to have kids. I would never wish to curse a soul with life. I can't do that. The thing is, i desperately want to live, i just want to do it on my own terms, this might be the silliest thing anyone would choose death for, but these walls suffocate me, if I'm spending the rest of my life in this room, i don't want to live.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Why is marriage your only way out?

 

[Not A Fan]

i spend a lot of my time weaving the perfect scenario where there's a chance for me to have a life. If I'm being completely realistic, my only way out is to marry a strange man in the hopes that he'd let me live a happier life, there are a lot of issues with that tho, the most pathetic one being that there's no damn man who wants my hand in marriage, it's like im completely invisible. but then, even if i do somehow get married, he'll want to get close to me, to know me, im terrible at getting people to like me once they know me, and he'll want kids, pretty much all guys go for arranged marriages to have kids. I would never wish to curse a soul with life. I can't do that. The thing is, i desperately want to live, i just want to do it on my own terms, this might be the silliest thing anyone would choose death for, but these walls suffocate me, if I'm spending the rest of my life in this room, i don't want to live.

We're all definitely better off, the more people who choose not to procreate. Your reluctance is well-founded.

 

[Worndown]

Arranged marriages sometimes work. Probably not what you need.
Is there a way you can step out of your situation? Run away is a good term.
While you do not get close to people easily, you would need to balance that with you need to do so. Needs over confort.
Living requires sacrifice and adjustments. I hope you can find a balance that works for you.

 

[callofthevoid_]

Why is marriage your only way out?

Very strict religious family in a very strict religious country

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Very strict religious family in a very strict religious country

Oh, that sucks. I'm sorry you are in that situation.

 

[Beyond_Repair]

It's not silly at all, I think everyone wants to live life on their own terms. It's human nature to want to be free. I'm sorry you're suffering

 

[Worndown]

For all those looking forward to elections this year...this is why mixing ones religion and politics/government is a terrible idea.