BeforeYouFallAsleep
a corpse is talking
- Oct 11, 2023
- 53
i feel like i lost the will to live and get better. I hear from my parents all the time that i was so different a few years back and they are wondering what happened.
Everytime i just want to tell them that the old me died two years ago and isn't comming back.
My past is just blurry and i don't know how i was back then. Like you lost yourself and are now on a busride looking out the window, waiting for your final stop
I am just doing "things" without knowing, if i want to do them
I feel like i perceive the world around me differently. I can still see what is around me but it' kinda.. blured or intangible like you're falling asleep or are sleepwalking.
Sometimes i kinda snap out of it and notice yeah that really is a nice color or yeah that is indeed a chair. This might sound really stupid but you kinda lose grip on the "real" world. Like looking through a cloudy window and opening it occasionally. This might also be that i'm off my meds but idk tbh
Everytime i just want to tell them that the old me died two years ago and isn't comming back.
My past is just blurry and i don't know how i was back then. Like you lost yourself and are now on a busride looking out the window, waiting for your final stop
I am just doing "things" without knowing, if i want to do them
I feel like i perceive the world around me differently. I can still see what is around me but it' kinda.. blured or intangible like you're falling asleep or are sleepwalking.
Sometimes i kinda snap out of it and notice yeah that really is a nice color or yeah that is indeed a chair. This might sound really stupid but you kinda lose grip on the "real" world. Like looking through a cloudy window and opening it occasionally. This might also be that i'm off my meds but idk tbh
