are you promiscuous or into porn?

[callme]

Essentially my sex drive is far too high and I have to "drain" myself frequently

Have you starred in bukkake?

 

[again_noidea]

I experienced the abolition of my porn and fetish addiction when i was around 25 years old. it was a great relief and made my life better in all sorts of ways.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I experienced the abolition of my porn and fetish addiction when i was around 25 years old. it was a great relief and made my life better in all sorts of ways.

I believe that. The reason i created this thread is because i think for sub group of people here, porn/sex addiction could fuel suicidality in part. I imagine it to be mentally healthier not to dabble in those things

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I too actually abandoned porn and overcame it (no pun intended XD) but THAT's when I could no longer sit in my college classes because my prostate was enflamed. Ha. It's like life decided to condemn me to having to keep masturbating. I'm serious chronic prostatitis should make one eligible for assisted suicide. The amount of mental fuckery and neurological issues associated with it all are unbearable.

 

[callme]

I believe that. The reason i created this thread is because i think for sub group of people here, porn/sex addiction could fuel suicidality in part. I imagine it to be mentally healthier not to dabble in those things

And what do you suuggest for those who have nothing else remaining?! Die in a ditch?

Of course the two are highly correlated. Watching porn for so long is usually because of no success. And nothing to live for.

 

[again_noidea]

I believe that. The reason i created this thread is because i think for sub group of people here, porn/sex addiction could fuel suicidality in part. I imagine it to be mentally healthier not to dabble in those things

My experience is that they function as a layer or a compensation for some "suppressed" emotion. If you get rid of them the suppressed emotion will be available for integration and review.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I too actually abandoned porn and overcame it (no pun intended XD) but THAT's when I could no longer sit in my college classes because my prostate was enflamed. Ha. It's like life decided to condemn me to having to keep masturbating. I'm serious chronic prostatitis should make one eligible for assisted suicide. The amount of mental fuckery and neurological issues associated with it all are unbearable.

The carnivore diet help regulate my libido and also benefited me with inflammatory issues i had. Maybe give it a shot?

And what do you suuggest for those who have nothing else remaining?! Die in a ditch?

Of course the two are highly correlated. Watching porn for so long is usually because of no success. And nothing to live for.

I think porn addiction does alot of damage to the reward circuit in the brain. It could lead to desensitization where doing more of the same behavior will not bring as much reward signalling in the brain. I just think it is harmful behavior and makes things worse overall

 

[callme]

I think porn addiction does alot of damage to the reward circuit in the brain. It could lead to desensitization where doing more of the same behavior will not bring as much reward signalling in the brain. I just think it is harmful behavior and makes things worse overall

Yes, defo. Desensitizes you into watching extreme and gross things like it did to me. But there is no turning back. Not to mention it brings you to be the ultimate low-effort doomer.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes, defo. Desensitizes you into watching extreme and gross things like it did to me. But there is no turning back. Not to mention it brings you to be the ultimate low-effort doomer.

I disagree about no turning back because it is like any addiction, it can be treated and reversed over a period of time

 

[callme]

I disagree about no turning back because it is like any addiction, it can be treated and reversed over a period of time

No $$, no funny.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

The carnivore diet help regulate my libido and also benefited me with inflammatory issues i had. Maybe give it a shot?

I'm vegan.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I'm vegan.

Vegan diet in long term can cause problems and make pre existing conditions worse. I understand if you are on it for ethical reasons. Good luck

 

[Deleted member 8975]

Vegan diet in long term can cause problems and make pre existing conditions worse. I understand if you are on it for ethical reasons. Good luck

Actually, my issues arose prior to veganism and my health has improved since becoming vegan. Supposedly people can even live longer as vegans. Veganism does not = soy/artificial/processed consumption which a lotta people assume.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Actually, my issues arose prior to veganism and my health has improved since becoming vegan. Supposedly people can even live longer as vegans. Veganism does not = soy/artificial/processed consumption which a lotta people assume.

Vegan diet can have positive effects on health compared to all standard diet with no constraints. Plant matter however can be problematic with things like insoluble fiber, carbs, oxalates, anti nutrients can cause inflammation and digestive problems like SIBO, indigestion and bloating etc. The Body thrives better and heals on animal proteins, omega 3s, saturated fats. By eliminating plants and introducing animal products you could feel better than even a healthy vegan diet.

 

[restforeternity]

I wish I could meet someone like that. Even if I did it would be unlikely she would want to be a partner in a poly relationship.

I am sorry about the discomfort you feel everyday. Yes, I exist...and no I am not into that poly-amorous lifestyle... Since the suicide of my life partner, I hit my rock bottom and I slept around via a hookup app (sadly)...I was becoming a person whom I did not want to be, a slut. I decided to stick with one person to sleep with but even that wasn't working out for me. Even just a FWB, wasn't for me at all.
As days went by, I was getting more attached and that "relationship" became toxic. I had to stop giving him visits. I wish to never be in that mess again.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

Vegan diet can have positive effects on health compared to all standard diet with no constraints. Plant matter however can be problematic with things like insoluble fiber, carbs, oxalates, anti nutrients can cause inflammation and digestive problems like SIBO, indigestion and bloating etc. The Body thrives better and heals on animal proteins, omega 3s, saturated fats. By eliminating plants and introducing animal products you could feel better than even a healthy vegan diet.

I honestly do wonder sometimes if my depression has worsened since becoming vegetarian and subsequently vegan but I think overhaul it's mostly directly related to the traumas I've been through and total lack of emotional support.

But yeah there are also a plethora of ethical issues I have with non vegan diets and I'm committed to veganism now. It actually disgusts me to think of consuming anything from an animal.

I am sorry about the discomfort you feel everyday. Yes, I exist...and no I am not into that poly-amorous lifestyle... Since the suicide of my life partner, I hit my rock bottom and I slept around via a hookup app (sadly)...I was becoming a person whom I did not want to be, a slut. I decided to stick with one person to sleep with but even that wasn't working out for me. Even just a FWB, wasn't for me at all.
As days went by, I was getting more attached and that "relationship" became toxic. I had to stop giving him visits. I wish to never be in that mess again.

Thanks and it's okay. Another thing that greatly helps is just out right sleeping through the days. When I was able to work, keeping completely busy and on my feet was great but also added to the horniness…exercise like they say to relieve it or lessen actually raises it for me. I basically have to work out like crazy allll day long till I pass out at night to be able to sleep through it otherwise I'll be awake non stop with insomnia.

I am so sorry about you losing your partner :/ Can I ask what happened?

There is no way I could I hookup I dont think because I would just become more depressed after the fact. People don't commit though these days anymore. Problems? Leave. Block. Ghost. People don't care about communicating at all and the slightest infraction leads to outright exiling. I just stay to myself now like I'm told.

And good for you for standing up for yourself :D

 

[Snake of Eden]

I honestly do wonder sometimes if my depression has worsened since becoming vegetarian and subsequently vegan but I think overhaul it's mostly directly related to the traumas I've been through and total lack of emotional support.

But yeah there are also a plethora of ethical issues I have with non vegan diets and I'm committed to veganism now. It actually disgusts me to think of consuming anything from an animal.

Just keep an eye on the trajectory of your health while being on this diet. If things get worse with time you may want to consider your diet had something to do with it. I personally respect the stance of not hurting animals but I understand that our biological nature makes it so that some animals are essential food source that can never be replaced. Good luck with your health

 

[Lauralyn]

Watch occasionally but kinda boring these days. More promiscuous lately I guess just lots of self hate. Normally I prefer to keep my partners low but this past year kinda undid that. Stuff that used to matter just doesn't anymore.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yes I was exposed to these things early on. My dad would watch videos, and I saw some of them. When I became a teen I was into a lot of masturbation and phone sex but I felt some guilt

I'm just now remembering I was touched inappropriately by some kids in early elementary school however I now know they were innocent and reenacting what they were exposed to at home. This is not good this is why children shouldn't be exposed to anything like sex until teen years or 18 for consent and to know about assault . I now forgive those kids as it wasn't any of their fault. The problem is when someone is aware of what they are doing and that is corruption/inhumane assault and they are of age to be aware of their acts they need to be imprisoned for life.

 

[Zzzzz]

I had a phase where I hooked up regularly, but not so much anymore. I am of the opinion that porn ,sex, and masturbation are not harmful to people, if done in moderation .Too much of Anything in life will cause harm.

 

[Makko]

Yes, & perpetually horny, needy creeps like me are extra super powerful

Would you trade that for spending your evenings limply sitting on the floor with your face in your hands while your demons eat you from the inside and there's nothing you can do to even distract yourself?

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I don't really like sex. Well, I do for the first month or two (with someone new) but then the novelty wears off and I prefer to go solo if you catch my drift. I can't fully quit porn despite trying multiple times. I go for long periods without it but do eventually cave, even though it does bore me as such.

 

[motel rooms]

Would you trade that for spending your evenings limply sitting on the floor with your face in your hands while your demons eat you from the inside and there's nothing you can do to even distract yourself?

No, I admit I wouldn't. I only sleep about 5 h & I intensely suffer 2-3 h per day (nightmares not included). The pain is sometimes just psychological, but it's usually physical as well (headache, muscle spasms, occasional vomiting). It does go away, however, & it gets replaced by horniness. Being perpetually sexually aroused makes it hard for me to focus on work & chores, it's annoying, embarrassing & even humiliating & dangerous (dealing with other oversexed, often aggressive men + the male reproductive system isn't made of steel), but I do get to completely escape reality & experience pleasure & release for a couple of hours every day. Things are better now that I have a bf because just holding him is pretty satisfying, but I still need too much sex. He's trying to fight his alcoholism & we're both traumatized whores; it's only a matter of time before I make a huge mess of everything by dragging other whores into our relationship. He says he's not possessive, but I am; I don't want to watch him get fucked by someone else even though I know he's a sex worker who's been fucked a thousand times, but that shit is bound to happen because we're so messed up. I would kill for him & I'd never kick him out, I love him & I know he loves me even more for being the only person who doesn't think he's worthless, but can we really rise above all this filth we've been immersed in all our goddamn lives? Only if we castrate ourselves...

I'm sorry I made this all about me, you're probably bored & annoyed by pathetic gay drama. I said I threw up occasionally & then I just had to proceed to prove it... I assume you feel like a desperately numb caged tigress, full of potential that you simply can't find a way to realize. I'm not numb, I feel everything intensely, but I used to have a lot of potential & dreams too, & I was forced to watch them all burn & turn into ashes. For what it's worth, I know how it feels to lie on the floor & writhe about in agony as my demons eat me from the inside, & all I can do is groan for 2 h & beg the God I don't believe in to bash my brains in...

You've been posting a lot more jokes, memes & gifs lately. Can you derive anything at least resembling momentary relief from humor?

 

[Snake of Eden]

Sorry to interject on this exchange, but I couldnt help but point out that I am astonished by your description of your sex drive. Mine is almost diminished at 36 by now and that left me with huge void that I was never faced with before in my entire life. Have you given thought to the possibility that yours too will drastically decrease with age and then what would you do when you no longer have the same needs you once did? It may take you by surprise just like it did with me as it made my mental health in many ways worse off. Better be prepared than sorry

No, I admit I wouldn't. I only sleep about 5 h & I intensely suffer 2-3 h per day (nightmares not included). The pain is sometimes just psychological, but it's usually physical as well (headache, muscle spasms, occasional vomiting). It does go away, however, & it gets replaced by horniness. Being perpetually sexually aroused makes it hard for me to focus on work & chores, it's annoying, embarrassing & even humiliating & dangerous (dealing with other oversexed, often aggressive men + the male reproductive system isn't made of steel), but I do get to completely escape reality & experience pleasure & release for a couple of hours every day. Things are better now that I have a bf because just holding him is pretty satisfying, but I still need too much sex. He's trying to fight his alcoholism & we're both traumatized whores; it's only a matter of time before I make a huge mess of everything by dragging other whores into our relationship. He says he's not possessive, but I am; I don't want to watch him get fucked by someone else even though I know he's a sex worker who's been fucked a thousand times, but that shit is bound to happen because we're so messed up.
I would kill for him & I'd never kick him out, I love him & I know he loves me even more for being the only person who doesn't think he's worthless, but can we really rise above all this filth we've been immersed in all our goddamn lives? Only if we castrate ourselves...

I'm sorry I made this all about me, you're probably bored & annoyed by pathetic gay drama. I said I threw up occasionally & then I just had to proceed to prove it... I assume you feel like a desperately numb caged tigress, full of potential that you simply can't find a way to realize. I'm not numb, I feel everything intensely, but I used to have a lot of potential & dreams too, & I was forced to watch them all burn & turn into ashes. For what it's worth, I know how it feels to lie on the floor & writhe about in agony as my demons eat me from the inside, & all I can do is groan for 2 h & beg the God I don't believe in to bash my brains in...

 

[motel rooms]

I couldnt help but point out that I am astonished by your description of your sex drive. Mine is almost diminished at 36 by now and that left me with huge void that I was never faced with before in my entire life. Have you given thought to the possibility that yours too will drastically decrease with age and then what would you do when you no longer have the same needs you once did? It may take you by surprise just like it did with me as it made my mental health in many ways worse off. Better be prepared than sorry

I'm 40. I'm hypersexual / a sex addict because almost ten years of childhood sexual abuse (CSA) rewired my brain. I can have an orgasm & feel incredibly horny again in 10 minutes, even if my penis is still soft. I am not making this up; I am not bragging; hypersexuality is not a superpower, it is a curse. A significant number of people who have borderline personality disorder & bipolar disorder suffer from it too.

I've communicated with many victims of CSA who suffer from hypersexuality over the years; some of them were in their 70s & 80s & they still had insanely high libidos. They were still able to have orgasms even though they sometimes couldn't get hard just by gently rubbing their glans (head of the penis). Orgasms happen in the head, a man doesn't need to get an erection & ejaculate to have one; all he needs is a glans (the male equivalent of a clitoris) & a horny brain.

What would I do if I completely lost my sex drive? I would lose the only effective way of keeping my traumas at bay & be forced to ctb. Like I said, when flashbacks of my abuse hit, I already writhe about in agony, groan & beg the God I don't believe in to bash my brains in... I'm only alive because I finally told my humiliating life story to another damaged guy I've known & cared about for a while, & he cried with me & accepted me for the fucked up person that I am -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-hope-this-is-a-goodbye.73128/page-2

 

[SleepDealer]

Sweet, now I know what to force-feed my catboy slave if I ever get around to buying one.

Please share your sources, I have needs.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I've communicated with many victims of CSA who suffer from hypersexuality over the years; some of them were in their 70s & 80s & they still had insanely high libidos. They were still able to have orgasms even though they sometimes couldn't get hard just by gently rubbing their glans (head of the penis). Orgasms happen in the head, a man doesn't need to get an erection & ejaculate to have one; all he needs is a glans (the male equivalent of a clitoris) & a horny brain.

What would I do if I completely lost my sex drive? I would lose the only effective way of keeping my traumas at bay & be forced to ctb. Like I said, when flashbacks of my abuse hit, I already writhe about in agony, groan & beg the God I don't believe in to bash my brains in... I'm only alive because I finally told my humiliating life story to another damaged guy I've known & cared about for a while, & he cried with me & accepted me for the fucked up person that I am -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-hope-this-is-a-goodbye.73128/page-2

I never heard of that before that abuse at young age can make people turn into hyper-sexual adults but it makes alot of sense about trauma changing brain neuroplasticity. It is also interesting to know that some people have high libido at very advanced ages as it is the opposite usually. I am 36 gay male and my sex drive was pretty normal to high and it peaked around age 34 but it drastically diminished now. I am not worried medically speaking as I can still feel aroused if I want to but there is no longer this horniness that is pressing. In alot of ways I feel liberated as I am no longer under the control of my horniness and that is good in a way but I feel that I lost a big part of what made me who I am as a young adult. As I entered this phase in life, it got illuminated to me how my sex drive led me to make many bad deicisions during my youth and I should have known better which is causing alot of feelings of guilt. I am glad however that I had pleasant chances to express and enjoy my sexuality and I accept that I may no longer have the same capacity to experience the same things again. After all it is part of what makes us human to change and evolve. It saddens me that you are the way you are because of someone else's wrong doing. I am familiar with your story and to be honest, i didnt want to believe that it is real as I have hard time accepting that evil things like that can happen. I hope that you find your light in life and that you one day be released of the darkness of what happened to you at young age

 

[motel rooms]

I hope that you find your light in life and that you one day be released of the darkness of what happened to you at young age

I just hope that at least 10 % of those stories about gay men who stay together despite being in open relationships are true. I know I'll occasionally sleep with other guys, but I'd like my bf to stop doing risky sex work & to marry him so he can inherit my dead parents' house, which I rent out. I don't want him to end up homeless when I'm gone, he has nothing

 

[AwaySeaweed]

What in the world have this thread turned into?

lmao I can't unread all this.

 

[Makko]

No, I admit I wouldn't. I only sleep about 5 h & I intensely suffer 2-3 h per day (nightmares not included). The pain is sometimes just psychological, but it's usually physical as well (headache, muscle spasms, occasional vomiting). It does go away, however, & it gets replaced by horniness. Being perpetually sexually aroused makes it hard for me to focus on work & chores, it's annoying, embarrassing & even humiliating & dangerous (dealing with other oversexed, often aggressive men + the male reproductive system isn't made of steel), but I do get to completely escape reality & experience pleasure & release for a couple of hours every day. Things are better now that I have a bf because just holding him is pretty satisfying, but I still need too much sex. He's trying to fight his alcoholism & we're both traumatized whores; it's only a matter of time before I make a huge mess of everything by dragging other whores into our relationship. He says he's not possessive, but I am; I don't want to watch him get fucked by someone else even though I know he's a sex worker who's been fucked a thousand times, but that shit is bound to happen because we're so messed up. I would kill for him & I'd never kick him out, I love him & I know he loves me even more for being the only person who doesn't think he's worthless, but can we really rise above all this filth we've been immersed in all our goddamn lives? Only if we castrate ourselves...

I somehow understand this experience, what libido is to you sounds very similar to what daydreaming is to me. You can only rise above it by replacing it with something that has even more magnetism. The world isn't exactly rife with things that can hold attention, but those who live may find.

I'm sorry I made this all about me, you're probably bored & annoyed by pathetic gay drama. I said I threw up occasionally & then I just had to proceed to prove it... I assume you feel like a desperately numb caged tigress, full of potential that you simply can't find a way to realize. I'm not numb, I feel everything intensely, but I used to have a lot of potential & dreams too, & I was forced to watch them all burn & turn into ashes. For what it's worth, I know how it feels to lie on the floor & writhe about in agony as my demons eat me from the inside, & all I can do is groan for 2 h & beg the God I don't believe in to bash my brains in...

I like your gay drama. There's a zest to it that hetero drama somehow doesn't have. And apparently I find it relatable on a level, as improbable as that is.

I've had to find out the hard way that numbness doesn't protect from existential terror and moral derangement, it only increases them and drives you to seek out unorthodox ways to stimulate yourself. Since the only thing I do is work I've had to find something there, and found that I get a kick out of sharp dealing, which puts my reputation on the line but I still can't keep myself away from it.

You've been posting a lot more jokes, memes & gifs lately. Can you derive anything at least resembling momentary relief from humor?

It's more finger exercise than relief. Might as well post a meme instead of just staring at the screen and zoning out. I'm on leave for a short while so the activity boost is temporary.