Are you not afraid?

[throwaway123]

I feel like my fear has taken over me. It used to be bad when I was at the bridge but now I have constant panic attacks when I'm home in my room. It's becoming unbearable and I don't know what to do.

I'm too tired to live and too scared to die.

It's the worst when I'm trying to sleep. My fear is so bad. Right now it's so bad. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I'm so close to a complete mental breakdown. I wish I could just overcome my fear and do it but that's just a pipedream.

help me die please. I don't want to be stuck here forever.

 

[jaemus12]

Do you want the truth or lie?

Spoiler: Lie

No. I'm not scared. I'm going to get my shit in order and wait for the perfect opportunity to ctb.

Spoiler: Truth

I am terrified as fuck. Life sucks so I want to die but I'm terrified of dying. I'm stuck between two evils.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Do you want the truth or lie?

Spoiler: Lie

No. I'm not scared. I'm going to get my shit in order and wait for the perfect opportunity to ctb.

Spoiler: Truth

I am terrified as fuck. Life sucks so I want to die but I'm terrified of dying. I'm stuck between two evils.

I love your spoilers

 

[Readytoendit]

Honestly not that scared, but that will probably change when I have my method ready and start trying to build up the courage to take it.

 

[Taylored]

I'm not scared I'm just lazy

 

[josh228]

I'm not scared I'm just lazy

liar/delusional. OP anyone who says they arent afraid either are lying or they havnt come that close to actually executing their plan. Most of these people that say they arent afraid only think about suicide, never making it real (at this moment in time at least).

There is nothing that can be done op, you either overcome it or you dont, thats it. 200000 years of human survival, there is a reason for it. Our overwhelming fear of death.

 

[skitliv]

Afraid as fuck

 

[MachineGunDani]

I can relate. I can't live but I'm scared to do it

 

[Shay]

liar/delusional. OP anyone who says they arent afraid either are lying or they havnt come that close to actually executing their plan. Most of these people that say they arent afraid only think about suicide, never making it real (at this moment in time at least).

There is nothing that can be done op, you either overcome it or you dont, thats it. 200000 years of human survival, there is a reason for it. Our overwhelming fear of death.

I don't know anyone who is not scared when it becomes a reality.

 

[wagram]

Not scared.
I just wanna do soon

 

[Miss clefable]

I'm not sure

 

[windingdown]

I go through ups and downs of feeling scared and not. The closer it is (hmm... if I move these things around, I could do it tonight) the more afraid I feel, cause it's real.

It is comforting to me to know that it is scary for literally everyone.

But what's the alternative? Die of old age? Ha. haha.

 

[Lra888]

I am afraid unfortunately.

Focusing on the planning and acquiring the means is calming to me because it motivates me and gives my actions purpose. But I know when it comes down to following through, it gets very difficult — a panic attack to finish the act.

I also feel a nervous sense of urgency to follow through and joy at the ability to be free from everything i'm suffering from.

 

[Lra888]

It helps to get drunk / drugged beforehand. That's how i got the courage to do a partial suspension - I was still nervous and feeling the adrenaline but the blacking out was mixed in with the haze of alcohol and opiates so I didn't have to push myself not did I overthink the lowering of my weight etc so it went pretty smoothly. It failed because I was using a cord that snapped as I did this in an urgent moment without any decent planning.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Someday there will be no fear. Either when you're 100% ready to do it or when you're 100% just seconds away from dying of some great terminal illness.

Either way, in the end we all win. That's what I enjoy about it all. If I'm too stupid to do myself in, nature will do it for me. The sooner the better.

Argument could also be made that nature will install a suicidal urge that will be too great to resist. The sooner the better.

 

[Lra888]

liar/delusional. OP anyone who says they arent afraid either are lying or they havnt come that close to actually executing their plan. Most of these people that say they arent afraid only think about suicide, never making it real (at this moment in time at least).

There is nothing that can be done op, you either overcome it or you dont, thats it. 200000 years of human survival, there is a reason for it. Our overwhelming fear of death.

But also human attraction to death. Look at the Aztecs where people were enthusiastic & honored to be human sacrifice. Death is the great unknown and the curiosity to die & know the truth is always there.

 

[Lra888]

I feel like my fear has taken over me. It used to be bad when I was at the bridge but now I have constant panic attacks when I'm home in my room. It's becoming unbearable and I don't know what to do.

I'm too tired to live and too scared to die.

It's the worst when I'm trying to sleep. My fear is so bad. Right now it's so bad. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I'm so close to a complete mental breakdown. I wish I could just overcome my fear and do it but that's just a pipedream.

help me die please. I don't want to be stuck here forever.

I feel that constant panic too, can never rest, concentrate or sit still for any length of time. Just overwhelming feeling of claustrophobia - the need to get out of here. Restful sleep is impossible because I always wake up several times a night and my racing thoughts don't allow me to fall back to sleep.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I'm too tired to live and too scared to die.

This is me, 110%

 

[Cee]

i am absolutely afraid of everything about death. such a weird situation to be afraid of something thats constantly on your mind

 

[Clover_]

I think I'm more afraid of living, I don't fear death in the abstract though. More fear of the process of getting there.

 

[josh228]

I think I'm more afraid of living, I don't fear death in the abstract though. More fear of the process of getting there.

I think thats a lie Im sorry. Maybe you arent intelligent enough to understand the implications of eternal oblivion. Its a pretty terrifying concept.

 

[Lra888]

I think I'm more afraid of living, I don't fear death in the abstract though. More fear of the process of getting there.

Exactly. I dont fear death, I fear what I have to go through to achieve it. Committing suicide is an act of courage.

 

[josh228]

Exactly. I dont fear death, I fear what I have to go through to achieve it. Committing suicide is an act of courage.

lies, im sorry. I dont believe that for a second. Anyone that says they dont fear death is either lying or delusional.

 

[Clover_]

I think thats a lie Im sorry. Maybe you arent intelligent enough to understand the implications of eternal oblivion. Its a pretty terrifying concept.

It's terrifying to some, comforting to others. Without the ability to perceive it, though? I don't see much for me personally to fear. The transition to that state is troubling, sure, but personally I find the thought of a world without me in it a comfort. You do you. Thanks for insulting my intelligence, though, random internet stranger.

 

[josh228]

It's terrifying to some, comforting to others. Without the ability to perceive it, though? I don't see much for me personally to fear. The transition to that state is troubling, sure, but personally I find the thought of a world without me in it a comfort. You do you. Thanks for insulting my intelligence, though, random internet stranger.

how are you going to kill yourself , if i may ask? Do you have everything planned to the last detail so you could execute at any moments notice?

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I'm terrified of it. I have two major stumbling blocks - the act itself, but even more than that I worry if there's an afterlife where I'm held accountable for what I did. I'm also deeply concerned for those I would leave behind. There are a few people I know would probably never get over it.

I suppose I just can't take what life is doing to me, it feels extreme, cruel, and imbalanced. I wish I had never been born, or that something else would kill me instead. I always feel completely overwhelmed by life, like I've been drowned three times over. When that feeling becomes totally overbearing, I am quite sure it will override all the reservations I posted above.

 

[AndyCurious]

lies, im sorry. I dont believe that for a second. Anyone that says they dont fear death is either lying or delusional.

How can you honestly say that? It is impossible for you to know...

 

[josh228]

How can you honestly say that? It is impossible for you to know...

water is wet?

 

[Lra888]

lies, im sorry. I dont believe that for a second. Anyone that says they dont fear death is either lying or delusional.

People who have chronic pain / mental illness / sickness are not able to have a decent life so dying is desirable. Illness poisons every aspect of living including thought. So I am delusional I guess.

 

[AndyCurious]

People who have chronic pain / mental illness / sickness are not able to have a decent life so dying is desirable. Illness poisons every aspect of living including thought. So I am delusional I guess.

I doubt you are delusional.. What other may think about you, me or anyone else is up to them, but no one knows you better than you.. *Hugs* <3