• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
Here's a checklist:
  • Feeling detached from my life.
  • Isolated and alone most of the time.
  • Hate where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
  • Getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushing depression.
  • Feel stuck between wanting to die and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live.
  • Sleep too much or too little.
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
  • Avoid friends and family.
  • Wasted entire days because of anxiety or depression.
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
How are you feeling now?
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: darksouls, MissAbyss, MourningFlower and 8 others
Mr. Snrub

Mr. Snrub

Specialist
Aug 10, 2025
318
11/12

I don't mind where I live.

I have no faith in my future but I wouldn't say my country is destroying itself. There are certain groups that would see to it if they got their way. As is the case everyhwere nowdays I suppose.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: darksouls
mysticatedwine

mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
204
these are the ones i recognize myself in:
  • sleep too much
  • no faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself
  • getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushingdepression
  • avoid friends (to some extent)
  • feeling detached from my life
  • feel stuck between wanting to ie and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live
  • lost faith in mental health professionals (or rather, the health system as a whole)
  • constant intrusive thoughts
not quite like you of course, and i probably feel these in different ways than you. but that's where i currently stand
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: darksouls
I

itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,668
Here's a checklist:
  • Feeling detached from my life.
Yes
  • Isolated and alone most of the time.
    Hate where I live.
Yes but I like where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
Currently employed but it will end soon and I do not see any options available and it's obviously crushing me.
  • Getting anything done is next to impossible because of crushing depression.
100%
  • Feel stuck between wanting to die and wanting to live, but struggling to find a reason to live.
Stuck only because of SI
  • Sleep too much or too little.
Too little and lay around otherwise
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
Yes
  • Avoid friends and family.
Yes
  • Wasted entire days because of anxiety or depression.
Yes weekend in particular
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
No they're trying
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
I mean I'd say most of the world
How are you feeling now?
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: darksouls
Andarna

Andarna

Back To The Sky
Sep 14, 2025
78
  • Like
Reactions: darksouls, INYGTRMTFMO and ObsidianMidnightSky
Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I identify with all of them.
 
ObsidianMidnightSky

ObsidianMidnightSky

A Void of Darkness
Aug 15, 2025
17
I am also in this post and don't like it.
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
209
  • Hate where I live.
  • Barely able to make a proper living or even afford the essentials.
  • Constant intrusive thoughts.
  • Lost faith in mental health professionals.
  • No faith in the future as I watch my country destroy itself.
 

Similar threads

T
Replies
3
Views
216
Suicide Discussion
Aflame5926
Aflame5926
woofwag
Replies
8
Views
545
Suicide Discussion
PanaxMan
P
elpurp
Replies
1
Views
234
Suicide Discussion
EmptyBottle
EmptyBottle
sillyprincessmeow
Replies
4
Views
276
Suicide Discussion
Aflame5926
Aflame5926