Discussion Are you LGBTQ+? (and is that a motivation to be here?)

[3FailedAttemptss]

I'm a trans girl (*'ω'*) and I've seen a few other LGBTQ+ people on here and I guess I just was wondering like how many of us are queer? and is that part of why you're here?

Apart from my mental issues - I think Id be less inclined to CTB if I was cisgender and didn't have a permanent gender dysphoria debuff. But I honestly cannot imagine life being cis so I'm really not sure - maybe it's a hard question to answer. Hahah I'm not even sure how to answer my own question (＞人＜;)

Honestly I think if you asked me years ago I'd probably say that being trans & queer would be a larger factor in my choosing to CTB - but now I'm more in doubt or unsure how to answer.

 

[sximii]

Im bisexual but i can't say it's ever been related to my pain and why i want to die.

 

[sadalways]

I know for a fact it's not why i'm here, but for me when it comes to lgbt stuff it's difficult to answer, i just might be bi (maybe), and i used to have some thoughts about gender dysphoria but i don't think it was actual gender dysphoria because i stopped caring about that. if i could've chosen though, i would've been born as the opposite gender.

 

[smpkie]

I am transgender but I'm not entirely sure that the pain I endured would've been any different if I was cisgender. I think I would've still ended up on this forum ngl. But to be fair, this is one of the nicest communities I've ever been in.

So no, I don't think the reason as to why I'm here is related to me being a part of the LGBTQIA+ community, though I do struggle with a lot of dysphoria.

I wish you,, and other people who struggle because of this, the best of luck <3

 

[Nervous young man]

Definitely a big part of why I feel the need to ctb. It just makes everything I try to do 90% more difficult. Making friends is harder to do, speaking up is harder to do, getting dressed is harder to do, being myself is harder to do. There are times where I wish I could just be "normal like everyone else" so I could suffer even just a little less.

 

[TheHolySword]

Panromantic asexual trans woman. Saying it is one of the reasons I want to die is an understatement.

 

[Languish]

I am a lesbian, but that has nothing to do with my longing for death. Tbh, I always felt we, (as well as bi women) had it kind of easy compared to other members of the LGBTQ+ community. There is significantly more hate and pushback against gay men, bi men, trans (though there is hate towards trans in general, trans woman seem to bear the biggest brunt of it). Even being gender neutral or non-binary has massive pushback against it. Being pan or asexual is generally just scoffed at in disbelief and largely set aside. But as a Lesbian I have never felt rejected for what I am, and any guys that pursued me and found out, ended up just telling me that was cool. Some asked if they could watch me and my ex, haha. Ugh. I still get to be objectified I guess, but I feel a sense of survivors guilt under this presidential administration, as so many in the community are hurting and choosing to die because the pushback against them is so hateful and relentless, meanwhile I can just carry on as usual and no one ever has a rude comment to say against me.

 

[Permanoir]

Being intersex is the root cause of all my problems. It's like I was forced by nature to be someone I don't want to be since I was assigned female at birth but developed secondary masculine characteristics.

 

[Namelesa]

While gender dysphoria was a part of why I wanted to die earlier in life, it isn't anymore thanks to private hrt which has given me a body I am mostly happy and comfortable and my family is supportive so being trans for me isn't a problem now. I can say I actually like being a trans girl and if I somehow was able to become cisgender I honestly won't do that.

For simplicity sake for my sexuality is bisexual and that hasn't caused any problems for me so that isn't contributing to my suicidalness.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

While gender dysphoria was a part of why I wanted to die earlier in life, it isn't anymore thanks to private hrt which has given me a body I am mostly happy and comfortable and my family is supportive so being trans for me isn't a problem now. I can say I actually like being a trans girl and if I somehow was able to become cisgender I honestly won't do that.

I was nodding the entire time I was reading this - really feel like we're on the same wavelength here.

I agree after having started HRT (albeit a few years later than I would've liked and I'm still quite early in my transition) and coming out to everyone (also got a supportive family) I don't really feel like it contributes much to me feeling the need to CTB. Of course there are times when it pains me greatly (and if you asked me when I feeling heavy dysphoria you'd get a very different answer) but there's a remarkable amount of comfort from just being on HRT and having a steady transition road ahead. Despite many a night where I wished I was born as a girl - I couldn't imagine being cis now, I'm trans and that's just who I am, I like it!!!

Though it feels a little weird for me to say being trans doesn't at all play a part in me catching my bus. I almost feel like it has to in some way despite me not really being able to put my finger on why. I mean it's such a profound part of myself so in that sense I feel like it'd only be natural for it to play a role? Or well idk right now it doesn't haha ٩( 'ω' )و

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Kind of surprised to see so many LGBTQ+ users here. Through my time browsing here I'd gathered there were a handful but I guess this is more than I expected (＞人＜;)

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I'm non-binary, asexual and birromantic (yeah, I could have left something for others). Nevertheless, none of it has something to do with my reasons for considering ctb.

 

[depthss]

IM NOT BUT I SOMETIME SWISH I WAS A TRANS MAN SO I COULD TRANSISTION ADN AT EAST LOOK MALE EVEN IF TTHAT WONT ACTUALLY MAKE SO STRONG I CAN ATLEAST LOOK AMLE SO NOBODY WILL WANT OT HURT ME AT LEATS I CAN PRETEND

 

[foreverstardust]

I'm NB and a lesbian. Used to be on T but kind of regret it idk, I have so many negative feelings wrapped up in my body and I don't think that there's any way I'd be at peace whichever way I went. I don't really think it has much to do with my desire to die though, so many other issues with my brain to cause that lol.

 

[Kyotospade]

I'm a trans woman and I'm bisexual , I'm not specifically on here just for being in the lgbtq+ community but it definitely doesn't help me.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I really started to feel part of the queer gender-nonconforming community after working a few years in San Francisco, Greenwich Village NY, and West Hollywood LA. I guess I got spoiled because those are some of the most historic hotspots in the US, but I got addicted to the vibe and everywhere else feels depressing.

 

[Q-Q]

I'm trans, but I would end up here anyway. Being trans just makes everything worse than it already is.

 

[slowdance]

I'm a bisexual woman and the most biphobia I've experienced is people saying mean things. I know bisexuals are at a higher risk for sexual assault and domestic violence but that stuff hasn't happened to me. It's not what's making life unbearable for me

 

[MeaCulpa]

I'm a lesbian, but I'm not sure how much it actually lead to where I am. It has definitely lead to difficulty with relationships and my personal life overall. I struggle to make close female friends because many people here are prejudiced-- they worry I'll hit on them/find them hot. I struggle to make close male friends because they develop feelings and I physically, emotionally, mentally, sexually cannot reciprocate that. However, I think this is closer to throwing more logs on the fire; it didn't start it, but it didn't help. I do wonder, from time to time, if being straight would have lead to me being able to make more meaningful connections.

 

[unscrewedmoon999]

I'm asexual and aromantic, which I think has actually made my life better. I don't feel like anything is missing from my life just because I've never been asked on a date / never been on a date, never kissed or did intimate things with anyone, etc. I think if those were things I wanted, I would feel the lack of them quite keenly, but since I never wanted any of those things to begin with, my lack of a love life doesn't feel like a failure or unmet need or something like that.

Also, in my honest opinion, dating is drama. It all just seems so complicated, and I'm glad to not have that complication in my life. I've managed to stay out of a lot of my friends' drama because they know that it's pointless trying to talk to me about their partner.

I'm glad to not feel like I need to be hot in order to find a partner, so it's helped my body image issues a lot. I really think it's made my life better.

 

[milkteacrown]

I'm nonbinary (transmasc), but it isn't related to my being here. I don't think it is, anyway.

But also, hi! ^^ I'm glad to see more trans people.

 

[cme-dme]

I'm non binary and asexual. I also have issues with gender dysphoria :( It's nowhere near as bad as it could be but it still contributes to me wanting to CTB

 

[BRAINWORMS]

I'm bisexual but it doesn't have anything to do with me wanting to CTB.

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

I'm a gay trans guy, which seriously sucks. I've transitioned and I'm told I pass flawlessly. My boyfriend tells me he can't see me as anything other than a guy. The only problem is, I can't see it.
Being a trans, and an to an extent, gay, has been a huge factor in me being on this site.

 

[dude no.7]

bi gang

 

[FoxSauce]

Tbh I dont even know how to answer I could be pan or maybe not?

Im not sure but I try not to think about it beacuse keeps me up at night .

Again I'm not really sure it could change in the near future?

 

[MANGIONESHUSBAND]

My dysphoria and asexuality have caused serious insecurities in me but my CTB desire is from much more than that

 

[brittlemoth]

Hello. :) I am always happy when I see a thread about this. In general, I have trouble relating to any terms or labels. I don't feel a fixed sense of identity and I don't relate to most societal functions. Queerness is one expression of that. But who I am is not something that works within the rules, norms and regulatory patterns of civilization in general. Gender, sexuality, romance, intimacy, etc are matters of identity and in general most functions of identity are things I cannot relate to as being real, fixed, or imperative. In general, these are some essential things I consider when I'm contemplating life and death, but also broader matters like how I relate to systems that are 'outside' myself.

 

[iamrealandyouarenot]

Im bisexual but i can't say it's ever been related to my pain and why i want to die.

Yeah I mean being bi I also have a level of privilege other lgbt people don't have. You can typically "pass" as straight as a bi person.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I'm a gay man, but this doesn't really have any impact on my current state. Way too many other things going on to worry about what body parts I want in my mouth!