Discussion Are you leaving a note or not?

[I am ___________]

I was thinking about not writing one. However, I want to tell how shitty they are and that they shouldn't be surprised about my actions. The fact that you care only when it is too late shows that you never really cared at all. I want to truly express that I am rejecting this world, society, life and everything in it, life does not get better, it only gets worse. It's a crappy game, and one I want to permanently log out of.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Nope.
A/ couldn't be bothered
B/ No point, whoever stays behind will be hurt enough

 

[Sickman75]

I will have to leave something to my daughter as of why so she doesn't sit and blame herself for the rest of her life because of it. Maybe some instructions...finish school, don't smoke, don't party, don't whore yourself out...things of that nature and that I love her of course. It won't be easy but it will be done.

 

[johnny]

I would just leave a note simply saying i want to be cremated with the ashes scattered. And then I'd have a seperate note somewhere with all my financial info

No point in trying to write out some kind of explanation imo, there are many reasons and some are better left unsaid

 

[Final Escape]

Why or why not? I am going back on forth because I don't think anything I could ever write would convey what I truly (don't) feel and even begin to explain what I experienced in life that led to this, I cannot understand it fully myself. I'd rather people reach their own conclusions and have to think about it themselves, piecing together the puzzle. Maybe that is somewhat selfish of me but I have many strong opinions on things like the war on drugs, religion and government that I would like for people to think about more. You never know what butterfly effect/chain reaction you could start that could change the world one person and thought at a time... For example, one of my lifelong best friends was depressed and suicidal when I was the opposite, he later told me that if I was not there for him he never would've made it. He has since become the most intellectually capable individual I've ever met in my entire life and I know that he will do great things which gives me some peace knowing I've had a positive effect like this. I digress, what are the pros and cons of leaving a note in your opinion?

I don't know, I have a feeling it would just get tossed when they found me lol!

 

[AhG]

I don't know, I feel conflicted about it. I've written letters to my wife over and over but at the same time I don't think she would care if I left a letter for her. And my mother, well, that's debatable. Because I've written her a letter and it's somewhat decent. So I'm not sure if I'll leave one or not.

 

[waived]

As a slight modification to my earlier post, yes I am leaving notes but to make it easier for a couple people to deal with any stuff I leave behind. Like, "throw out clothes feel free to take my phone".

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Yes. I'll just tell my family that it's not their fault and there was nothing they could've done as well as how to contact my work.

 

[lemmeeleev]

I've written tons of notes about my thoughts, reasons I want to ctb, tell others it's not their fault, etc. I've thought about just leave a simple "Goodbye" on paper by me as my final goodbye. If anyone wants to know why they can look at the notes I left. There's lots of them so they can know everything if they really want to. I'll be dead so I won't care.

 

[usernameNotFound]

Im going to write a note basically saying that its not their fault, and that I just appreciate the support people did provide me. If I can actually go through with this. so tired. I'm so frustrated.

 

[Thursdaysucks]

I'd definitely leave something behind to let any of my friends or family understand what I was actually going through. They think I'm joking or it's just a phase but they'll see when it happens I guess :/

 

[Broken]

I was thinking about not writing one. However, I want to tell how shitty they are and that they shouldn't be surprised about my actions. The fact that you care only when it is too late shows that you never really cared at all. I want to truly express that I am rejecting this world, society, life and everything in it, life does not get better, it only gets worse. It's a crappy game, and one I want to permanently log out of.

Wow that really resonated with me because I only cared when it was to late with regards to a non suicidal issue that got me depressed. I no that the people I leave behind won't care when I'm gone. I burnt those bridges. Price I'll have to pay for letting myself and others down and being an addict!

 

[NoChoice]

I'd definitely leave something behind to let any of my friends or family understand what I was actually going through. They think I'm joking or it's just a phase but they'll see when it happens I guess :/

Me too exactly...

 

[ScottPilgram]

The writer in me wants to leave a note. I want to tell family members to fuck off, beg friends to forgive me and understand, and leave anything in my power to help my big sister get over it. Whenever I start writing though it reaches the 4th page and I'm like "fuck" so I don't know. Right now it's a maybe.

 

[AhG]

The writer in me wants to leave a note. I want to tell family members to fuck off, beg friends to forgive me and understand, and leave anything in my power to help my big sister get over it. Whenever I start writing though it reaches the 4th page and I'm like "fuck" so I don't know. Right now it's a maybe.

I feel this on a deeper level. I've writing 3 pages and by the time I get to the 4th page I'm like "Fuck this." And leave it.

 

[bunny]

i will send letters just before i go

 

[Redt2go]

Ive been reading a lot of suicide bereavement sites. It seems like those with no note suffer more so I'll be leaving one note for my family. I want them to suffer as little as possible

 

[nooo2]

I'm leaving a note for all 7 of siblings, and my parents. They need to understand why because I put up a REALLY good face, and I'm always happy around everyone, I smile and I laugh and pretend that everything is okay. I don't talk about any of my problems which probably would have helped me right now, since I should be on anti-depressants and anxiety pills. They'll understand why I did it.

 

[NoChoice]

I think I'm deleting my note. I realized, these people never believed me about anything I'm trying to express in this letter so how in the world would they now? Also, words can just never describe this specific experience I'm going through. It's like psychedelics but the opposite, a severely decreased state of consciousness that makes me not even human. What's the point of trying to explain something that can never be explained? Their idea of my love for them should not be changed by a letter. If they didn't know me or care to ask these things then too bad. I have nothing else to say other than I don't want a stupid fucking funeral.

 

[GlowingCactus]

No, it's my choice and I don't feel like justifying it to others. Quite frankly if they don't know the reason, then they haven't been paying attention, it should be obvious to them. If I leave a suicide note, it will only be to make it clear that no one knew I intended to kill myself and no one helped me to get the stuff I did it with.

 

[Redt2go]

I think I'm deleting my note. I realized, these people never believed me about anything I'm trying to express in this letter so how in the world would they now? Also, words can just never describe this specific experience I'm going through. It's like psychedelics but the opposite, a severely decreased state of consciousness that makes me not even human. What's the point of trying to explain something that can never be explained? Their idea of my love for them should not be changed by a letter. If they didn't know me or care to ask these things then too bad. I have nothing else to say other than I don't want a stupid fucking funeral.

I totally agree with you about the decreased state of consciousness. When I realized that it made me the saddest.

 

[LongSeason]

Why or why not? I am going back on forth because I don't think anything I could ever write would convey what I truly (don't) feel and even begin to explain what I experienced in life that led to this, I cannot understand it fully myself. I'd rather people reach their own conclusions and have to think about it themselves, piecing together the puzzle. Maybe that is somewhat selfish of me but I have many strong opinions on things like the war on drugs, religion and government that I would like for people to think about more. You never know what butterfly effect/chain reaction you could start that could change the world one person and thought at a time... For example, one of my lifelong best friends was depressed and suicidal when I was the opposite, he later told me that if I was not there for him he never would've made it. He has since become the most intellectually capable individual I've ever met in my entire life and I know that he will do great things which gives me some peace knowing I've had a positive effect like this. I digress, what are the pros and cons of leaving a note in your opinion?

I've wrote two in the past and looking back I'm kind of glad I didn't CTB, Those were really shitty letters lol.
This time I'm probably only going to write "Sorry" on it.

 

[989-X]

I am going back on forth because I don't think anything I could ever write would convey what I truly (don't) feel and even begin to explain what I experienced in life that led to this, I cannot understand it fully myself.

Are you literally me?

Writing a note would be pointless when you've experienced pain that reaches further than the borders of the piece of paper you're writing on. It doesn't help if you can hardly rationalize your own thoughts.

 

[Jenna]

I am going to leave notes. I want to make sure people know its not their fault and that I had no help doing it. I have been researching what to say.

 

[Broken]

Think I might do some delayed emails