Are you depressed?

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Im really depressed
Never laugh, silent, etc
Trauma fault

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Yes, I've been horrendously depressed for almost a year now.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I used to think I was. Now, I just think all the happy people are delusional.

If you truly understand the reality of our existence, how can anyone be happy with this sh!tshow? (and that's not even touching on people's individual problems)

I think my mind is reacting appropriately to the stimuli it's getting - my shitty life experiences/problems and the general crappy-ness of our existence. I think depression is very often used to discredit people's genuine rational thoughts and emotions about their life. And it is frequently used to dismiss suicidal people as not thinking clearly or acting rationally. I'm not suggesting depression doesn't exist, but it's too often stigmatised.

 

[FuneralCry]

No my wish to die isn't depression, I simply just don't see existence as being something desirable and it could never be an "illness" feeling in such a way. For me there's nothing appealing about slowly decaying from age in an existence I never wished to endure in the first place, existence itself is the true problem as it's the ultimate source of all suffering and harm, it will always be perfectly logical wanting to avoid all future suffering in an existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place, existence is such a curse to me and only death can bring me the relief I search for.

I very strongly believe death to be permanent non-existence where one is peacefully unaware for all eternity, it's not depression preferring freedom from this existence and having awareness that existence is something so harmful and not worth enduring.

 

[bluebus]

Pretty sure yeah

 

[timetodie24]

Have been diagnosed with depression in the past and used to agree with diagnosis but now I see my thoughts/feelings about myself are an understandable reaction to myself and life. I'm not unwell, don't have an illness, I'm just completely defective and not meant to be alive

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

Good question, good that you asked it. Suicidal people are not always depressed. This example is me, until the age of 17 I had severe depression, suicidal thoughts often visited me, but at the same time I was happier getting positive emotions from video games, movies and series. Now I am 23, my emotional state has stabilized and I do not want to impulsively kill myself, on the other hand, life has become less enjoyable. I still want to die because my health is getting worse every year, my appearance is just as ugly and I just don't see the point in living if I don't want to make a family and go to work just to have something to eat. Rather, I regret that I didn't kill myself at the age of 15-16, then I was more confident and after a while I can say that nothing worthwhile happened in my life for which it would be worth living if they told me what awaits me in the future. But on the other hand, I now have no fear of death and I do not believe in reincarnation, hell, heaven and other nonsense. Now I have a good way (opiates) and a bad life) I have situations in my head that trigger my psyche and make me remember all the shit that happened to me, probably when I doubt the last sip of drugs, I will say to myself: "dude , you have experienced so much shit, is there any point in suffer and living on?"

 

[Holu]

If we go by diagnostics "technically" no since I'm bipolar2. Doesn't mean that doesn't have basically the same effect as depression but clinically I am no longer diagnosed with PDD(depression)

 

[Penitente]

Yes, I've been horrendously depressed for almost a year now.

Same here. Keeps getting worse.

 

[Borderline]

If I wasn't depressed I wouldn't want to kill myself.

 

[front of me]

I don't really care about the term 'depression' I just want one goal and that is death

 

[F&Inside]

Hello. Currently not depressed, rather feeling apathy with myself. When I feel something it is for others. I don't think you need to have depression for CTB, rather the determination of not wanting to continue under certain conditions. Or just stop.

 

[lillmonix3]

I have been depressed for three years. I went to a psychiatrist Took antidepressants, various sedatives.I was offered psychotherapy, but I refused, because I didn't want the doctors to waste their time on me . I wanted them to use that time for someone else.
And as a result of my decision, I am now on this forum.

 

[Unattainable666]

I've been depressed my entire life

 

[busybee]

I feel so tired but I cannot sleep. Can't even cry. Just empty.
Tried meds, they made it worse.
Had a burnout and now even a few months of work put me back into full on exhaustion and anxiety.

 

[HighFlight]

Based on their quick assessment, I've been severely depressed for at least 5 years.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

Im really depressed
Never laugh, silent, etc
Trauma fault

I am so fucking clinically depressed, and I am going to CTB with jumping soon, since everyone in my area is a joke, and it is a calamity to live here

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

yea most of the time.

There are moments in my life where I am extremely depress and just siting there rotting.
what makes it worse that I see no hope in my future besides just homelessness and nothing.

Plus the world is really cruel and I don't wanna deal with any of that

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I don't know. I really don't know.