Are you certain about your decision?

[knowman]

Yes, i am absolutely certain of my decision. At the moment, my dear Mother is dying from cancer and I feel horrible. She was the only person in the world who really loved me and cared about me. I am scared, depressed, sad and suicidal. I have been suicidal on and off since I was 13 years old. But this time, everything is different. I am finally gonna do it after my Mother's death. Life is absolutely pointless and meaningless. My Mother left quite a lot of money for me and I am gonna spend the money before I go and then just do it. There is no choice. I have absolutely no desire to live in this world. I am all alone and lonely all the time. I am 38 years old and I have never been married and I don't have any children. I've never even been in a serious relationship. I am not ugly or anything. I just have so many mental issues. Depression, OCD, anxiety, panic attacks, social phobia, etc. I feel like a complete and total failure. My social life is non-existent. Every day is torture. I am tired of suffering. There is no point in anything. I don't enjoy anything anyway. I need to end this suffering. All I want and need is peace.

As a long time member, I'm back and if yo are still around, I'd like to check in with you. I'm 74, and have cancer, CPTSD, and I'm broke. I've looked at many methods, and I'd like to know what you've settled on? Thank you very much.

 

[Timetoleave1]

Yes. It will happen this week.

 

[Reallysad]

I'm sure I just need a method would love sn but don't have a source

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm absolutely certain now. I've wanted to die for a long time, but sometimes there were days when I had doubts. Unfortunately, the other day I got extremely angry over something stupid and overreacted to it. To say I feel ashamed about it is a massive understatement, but it showed me that 2023 has to be my last year.

In this case, it wasn't directed at another person, just myself and the things I own that got destroyed. I realize now that it's just a matter of time before that kind of rage is directed at someone else because I can't seem to control my emotions at all anymore. I've got to be the most useless and worthless person I know and most days I hate everyone and everything. This has to be the end.

 

[tchaik18401893]

Yes, very certain. I would like to go soon, but i'll have to wait about 10 weeks because of my own sake. I could go tonight if i stopped caring about anything.