Are you afraid of death, the process of dying, failed suicide attempt or everything to do with death?

[Unattainable666]

I'm not afraid of death - I welcome it - my child and Dad are gone so I know we will be reunited. I'm terrified of failing I have three different plans, but I'm still terrified of failure - that's the only thing keeping me in this god forsaken life

 

[Endoflifecomestoall]

Fear keeps life alive. But feelings of fear are unwanted and unpleasant. We can relieve us from fear by run away from it, leave it to somebody else to deal with or face the fear and overcome it.

People may be afraid of present pain and suffering. People may also be afraid of future pain and suffering. Reasons for fear are almost everywhere. Fear is the greatest enemy of man. One cannot accomplish anything without removing fear. One cannot accomplish anything without bravery.

Death is the unknown and people fear unknown things. But death should be the same state as before birth. People are afraid of a painful death process. But you can choose a less painful method or you can trust that your method works. Many people are afraid of dying alone. People are afraid of being disabled by failed suicide attempt. But you can choose a method that has 100 percent mortality. However, we would escape all this fear if we could die with the help of doctors, of course. But not all people have that opportunity.

There are people who claim that it is not possible to overcome the fear of death because fear of death is the strongest emotion. Others claim that you can overcome the fear of death by experiences and training. One thing is certain: suicide and death seem to be more difficult for some people than others.

Are we afraid of death, the process of dying, failed suicide attempt, dying alone or everything to do with death?

Why we fear death and how to overcome it

I'm scared of heading to the abyss. I have an incurable neurological condition so not trying to ctb is the same as failing.
It is a question of when. I have some sn 4 years old but well sealed.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Other than assisted suicide at a clinic, I'm not so sure there are 100% guaranteed success methods. We can reduce the likelihood of failure- certainly but it definitely troubles me that- even people who seem to have followed protocols to the letter still sometines fail. But yeah- pretty much everything around it scares me. Life scares me too though. So- for me, it will likely be whether one fear outweighs the other.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I only fear the process of dying. Death itself is peaceful and is why I'm suicidal in the first place

 

[hellispink]

I am honestly obsessed with death. I like to see dying things, I love forensics , i myself studied something related to it. Everything regarding death is a passion for me. I am not scared at all. I feel like death itself calls me. What i am scared of is as you said, failing and having consequences such as having to explain myself. It can also change with the days my opinion, some days i am more sure than others but not because of fear of existence, i think nobody should exist i love non existence , i just fear things going wrong or hurting physically, not death itself

 

[SmollMushroom]

I'm scared of the process. Since I only have SN available I'm afraid of not having a peaceful passing. Throwing up until I fall on the ground exhausted because of the poison. Feeling the urge of oxygen and my heart race while watching my skin turn blue...
I don't know, I'd just like to go in a peaceful, calm way but I'm not sure about SN anymore.

 

[Tears in Rain]

I'm not afraid of the afterlife, I don't believe in one. I think our existence ends when we die (though I wouldn't rule out a soul reincarnating, or whatever. But it wouldn't be our personality reincarnating).

But the ending of my existence does trigger a fear, when I really think about what that means. Like, terminating my existence forever. That's a bit of a head-trip. I'm sure s.i. plays a part in that fear.

 

[ouf]

my biggest fear is that i won't have the guts to ctb. that i won't be able to and i'll have to keep living.

 

[dreamingofrest]

I'm scared of possibly failing and having to deal with the aftermath of that, which is why I'm doing my best to research and not do anything that's at all impulsive.

 

[unsaiddes]

I'm afraid of failing because the consequences would be disastrous. I'd lose my job, my relationship, my loved ones' trust, possibly my full brain function, etc.

To an extent I'm also afraid of the pain of my method. But I'm going to try and organize it so there's no backing out. Once it's done, no more pain. Ever.

 

[Aim]

I am more scared of living since I suffer chronic illness. But the only thing that might scare my from death is pain and how people will react to it.

 

[ctvunny]

Fear of backing out at last minute, in which would prolonged my existence. Im scared, truthfully. I dont want to keep on living like this.

 

[ThymeToLeave]

I'm mostly scared of failing and dealing with the fallout afterward. Not knowing what comes after death is scary too but it's probably just nonexistence.

 

[lostforever77]

Just afraid of a "failed" attempt. Pretty sure I am not afraid of death herself, that was going to happen no matter what I did, its just matter of timing. But a failed attempt?! Loose my job, locked up in a mental ward, I have no family so who would ever come for me. That would be the end of the story. Also there could be health concerns as well, such as with a gun shot wound could cause huge damage to the face, and damage to the brain, That is the truly scary thing, not death.

Which of course makes me bitter again that I can't just go to my doctor, tell him whats up, and get a pill. Nope we would rather have people jumping off high over looks and shooting themselves in the head. Just have to love the States

 

[§∆T∆π]

I was preparing for suicide, bought a gun, drank, aimed for my head.... Shot through the floor. 38 special. I made sure I was sitting in my basement. So much could go wrong. Id hate to be, like, lying there, bleeding everywhere. Nobody really calls me. Nobody visits. I was alone on my birthday, too. Alone, crying all summer. I can't ctb without vodka. But yeah... Failing isn't the hardest part... It's the blank white walls in the hospital room... No calls... I can't tell my family... You know? It's so lonely. Like hell after surviving an attempt. Devastating. I'm a failure, type thing. That was SN, too. Swear to God the company I ordered from gave me something non-toxic. I drank it all night in this jug. Threw some vodka in. Nothing happened. NOTHING.
It's so salty too! God, it's disgusting! It took so much dedication. I called my girlfriend and she called the cops. I'm going to avoid that next time.
It's so salty too! God, it's disgusting! It took so much dedication. I called my girlfriend and she called the cops. I'm going to avoid that next time.
She picks up on things. I hate it.
Maybe I should fight a little harder, for her... She always checks on me. I don't know what to do.
We're long distance, now. But she always checks on me. it's been less lately. idk

 

[BarnabasCollins]

I don't fear death or the process of dying. What I fear is being found and/or the attempt failing and having medical treatment and weeks in a psych ward forced on me. I've been in a psych ward. Those places are fucking hell. I would rather die than ever go back to one.

 

[BlockHammer]

Just like everyone, what im afraid the most is failing ctb attempt and ended up having a permanent injuries for my whole life. If that truly happened, 100% guarenteed that my life will be more unbearable than before

I also haven't tried anything, so i cant make an propper assesment about life itself, im afraid there's something i left or else

 

[Ash’Girl]

I'm not afraid of actually being dead, though I do believe in something "after".

I'm afraid of the process of dying: pain, suffering, particularly long and drawn out. However I also feel like that's what being alive is for me: long and drawn out pain and suffering.

I am definitely afraid of failing attempt with regards to two things: one being it going drastically wrong and resulting in longterm but but not immediately fatal damage to my body or brain, the other being that I don't want to face people knowing I attempted and the judgement that goes alongside that.

I've spent a long time learning how to put a facade on to people to avoid that kind of stigma. Though internally I often feel completely hopeless, I don't let most people see it, because that judgement also makes a difficult existence even more difficult.

 

[the_summoning]

The process of dying and even more so failing an attempt. Forgive the term but I don't want to survive and become an invalid. And I know my mom would keep me alive in that kind of state (I assume she would have automatic POA as I don't have a husband or children) so that's definitely been a big reason I'm hesitant.

 

[Endoflifecomestoall]

We're all hardwired to survive, and fear drives that.
Fear of failing seems to be a big deterrent for many people, and it's understandable as things can go wrong for some methods.
But just facing your own termination is very difficult also. Knowing that you can end your existence forever is a big choice to make.

Not really if you have a condition like I have. Doesn't make it any easier though, I've had some sb over a year now

 

[hopeless08]

im not afraid of death and i barely have SI anymore, i just dont wanna leave momma alone, she depressed and im all she has. i stay for her because its what i wanted people to do for me, to stay. i cant leave her alone w my dad. sometimes i just wish everyone in my family would die so i could do it too, peacefully. theres nothing else for me here.

I understand the thought of my loved ones having to bear the unbearable excruciating pain of losing me, shatters my heart. They love me so much and I love them so much and would never want to put them through torture, although i think that the moment they realize that I'm gone, they'd instantly suffer a heart attack. Especially my mom and older sister. Just the thought of this rips me apart. I wish no one loved me, it would be so much easier.

 

[trashhologram]

I'm not scared of dying. It's natural, we all die some day. Birth and death are the only things all people have in common. I don't believe in any kind of afterlife so I'm not scared of it either. I'm only scared of failing my attempt; obviosly I've failed all my previous attempts. Thankfully the worst side effect I've gotten is just nerve damage. My main method is partial hanging so I'm scared of damaging my brain and having to live like that. That would suck.

 

[zombiegirl]

I fear making decisions and dying is a big decision, one you cant return from. I fear the idea of nothingness and at the same time I believe thats better than the hell we live here. I live because Im a coward, but everyday I have to be brave to live another day, to exit my house, to talk to people, to look for a job... sometimes I wonder why, why am I not dead yet? My head is a mess... Those who go with their plan to die, you cant imagine how I envy them, but I cant help to feel a bit of sadness for them, I know it must be painful, no matter the method is not easy, Im sure.

OKEGOM PFP

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Fear keeps life alive. But feelings of fear are unwanted and unpleasant. We can relieve us from fear by run away from it, leave it to somebody else to deal with or face the fear and overcome it.

People may be afraid of present pain and suffering. People may also be afraid of future pain and suffering. Reasons for fear are almost everywhere. Fear is the greatest enemy of man. One cannot accomplish anything without removing fear. One cannot accomplish anything without bravery.

Death is the unknown and people fear unknown things. But death should be the same state as before birth. People are afraid of a painful death process. But you can choose a less painful method or you can trust that your method works. Many people are afraid of dying alone. People are afraid of being disabled by failed suicide attempt. But you can choose a method that has 100 percent mortality. However, we would escape all this fear if we could die with the help of doctors, of course. But not all people have that opportunity.

There are people who claim that it is not possible to overcome the fear of death because fear of death is the strongest emotion. Others claim that you can overcome the fear of death by experiences and training. One thing is certain: suicide and death seem to be more difficult for some people than others.

Are we afraid of death, the process of dying, failed suicide attempt, dying alone or everything to do with death?

Why we fear death and how to overcome it

I do not want any failed attempts. I want to do it the first time and be done with it. A way to overcome the fear of death is to accept that one day it will be everyone's fate.

 

[until death]

I'm not afraid

 

[PA𝖨𝑁]

I do agree with you op, the unknown evokes fear, we don't know from where we came nor where we're heading.

I'm not afraid of dyng, although there's fear that surely will emerge once the SI creeps out.
I'm terrified of what awaits after death, I'm afraid to end up in a bad place akin to our material world for eternity.

The nothingness seems both disappointing and comforting at the same time, i think its unfair that most people have to endure suffering only to vanish into nothingness..

But i also find nothingness comforting, since maybe life is an anomaly and we were never supposed to exist hence the suffering we endure, maybe this universe is not meant to hold life to begin with, vanishing into nothingness would just mean going back to the initial state.

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[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

To me it feels like it is impossible to overcome the fear of death. I believe that I have to cheat death and think about something else to succeed. It is very difficult to die without the help of a doctor. But it seems that World War III has begun which would be the perfect time to commit suicide. Why should I be forced to suffer in a meaningless war when I am already chronically sick?

 

[MidnightCat]

I do not fear death itself. Even the process ( I used to fear about failing or getting really hurt) but that's gone nowadays.


However... I fear for the ones that stay. It is said that for every suicide make, at least 6 people get to suffer substantially. That is what scares me the most.

If someone is gonna suffer... Better be me.

 

[divinemistress36]

I'm terrified of failing and becoming a vegetable. life is cruel

 

[brokeandbroken]

The process and failing. I don't want to end up as a quadriplegic and have things been even worse.