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bear_trapped

bear_trapped

taking it one day at a time
Feb 13, 2020
73
I don't know…I mean, I think it's true than no matter how bad life is, it can always get worse, but seriously, how much worse can life get when both your parents and your children have rejected you, no one really (currently or at any point in the past) wants you, aside from friends who care about you, but who always have someone (kids/spouse/parents) who matter more than you do (not that I resent or begrudge that—those relationships always trump friends)?
i can only hope that there is no afterlife. that's the only guarantee of having true peace during your rest
 
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Freelyffe88

Freelyffe88

Member
Jun 28, 2021
98
I recommend a book called Journey of Souls... you can go on youtube Michael Newton Ph.D Journey of Souls and check out a cliff note version of him describing the book. It may put you at ease. I tend to agree with this being the process of life, with an exception, I think we are possibly tricked to being willing participants in this reincarnation cycle (which to me is not a good thing). So kind of like being trapped in the Matrix. The one thing I know for certain is, this realm.existence that we are currently experiencing is not a good place and definitely not an optimal place to grow as human beings if indeed that was the objective.
 
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Meliæ

Meliæ

In recovery
Aug 8, 2021
128
I believe otherwise but I respect your belief
 
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Anonymous_A

Arcanist
Oct 4, 2020
411
Not really. Billions of people have died before me, I ain't special lol. (Even tho I thought I was special as a kid: thinking I'd be the one…like neo in matrix lol)

But anyways, only thing that weirds me out is the fact that the only personal concept of 'nothing' that I can experience is standing in a pitch black room. Like your aware but nothings happening, you don't know what's going on. But your still aware. If that makes sense
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I don't care. Anywhere is better than this torture at the present
 
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khz89

Member
Jul 25, 2021
21
I'm more afraid that hell will become real in this life. Sadly I find the evidence for that possibility a lot more compelling, so I'll have to take my chances with the afterlife
 
sully

sully

Experienced
Jul 27, 2021
231
nah. nothing can be worse that situation I am in now.
 
mandyjohnuk

mandyjohnuk

Specialist
Jul 6, 2021
388
Not afraid as such.
More just like oh no not again.

We are probably reborn with out memories so atleast that's a good thing.
 
Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
Yes very much so. I fear i would not have good enough excuses to ctb when i am asked why i commited such act
 
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toforigivelife

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2021
493
From all that I can gather from those who have been as close to death without actually dying a biological death - death is not to be feared, there is no hell, hell is only of your own making, there is no judgement, only an opportunity to acknowledge what you need to acknowledge and deal with and then redemption and love.

I'm not trying to encourage anyone to ctb, but, yes, the same goes for those who opt to end their lives.
 
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Meliæ

Meliæ

In recovery
Aug 8, 2021
128
Gotcha.

I respect your belief too, I was just curious. Some of the answers are really interesting.

Yes very much so. I fear i would not have good enough excuses to ctb when i am asked why i commited such act
I've reached the point I don't think I need to justify myself about not willing to be tortured every damn day here, nor not giving my consent about that and nor willing to live for others
 

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