Are You a Slave to Your Own Mind?

[Açucarzinho583]

Every day, I end up having several peaks of psychomotor agitation. I walk back and forth, always in the same space. I walk to try to tire myself out, but the fatigue doesn't come. It's as if I'm energized or excited, but I can't control it and have to expend it somehow. I realized it has become a habit to start pacing while I get lost in my own world, in my head. And this repeats in a loop until all my energy is drained. But now I've started to question: am I really just burning off energy, or am I a slave to my own mind?

 

[suicidaltransgirl]

I do this too. When I'm particularly anxious, I have the tendency to pace back and forth in my apartment while my thoughts spiral, even if I haven't eaten all day and "have no energy". It's an adrenaline thing I think, but also probably a way I'm trying to subconsciously soothe myself. I will also rock back and forth when I'm having a panic attack.