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SaberIsACute

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Jun 30, 2023
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I'm a young adult and I've been suicidal since 16 and existential for the past year or so. Lately, I've just been questioning why we exist at all. And it's really really frightening stuff. I would like to believe I am real. I physically feel things, I physically see people. I age. It can't all be fake, can it? I've had many people tell me life is basically a dream, and we exist forever. That's even more frightening to think about. I would like for life to have an end, considering I didn't even ask to be here. If we aren't real, it doesn't matter to me as long as there is an end to all of this. And if we are real? I guess it doesn't make a difference. I still want an end. Sorry for the rambling everyone, I just had to get this out.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I just think that existence is a horrific, cruel mistake, it's something very real but I think that once we lose consciousness that is it for us. Existence is just meaningless suffering and senseless cruelty all for no reason with no deeper purpose behind it, but we are destined to return to the state of non-existence.
 
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aGoodDayToDie

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Jun 30, 2023
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Unfortunately it is very real. Suffering is absolutely real. What is not real is meaning. There is no point in anything unless you're delusionally driven by your DNA and societal conditioning to think that there's any purpose in anything. Meaning and purpose are entirely imaginary constructs. There's not even a formula for them. It's purely a conceptual thing, and it only means something to some people. Thankfully it will all end one day. One day, we shall all be dead, and we can rest. We will no longer be able to feel. Nothing will be able to hurt us. Nothing will be able to reconstruct us.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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This used to disturb me greatly when I was younger, but it doesn't bother me so much nowadays.
I have spent over over 20 years trying to find answers about why we are here and who really created us .
But there are no answers to be found, and I don't really care anymore. I just view myself as a lump of meat that needs to be exterminated, and the sooner the better.
 
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Torabol

Torabol

Student
Apr 15, 2023
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This is philosophy more than anything else for me. The most accurate answer I've been proposed so far is that it is not really possible to know whether reality is real, we make a few core assumptions to allow us to live. One of those assumptions is that reality is real, but there isn't really any way to prove it.

Feels like you're experiencing a lot of existential dread right now, sorry friend. Existence, real or not, is very hard for most of us here too.
 
Pluto

Pluto

Meowing to go out
Dec 27, 2020
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According to Eastern philosophy, life in the world is analogous to a dream. The same way that upon waking in the morning, you realise that nothing in your dreams was ever real, including your own character and its seeming dramas, nothing in life is ultimately real, but life itself is real. Consciousness remains but different experiences come and go before it.
 
mazzy

mazzy

Evil cannot be undone
Jun 30, 2023
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I don't think it's fake it's just hard finding the value in it, like in years our existence won't even be remembered or mattered. It's hard finding reality in it. Pretty's nuts to me
 
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Mesetef

Mesetef

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Jun 30, 2023
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life is either a simulation of a thing created by bigger things, both of their reason is probably to observe or test. it could range from a yt video called "I tested what would happen to the earth if the sky was blue in life simulator!" to a mad scientist's experiment of feeding humans oxygen.

our thoughts exist as long our brains does and although I have no proof, I'm pretty sure it's no matter what state our brains exist in. as long as your brain is a thing, you'll think, thus continue to exist. your brain is an operating system and you are the user. it does things in the background and your actions shape what is done in the background. brain releases hormones to tell you what to feel and lead your actions.

religion isn't real obviously and the whole world is centered around powerful people releasing whatever happiness hormone they release. your life is meaningless, just a single one in maybe in an infinite amount of lives. your story will never be original and you will never be on top. as long as you're alive, you're doing someone big and powerful a pawn's job. a really, really unimportant piece of pawn's job.

if religion is real then god is such a child. creating things just to watch them suffer for eternity or be rewarded with happiness for eternity for actions that he controls. literally like simulating a scenario. knowing how it will end up, which ways it'll take and how it will happen, but still watching and creating it.

at least that's what I believe
 
Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
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reality is very real not some simulation created by a higher power mathematics is a limited tool for explaining reality, the atoms are very real not something mathematical constructed, everything came into being from nothingness from simple beginnings comes complex things, that's how this universe works it creates simple things that can create even more complex things
 
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SaberIsACute

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Jun 30, 2023
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reality is very real not some simulation created by a higher power mathematics is a limited tool for explaining reality, the atoms are very real not something mathematical constructed, everything came into being from nothingness from simple beginnings comes complex things, that's how this universe works it creates simple things that can create even more complex things
Then let's hope death is the end. That's all I can ask for at this point.
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
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i dont like thinking about things like this; it makes my head hurt more than it already does. i just want to die, that's it.
 

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