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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,148
Who?
 
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requiemforadream

requiemforadream

This little fellow is getting tired
Jan 1, 2025
48
Hello there <3
 
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Coal54321

Member
Jun 29, 2022
69
Yep, me. My gf of 6 years split up with me over a petty argument and the last 3 months has consisted of me suddenly planning ctb and begging for her back. She was my only future and the only thing I cared about this much.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,148
Ouais, moi. Ma copine avec qui je suis sortie depuis 6 ans s'est séparée de moi à cause d'une dispute mesquine et ces 3 derniers mois, j'ai soudainement planifié une relation avec un mec et je l'ai suppliée de revenir. Elle était mon seul avenir et la seule chose qui comptait autant pour moi.
😰🫂🫂🫂🙏
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
Yes, I feel forced by my own emotions and addiction cravings to ctb. It's either, I die slowly from alcoholic liver disease if I drink again, or I do it quick by hanging or SN. But if I stay sober and healthy and alive, my emotions from divorce make me feel forced to reach for a bottle to suppress my emotions. I wish I could turn off my emotions but I cannot. I tried now over a year and it's not getting better at all, I tried various antidepressants but none are working.
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
283
If my spine continues to deform without any treatment or solution, I'll have no choice.

I lost a year already to this nonsense and still haven't been able to find someone to do a proper full in-depth scan on my neck and spine.

I can't take this shit much longer - if it were just pain, I could handle it, but not my spine possibly collapsing into my throat/chest.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,796
Physical illness that I'm coming close to no longer being able to tolerate. I'm mostly housebound these days, and the isolation is getting to me.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
Bipolar disorder has ruined my life. I used to be happy and I had a lot to live for, but mental illness has destroyed everything. I can't rebuild my life at this point, there's nothing left to build from. I'm just spending my days wasting away in severe depression feeling despondent and contemplating suicide.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,195
Impasse ehh more so immovable obstacles. And despite going everywhere for help no one is willing while simultaneously mocking, making feel ashamed for, and just generally disgusted in general with life and humanity in general. Over a situation that was in no way my fault easily solve able (i was the victim of crimes that left me homeless). But I'm just not someone people wake up in the morning wanting to help. More so leer at on the side of the road.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,148
If my spine continues to deform without any treatment or solution, I'll have no choice.

I lost a year already to this nonsense and still haven't been able to find someone to do a proper full in-depth scan on my neck and spine.

I can't take this shit much longer - if it were just pain, I could handle it, but not my spine possibly collapsing into my throat/chest.
Ooooh Where do you live?
1 year whitout scan?
 
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arandomname

Member
Nov 19, 2024
50
Person I love left, I made the decision a while ago that I would ctb if that was happen as I have spent my life looking for this but still hopeful they'll come back whether that's silly of me to hope or not
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
370
Yep, many bad decisions including a huge one recently. I've had anxiety and depression for years probably because of the bad choices, who knows. Now I'm in worse shape both mentally and financially. It's my time.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,148
ALSO bipolar and several mental illness and alzheimer of my mother...
 
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itsnigh

Member
Oct 22, 2024
93
Yes. To cut a story really short 😅
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
283
Ooooh Where do you live?
1 year whitout scan?
Midwest, USA.

I mean they've done a couple of x-rays, but they won't do anything like a CT scan or MRI to look deeper.

X-rays can only show so much and they don't show anything in my lower back in spite of me having dealt with pain and discomfort there for years now.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,148
Midwest, USA.

I mean they've done a couple of x-rays, but they won't do anything like a CT scan or MRI to look deeper.

X-rays can only show so much and they don't show anything in my lower back in spite of me having dealt with pain and discomfort there for years now.
Not serious...
Any drugs?
 
Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
If I would reconcile and be with her again, my greatest and only true love in life, yes, I would like to live with her for years in love. But since she got so angry with me because of my three breakups of our relationship that is impossible, then everything the second for me is only agony.
 
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