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scared person
- Mar 12, 2024
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there was a doctor hotline that sounded good but the person became shit, idk what happened. they had a great sounding Ted talk and project, and it seems they sold out since then. maybe their work wasn't good at its peak, I wasn't there or seeing posted criticism
but there seemed special support for suicidal doctors.
I remembered because I don't find suicidality-informed doctors, which to me meant informed about all kinds of crisis, because crises get mistaken often and then those mistakes become chains that often end in a ward or checks or psychology field using mental&emotional abuse and physical force
so I wondered if there was anyone helpful to prevent stuff like that, because I hear people needing purpose, and people needing medical trust/safety, but I didn't hear those come together.
I don't mean I didn't want to hear from medical providers if they couldn't help that, though. and I was also interested if people might be able to help this, even if they weren't providers?
for me, a doctor saying 'plans/means are different than thoughts' hasn't felt very relieving anymore, if they don't understand how to psychologically respect someone and understand what life is like when vulnerabilities show someone what rational chronic suicidality is like
I guess that's one way to put it? doctors seemed paid too much to experience too many barriers to do most things, even to eat or use bathroom or to ask for anything or go anywhere or be noticed. basic things that become dead ends or obstacle courses needing difficult frequent planning?
I don't know, I'm embarrassed about these things, but I was reminded of these questions by the medical pressure on me when my body overwhelms me in ways that I don't know if here is the place to describe, in the archives I didn't see people describe chronic body distress here yet
but there seemed special support for suicidal doctors.
I remembered because I don't find suicidality-informed doctors, which to me meant informed about all kinds of crisis, because crises get mistaken often and then those mistakes become chains that often end in a ward or checks or psychology field using mental&emotional abuse and physical force
so I wondered if there was anyone helpful to prevent stuff like that, because I hear people needing purpose, and people needing medical trust/safety, but I didn't hear those come together.
I don't mean I didn't want to hear from medical providers if they couldn't help that, though. and I was also interested if people might be able to help this, even if they weren't providers?
for me, a doctor saying 'plans/means are different than thoughts' hasn't felt very relieving anymore, if they don't understand how to psychologically respect someone and understand what life is like when vulnerabilities show someone what rational chronic suicidality is like
I guess that's one way to put it? doctors seemed paid too much to experience too many barriers to do most things, even to eat or use bathroom or to ask for anything or go anywhere or be noticed. basic things that become dead ends or obstacle courses needing difficult frequent planning?
I don't know, I'm embarrassed about these things, but I was reminded of these questions by the medical pressure on me when my body overwhelms me in ways that I don't know if here is the place to describe, in the archives I didn't see people describe chronic body distress here yet
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