Are physical appearance issues part of the reason you want to ctb?

[Hope:-)]

I have injured my face multiple times. It has left me with a several time broken nose,eyes which are two different colours, among other injuries . People always mention my eyes and I feel like a freak. People used to mention them to say how nice they were but no one does that anymore.
Maybe it sounds mad to you, but these things honestly are part of the reason I want to ctb. Anyone in the same boat?

 

[DarkRocket]

Hell yeah......if I looked better, I probably would have better access to job opportunities, and meeting women who are not broke. My better looking friends seem to never have a problem meeting well off or somewhat successful women. I have a friend who routinely has women buy him sneakers, rent him apartments or let him stay there rent free. Ugly and super short guys like me get the broke women who can't do much for themselves. So that's more pressure on me for rent, bills, utilities, etc......

Finances are the main reason I'm ready to leave this wretched Earth, but my looks are a big reason as well.

 

[tser1073]

Indirectly. My looks (overweight, facially unattractive) mean the kind of men that have historically been willing to interact with me think they are doing me a favor, since no one wants an ugly woman. It's led indirectly to some violence/SA and the realization I'm not worth taking care of, just good for taking care of men. More output and less input, if that makes sense. It's not a major reason but I've definitely stopped looking for a partner so that's one less motivation to stick around.

 

[Foresight]

It doesn't sound mad. I'll never understand why it's acceptable to remark on someone's appearance. I like the rule I heard once where if the person can't correct it in 5 seconds, like a stray hair or a piece of food on their face, don't say anything. If someone is commenting on a physical difference we can't do anything about they're being a fucking asshole.

Physical issues are my #1 reason.

 

[Yumeko.dreams]

I have injured my face multiple times. It has left me with a several time broken nose,eyes which are two different colours, among other injuries . People always mention my eyes and I feel like a freak. People used to mention them to say how nice they were but no one does that anymore.
Maybe it sounds mad to you, but these things honestly are part of the reason I want to ctb. Anyone in the same boat?

No. I am fully confident in my appearance, my strength, intelligence, etc.
My mental state is pristine, and I am unable to feel self loathing or depression.
I am simply bored of existing in a world where I am not content.

Anyways, you should love yourself more. If you are ctb because you feel ugly, more power to you; but come on now. At least try and like yourself a little bit before you leave so you don't die hating yourself.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

When I was much younger I hated the way I looked… But not anymore. Looks are the least of my problems. I've mismanaged finances And now slowly on my way to being broke. Nothing left to live for whatsoever.

 

[ewigeruhe]

I have a rather handsome face and can put up the mask of illusion to be a normal and humorous person but my body genetics are completely fucked up and any time in my life i met a woman that i liked almost immediately i thought would i want to put up with all my faults? And the answer was always a resounding no. So i have never even attempted to get together with someone. I think it was for the better but it is one of many reasons i don't want to be around any longer.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Yeah in more then one way

 

[Beer]

Yes it's the only reason for me

 

[Coffeebean77]

Yeah, I'm below average-looking with acne and don't compensate by dressing well or having a good personality. It's only one reason though.

 

[chronicallybroken]

Yeah sometimes I look in the mirror - try to avoid it but when I'm brushing my teeth etc - and think "I am so ugly. I need to kill myself."

 

[notAfather]

My teeth are embarrassing to look at so I haven't given anybody a genuine smile in actual years. I'm 6' tall, but have never weighed over 160 lbs. So despite being a 7+ facially, I look like a sociopathic skeleton with skin. We often imagine what people think of us based on a culmination of context clues, social cues, and the self criticism that most of us carry at the front of our minds, but I'm wholeheartedly convinced that most first impressions of me land somewhere in the realm of "autistic serial killer." And in a world where vanity is second only to wealth, being conscious of the fact that you're not attractive enough to make up for all of the empty space in your wallet is pretty debilitating. So, yeah.

 

[gcso]

My teeth are embarrassing to look at so I haven't given anybody a genuine smile in actual years. I'm 6' tall, but have never weighed over 160 lbs. So despite being a 7+ facially, I look like a sociopathic skeleton with skin. We often imagine what people think of us based on a culmination of context clues, social cues, and the self criticism that most of us carry at the front of our minds, but I'm wholeheartedly convinced that most first impressions of me land somewhere in the realm of "autistic serial killer." And in a world where vanity is second only to wealth, being conscious of the fact that you're not attractive enough to make up for all of the empty space in your wallet is pretty debilitating. So, yeah.

I identify with your comment. My teeth aren't nice, my nose is bipolar (thin when I'm serious and a potato when I smile). With that, I'm always serious and people think I'm a serial killer. I feel and see that they are afraid of me. It's like I'm a freak.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeh I was bitten by our dog when I was a toddler so for only 2 years I had a perfect flawless face and then that happened...I've got a couple more scars since then as well. I don't really care anymore but it was probably the source of all my problems in the first place cos if I had nice skin I'd probably not have hidden away and wrecked my life but who knows. Doesn't matter now anyway.

 

[notAfather]

I identify with your comment. My teeth aren't nice, my nose is bipolar (thin when I'm serious and a potato when I smile). With that, I'm always serious and people think I'm a serial killer. I feel and see that they are afraid of me. It's like I'm a freak.

I've taken up wearing a face mask in most social situations. It helps me to be less self conscious and actually focus on the conversation at hand. Most people around here have stopped wearing them, so I get funny looks sometimes, but it's better than having to be aware of my facial expressions at all times.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Indirectly. My looks (overweight, facially unattractive) mean the kind of men that have historically been willing to interact with me think they are doing me a favor, since no one wants an ugly woman. It's led indirectly to some violence/SA and the realization I'm not worth taking care of, just good for taking care of men. More output and less input, if that makes sense. It's not a major reason but I've definitely stopped looking for a partner so that's one less motivation to stick around.

There's a song by Jimmy Soul, which is directed towards men, called, "If You Want To Be Happy". Here's a small (incomplete) sampling of the lyrics.

If you wanna be happy
For the rest of your life,
Never make a pretty woman your wife,
So from my personal point of view,
Get an ugly girl to marry you.

A pretty woman makes her husband look small
And very often causes his downfall.
As soon as he marries her, then she starts
To do the things that will break his heart,
But if you make an ugly woman your wife,
You'll be happy for the rest of your life,
An ugly woman cooks her meals on time,
She'll always give you peace of mind.

Don't let your friends say
You have no taste,
Go ahead and marry anyway,
Though her face is ugly,
Her eyes don't match,
Take it from me she's a better catch.

 

[tser1073]

Hahaha, I appreciate the sentiment. But it's the same issue isn't it? I keep to myself, cook his meals, be grateful for the opportunity to serve. Yeah no, I'd rather CTB, especially since the way things are headed he would own me and I'd just have to hope I got one of the "good ones."

There's a song by Jimmy Soul, which is directed towards men, called, "If You Want To Be Happy". Here's a small (incomplete) sampling of the lyrics.

If you wanna be happy
For the rest of your life,
Never make a pretty woman your wife,
So from my personal point of view,
Get an ugly girl to marry you.

A pretty woman makes her husband look small
And very often causes his downfall.
As soon as he marries her, then she starts
To do the things that will break his heart,
But if you make an ugly woman your wife,
You'll be happy for the rest of your life,
An ugly woman cooks her meals on time,
She'll always give you peace of mind.

Don't let your friends say
You have no taste,
Go ahead and marry anyway,
Though her face is ugly,
Her eyes don't match,
Take it from me she's a better catch.

Hahaha, I appreciate the sentiment. But it's the same issue isn't it? I keep to myself, cook his meals, be grateful for the opportunity to serve. Yeah no, I'd rather CTB, especially since the way things are headed he would own me and I'd just have to hope I got one of the "good ones."

 

[Jrmull1993]

@tser1073

My parents were married in a catholic church and demanded that the priest get rid of the part of the vows promising to "Obey" the husband...... its Pretty barbaric that beliefs such as that still exist.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I'm not sure if I want to ctb yet but my physical appearance definitely contribute to my suicidal thoughts. How amazing we get one chance at life and we're stuck in these limited flesh suits

 

[Mr2005]

Only a small part now

 

[Zegers]

One of the reasons

 

[powerofdap]

one of the reasons, not the main one but definitely a significant contributing factor.

Appearance generally affects how one goes through life. Negative immutable characteristics is bound to make other aspects of your life more difficult.

 

[Zegers]

I have a friend who routinely has women buy him sneakers, rent him apartments or let him stay there rent free

That's a playboy.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've been pretty attractive at different times in my life but my soul is shattered… I couldn't even begin to think about connecting with another human being romantically right now… I feel like garbage

 

[slushy]

Not really. I mean I'm not delusional. I know I'm no model. But it's never been a super important thing to me. Not really a factor

 

[that_guy2611]

yes

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Absolutely the reason. Severe overbite (bc my parents chose to laugh at my teeth as a kid instead of... taking me to the dentist), odd misshapen head (bc there was some hospital fuckup during birth) and finally, very early semi-baldness (my father's genetic gift). The poor appearance does direct mental damage, but also did indirect damage through non-stop bullying at school, lack of friendships/relationships etc.

I'm sorry about the assholes making fun of your eyes, Personally I think different-colored eyes look very cool on anyone. People need to put others down to feel better about themselves, sadly that's how the world works.

 

[lexiahhs]

i used to be extremely unattractive even though no one said it to my face. i'm more confident in my looks now, i got braces abs it fixed up my jaw shape. i've gone through an ED and recovered, i'm confident in my body. that also gets me used for my body. i cant feel pretty without make up on but that means i can make myself attractive so i shouldn't be complaining. i get compliments all the time now, but i can't accept them or dont think it's true because i grew up ugly after my baby stage at like 6. i got glasses then and my baby teeth fell out and grew back weird. i got contacts and braces so my face shape is back to 'normal' . idk how to feel

 

[Mofreeko]

At first yes, but I don't even want or think about being attractive anymore. I think at this point if I woke up with the perfect body I'd still want to ctb. The only thing I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up.

 

[Lone Wanderer]

Sadly, yes…