Are people trying to save you?

[Fadeawaaaay]

People are reaching out and trying to save me… But there is nothing left to save. This is the culmination of a life time of bad decisions and confusion. I don't have to the energy to fix anything. I crawled into a closet to escape the light of day and approximate night time. I am a dry and empty husk. I don't respond to any messages anymore.

 

[Weebster]

No one. I'm glad because they can't save that which even God can't.

 

[Judy Garland]

No. I don't let anyone know of my plans to CBT. But they do know that I hate it here and want to go home. I am mostly a recluse and don't have much contact with people. For ctb, that's a good thing.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Remember that if people are trying to save you it is a sign that they see something valuable in you so you are not an empty husk for them. Saving someone who is suicidal is very challanging and overwhelming for a person who try. If people want to empatize with you and voluntary feel part of your pain, to try understand you and help you. You have to be very precious for them. My friends keept me going for years. I love them so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, nobody knows that I want to leave this world and I see it as best not to tell people anyway. We live in a world where suicide is so stigmatised and our right to die is not respected. Other people would not accept and understand my decision.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

My friends know that i am suicidal but i just told them to minimise a trauma after my death

 

[Sarros]

That would imply that they would know about my situation and would be a grievous error on my part. Things could only get worse by telling people.

 

[rationaltake]

A friend texted me today. I haven't told them how I am so I text back noncommittally so they think I'm OK. I hope.

 

[Glowarm]

Outside of this site I have only told 2 people.
One on another site years ago. We actually both helped each other not ctb. The other was someone IRL. She literally said "just don't do it here, make sure you're outside and off of our property so I don't have to clean up your mess".
So no, no one is really left to try and save me. I'll have ally affairs in order within the year.

 

[rationaltake]

People are reaching out and trying to save me… But there is nothing left to save. This is the culmination of a life time of bad decisions and confusion. I don't have to the energy to fix anything. I crawled into a closet to escape the light of day and approximate night time. I am a dry and empty husk. I don't respond to any messages anymore.

It sounds like things are getting worse. Sorry to hear that.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

That would imply that they would know about my situation and would be a grievous error on my part. Things could only get worse by telling people.

For me it is better to not leaving people out of sudden without any clue. They would be confused scared, even feel guilty about situation. I prepared them so shock will be leser and maybe their suffering too. They will connect all dots and not feel guilty after my CTB

 

[Brokensaddle]

NO I do kinda wish people would try to save. My mental health team hasn't looked out for my best wishes by not discharge me or transferring me to a different mental health team so I can receive the appropriate treatment. Because they won't discharge I can't get the local authorities to start a investigation into safeguarding concerns about me as they keep shutting the ones down which were rised from friends and my advocate. And social services won't even answer my calls after I put a complaint in. I have think ctb for past 2 days. I could do it anytime now!

 

[szinigami]

My dad. But the neuropathy is just too much. My body is a torture chamber.

 

[rationaltake]

NO I do kinda wish people would try to save. My mental health team hasn't looked out for my best wishes by not discharge me or transferring me to a different mental health team so I can receive the appropriate treatment. Because they won't discharge I can't get the local authorities to start a investigation into safeguarding concerns about me as they keep shutting the ones down which were rised from friends and my advocate. And social services won't even answer my calls after I put a complaint in. I have think ctb for past 2 days. I could do it anytime now!

Sorry about this. It sounds awful.

 

[thedaywillcome]

My dad. But the neuropathy is just too much. My body is a torture chamber.

I can understand your pain. Nervepain is hell.

 

[szinigami]

I can understand your pain. Nervepain is hell.

You literally burns alive. So yeah, it is.

 

[S like Siren]

Noone tried to save me.

 

[outrider567]

No, most know I'm depressed and call to keep in touch but no one knows I possess a 100 cu ft Nitrogen tank

 

[AloneInCollege]

No chance, people don't even ask me how my day was they just start talking about themselves. 0 chance anyone would think about my enough to try.