Are people sick of you because of your depression/suicidal thoughts?

[ixkitty]

My therapist knows, my immediate family knows from my last 2 failed attempts.. my therapist let's and encourage me to talk it out as long as I don't have an immediate plan..

My mom asks what's so bad ... because she's been good mother and hadn't done anything wrong... and thinks if I wasn't so pessimistic I'd be happier... but she still wants to know what's so bad.. I didn't give her a straight answer

 

[aqish]

So talking to people is supposed to be good for you if you're depressed. But I've pretty much driven away all my friends cos they're sick of my depression/suicidal thoughts and cant say i blame them. They dont seem to get though that depression is not like the chickenpox - you don't just get it once, recover and never have it again.

One guy i used to talk to cos he understood what it was like to have a mental illness (he was borderline) completely stopped talking to me after i divulged iv started having suicidal thoughts. Now im too scared to tell anyone else so im glad i found this site i can talk to people about it. Other friends stopped inviting me to things cos i was too depressed to go their parties.

Anyone else have a similar experience? Do you talk to anyone about your depression? Iv tried counsellors and they absolutely suck. Have you told anyone you're suicidal? i havent told the counsellors that cos im scared il lose my job - we have a counselling service provided by work but they said if you disclose harmful intent to yourself or others they have to report it to your boss. so thats bullshit.

So true. Everyone tend to go away when we were close enough for this topic to be discussed. Highkey I'm insecure if the people here on ss also felt the same about my rant of living.

 

[Callie Arcale]

Yes, the person who knows me best and has seen me battle depression and chronic illness for many years, has openly (albeit kindly) told me several times that they were tired of hearing me talk about it, in the sense that it was bringing them down, and they could not take it anymore. So now I put on my "happy" face and pretend to soldier on when I am with them.

 

[whywere]

While I don't really consider myself depressed, I have opened up many times to people about my wish to die and how my life isn't worth living.

No one really understands except you all and a couple others online. It's as if my predicament doesn't fully compute in their heads. Others truly cannot grasp the concept of an illness being chronic. I will be in physical anguish the rest of my life, and they refuse to acknowledge it.

I don't really have any family, so I rely on my boyfriend. Like many of the rest of you mentioned, there is a tendency for people to want to try and 'fix' us. When things don't go according to their plan, they expect us to play pretend forever to shield themselves from negativity.

I suck at pretending to be happy. I have autism for God's sake, so hiding emotions has never been my penchant. Having to consistently bottle up how godawful I feel, besides the occasional, "Hey, I'm in a lot of pain today" is some of the worst emotional torment imaginable.

Because I physically don't have the energy to mask how sick I am, no one wants to be around me. Having several chronic illnesses is the nail in my coffin, because absolutely no one understands what that entails. I've witnessed the ways in which other people talk about me, and it breaks my heart.

I know my bf only stays with me cause he feels like he can't get anything better. I've seen my bf talk about me online to one of his friends, and so many of these damn normies say he should break up with me because my physical health and ptsd don't improve.

In this sort of state, I have to rely on others. When you can't be a positivity oozing fun Ray of sunshine no one wants to be around you! No one wants to believe this could happen to them in the blink of an eye. That they could become sick like me.

So yeah, people treat me like shit for expressing pain.

I am so sorry for how people treat you. I have 100% the same expereince. I always try and remember that: 1) what goes around comes around 2) I always ask myself " would I want that done to me and/or treated that way?" 3) we leave with what we came with, ZERO. I am 64 years young and with life experience, I have seen many times where someone was a complete jerk and BANG! down the road of life it came right back to them, twice over!! You are a great global family member and I wish you all the love, caring, empathy and kindness that all of us have here for and towards you!! You are among family here!!! Walter

 

[the_final_countdown]

I don't complain, but my presence brings a shadow to everyone around me. People move to different rooms when I walk in.

 

[May]

People get tired of listening about suicide. Ive no doubt people get tired because of what I say so I don't tell or say anything in real life anymore. They all seem happier for it now. The NHS isn't really in a position to deal with things anymore and covid has proved that they don't have the resources to deal people like me anymore. I just smile on the outside and try to get on with it. The evidence would suggest that people would be better off if I wasn't here any more anyway. They seem happier when I'm not around

 

[GarageKarate07]

So talking to people is supposed to be good for you if you're depressed. But I've pretty much driven away all my friends cos they're sick of my depression/suicidal thoughts and cant say i blame them. They dont seem to get though that depression is not like the chickenpox - you don't just get it once, recover and never have it again.

One guy i used to talk to cos he understood what it was like to have a mental illness (he was borderline) completely stopped talking to me after i divulged iv started having suicidal thoughts. Now im too scared to tell anyone else so im glad i found this site i can talk to people about it. Other friends stopped inviting me to things cos i was too depressed to go their parties.

Anyone else have a similar experience? Do you talk to anyone about your depression? Iv tried counsellors and they absolutely suck. Have you told anyone you're suicidal? i havent told the counsellors that cos im scared il lose my job - we have a counselling service provided by work but they said if you disclose harmful intent to yourself or others they have to report it to your boss. so thats bullshit.

RULE #1 NEVER TELL ANYONE YOU ARE HAVING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!
Not unless you have a trusted and safe family member or friend to take you through the nightmare that is the mental health system. Just one on one can even be a big mistake. You better to be willing to pretend you are willing to try recovery or other methods that all these crappy governments will thrust upon you because the paper work says so. Then hope they don't prescribe a poison depression pill that's going to only make your condition worse YET these stupid "professionals" keep giving them out. Look up your own medication and find out how bad it is.
Also build a support circle a new one if you feel that is best. Don't say "I'm depressed". Say "I'm having a hard time". People can relate to a "hard time" they might not all understand "I'm depressed and suicidal because of xXxX".
You do need to go to healthy gatherings and be around good people to start healing and keep healing. It's not easy but it's a huge part. For the most part don't even talk about your depression just do good things. Keep yourself away from your negative thoughts and this will keep the people around you away from your negative thoughts. Many of us have experienced long periods of just going forward and not being worried.
Another trick. Keep yourself busy. Busy busy busy. Do some constructive things THEN play on the computer or video games (I love games also ❤).
Another trick. Excercise!! Excercise!! Excercise!! Do stretches. Walk around the block. Lay on your back and do leg lifts. Find a floor excercise ruetine. Lift some easy weight like 5 or 8 or 10. Play with it until you get tired. It helps your brain every time. It takes your focus elsewhere!
We can all recover. It's not easy but it's also not hard. ❤

 

[booray]

Yes. I'm dragging everybody down around me and there's nothing I can do about it. The people in my life feel duty bound to check in on me, and when I tell them that I'm not doing well, that I've never felt lower in all my life, they don't want to hear it. They can't understand why I can't be more positive. It's called depression folks. All I can hope for is that they finally understand what I am going through after I ctb.

 

[Lost10]

Nope no one knows about them.

 

[Lmd]

We must also know how to be responsible for our feelings. I told all my friends, they know how I feel, they are supportive and I understand I can't be 24/7 breaking the mood with my thoughts so I try to avoid the conversation until it's necessary because I'm at my worst. They also don't ask me about it and try to cheer the ambienta bit because they aren't well either.

 

[Hirokami]

I got called a "rain cloud" quite a bit when I used to be more honest with my emotions. Now, I just lie and say I'm just tired because of those experiences. And while I no longer annoy people, I do have one person who often tries to cheer me up if they sense I'm down. I can tell it's because they care, though, versus them just doing it because they're fed up with me. For their sake, I sometimes would pretend to feel better if I can't be cheered up at the moment.

 

[Trisolaris]

Yeah, those surrounding me are sick of my lack of functioning and my desire to die.

 

[Rockman]

Yes. But i have a buddy from psych ward who understand. He wait for right train and i wait for right gun. I guess we are in a waiting room :)

 

[DonTellMeToStayAlive]

Just happened today. Maybe the only place I can talk, if at all, is here.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I don't share my suicidal ideation anymore. There's no point, they can't help me

 

[D11FER]

For that very reason I've stopped talking to people! You can see actually avoiding me and I went into work last night as I deliver shopping for a supermarket and someone had written on my van door "loser". I'm a 46 year old man that lives with his parents and my depression has killed my world inside and out. I'm over the initial reason I wanted to CTB, which was the breakdown of my marriage and not being able to be with my children everyday. Now I just want to CTB because I have nothing to look forward to or any type of future.