I've been the constant scapegoat for my family as far back as I can remember. I have a horrible guilt complex and anxiety and stress problems because of it. I highly suspect my mother is a covert narcissist, and my father constantly enables her. Its so mentally and physically draining to be blamed for everything, even things that other people in your family do, or things you cannot help. And have them not care how it affects you, or ever be able to take any responsibility for their own actions. Its made me want to ctb for decades now. And I can't take it anymore. So hopefully I will be successful and ctb soon, so I don't have to deal with it anymore.