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Bananaman

Member
Aug 13, 2024
22
I have ordered SN and am waiting on it, it was very easy to find online on an ebay like website - God bless the balkans I guess.

The issue I'm facing is acquiring the metoclopramide. I didn't want to go through the trouble of convincing my GP so I went online and found a UK based online pharmacy that sells it in 90 pill packs for 40€, 60€ with the faster delivery option. I am concerned though that there is the slight possibility that I might not be able to get the package, which would be a worst case scenario that has been troubling me, imagining that I might be left with the SN only and no Anti emetic which I really, really hope does not happen. But in case I might be faced with such an awful scenario, I was wondering if only SN, paracetamol and some sort of antacid would be enough to take my last breath. My thinking is that people have committed suicide in much more primitive ways and have still succeeded, although I guess many haven't, so I was hoping even if I'm left without metoclopramide, after vomitting and drinking the second cup the amount of SN in my system would be enough to kill me. I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's opinions. Reading about and talking with like-minded people has lowered my anxiety a lot and I can't wait for everything to finally arrive. Things are actually not so bad now that I've been able to set my mind to it.

Cheers, everyone!
 
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aufrechtm7

♡ strxwberrymilk
Feb 14, 2026
351
No
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
I don't have antiemetics. I got SN, benzo, ibuprofen and propranolol - that's all and it's more than enough. The lethal dose of SN is about 1/2 g, we dissolve 25 g or 35 g in a cup (depending on body weight). No matter how much you throw up, you'll get enough, even without another cup.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
923
I wouldn't attempt SN without the antiemetics if I were you. 60 euro for 90 pills, that's a ripoff! I paid just 4 euros for 40 pills in my country Macedonia and this was in a legit pharmacy, not some shady place.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
31
I wouldn't attempt SN without the antiemetics if I were you. 60 euro for 90 pills, that's a ripoff! I paid just 4 euros for 40 pills in my country Macedonia and this was in a legit pharmacy, not some shady place.
Did they sell them to you without a prescription?
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
923
Did they sell them to you without a prescription?
No, i needed the prescription, but obtaining it was easy as pie. I lied to my doctor that i had nauseating migraines and he gave me the prescription.
 
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MatiSendiri

The world is still unfair to me
Jun 8, 2025
158
I have ordered SN and am waiting on it, it was very easy to find online on an ebay like website - God bless the balkans I guess.

The issue I'm facing is acquiring the metoclopramide. I didn't want to go through the trouble of convincing my GP so I went online and found a UK based online pharmacy that sells it in 90 pill packs for 40€, 60€ with the faster delivery option. I am concerned though that there is the slight possibility that I might not be able to get the package, which would be a worst case scenario that has been troubling me, imagining that I might be left with the SN only and no Anti emetic which I really, really hope does not happen. But in case I might be faced with such an awful scenario, I was wondering if only SN, paracetamol and some sort of antacid would be enough to take my last breath. My thinking is that people have committed suicide in much more primitive ways and have still succeeded, although I guess many haven't, so I was hoping even if I'm left without metoclopramide, after vomitting and drinking the second cup the amount of SN in my system would be enough to kill me. I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's opinions. Reading about and talking with like-minded people has lowered my anxiety a lot and I can't wait for everything to finally arrive. Things are actually not so bad now that I've been able to set my mind to it.

Cheers, everyone!
Don't bet on your death man. Just get the generic meto off the pharmacy and it'll be much more pleasureable for you to end it all.
 
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cbtvvxxvvv

cbtvvxxvvv

can you come and murder me :3
Mar 4, 2026
56
in my opinion i think that's the one thing you should not skip on.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
31
No, i needed the prescription, but obtaining it was easy as pie. I lied to my doctor that i had nauseating migraines and he gave me the prescription.
I was able to get in from the pharmacy. How much should i take? Do you know?
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
923
I was able to get in from the pharmacy. How much should i take? Do you know?
30mg metoclopramide 40 minutes before ingesting SN. That's what the protocol says.
 
verdedefome

verdedefome

Member
Oct 9, 2024
57
They're not strictly necessary but I don't think it's something worth gambling on.
 
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doomerguy88

Student
Aug 13, 2025
136
I don't have antiemetics. I got SN, benzo, ibuprofen and propranolol - that's all and it's more than enough. The lethal dose of SN is about 1/2 g, we dissolve 25 g or 35 g in a cup (depending on body weight). No matter how much you throw up, you'll get enough, even without another cup.
Out of curiosity what would the ibuprofen help with? I am planning to take SN and have some prescription strength Ibuprofen but nothing else.
 
Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
Out of curiosity what would the ibuprofen help with? I am planning to take SN and have some prescription strength Ibuprofen but nothing else.
Ibuprofen is drunk in order to reduce stomach pains and headaches, it has another purpose. An alternative to Ibuprofen is aracetamol, so the goal is to reduce/remove the pain caused by SN and in no other way affect the process.
 
Riu

Riu

Clueless
Apr 5, 2023
139
You can still do it without the antiemetics but personally, I don't want to be vomiting a lot in my final moments. I know some people still vomit with the antiemetics, but it's probably better than without them at all.
 
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NeverHis

Student
Jan 14, 2024
115
I have ordered SN and am waiting on it, it was very easy to find online on an ebay like website - God bless the balkans I guess.
Omg can you please PM me? I am intrigued.

Anyway, I wouldn't do it without some serious anti-nausea stuff. Vomiting up most of it makes it useless and can damage you if you don't then realise what happens, and call for medical attention.
 

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