Story April 12, 2019

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The year was 2018 and I was at my brother's birthday on April 12th, he was turning 24 and I was 19 but I would be 20 in September. I hugged my brother before he went to work, a job from Monday to Saturday with Sunday off, it was a Friday, the night of the same day we went to a pizzeria with my family. Nothing unusual so far, I saw him silent all the time, and I talked to almost everyone because unlike him I knew how to keep up appearances and make small talk, but he didn't, he takes it seriously, he takes it personally. As always, he argued, my father and especially my mother argued with him too, I tried to calm the situation, the argument didn't get heated like the others he'd had, but it was just one of many. My mother always compared me to him, saying that I was prettier, smarter, more popular at school, and I felt angry with her, but I represented that anger by hugging her, so she wouldn't find out until the day came. My brother was the black sheep, the strange one, the rude one, I feel bad about that, because he takes it personally, and I always say that he is the only person I really love in this world and also in this family, he was always severely bullied At school and at home things didn't change. We used to have heated discussions but nowadays we are more respectful. I mean before I disappeared from home leaving him and the rest of the family, today I'm 25, and he must be 30, from that moment on, I felt him more distant... I haven't spoken to him since 2020, but I'm still looking for him....

 

[struggles_inc]

Is there a way to get in contact with him? Maybe through social sites?

 

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Is there a way to get in contact with him? Maybe through social sites?

So I looked on Facebook and others, and he doesn't have Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Discord, anything. At most what he has is WhatsApp, and he was having sad thoughts in the year 2020 and I suspected he was on that website.

So I looked on Facebook and others, and he doesn't have Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Discord, anything. At most what he has is WhatsApp, and she was having sad thoughts in the year 2020 and I suspected he was on that website.

but I have some clues, I'm still looking for him, using them.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

This is such a strange coincidence. I have the same birthday as him (i.e. on april the 12th but different year obviously) and I'm similar to him in terms of being unable to socialise as well as taking that personally. Hopefully you find him soon but it's scary as to how much I related to him here

 

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This is such a strange coincidence. I have the same birthday as him (i.e. on april the 12th but different year obviously) and I'm similar to him in terms of being unable to socialise as well as taking that personally. Hopefully you find him soon but it's scary as to how much I related to him here

His name is George, George Andersen and I drew him in one of my posts, if you want to take a look. He's like that because he suffered a lot of bullying and when he got home, he didn't get any rest either. and he also seems to have a schizoid personality, and has temper tantrums, only I knew how to deal with him in the family, when my father or mother had a problem they called me so I could talk to him.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

His name is George, George Andersen and I drew him in one of my posts, if you want to take a look. He's like that because he suffered a lot of bullying and when he got home, he didn't get any rest either. and he also seems to have a schizoid personality, and has temper tantrums, only I knew how to deal with him in the family, when my father or mother had a problem they called me so I could talk to him.

Obviously that isn't me but I can relate to him a lot. I suffered a lot of bullying too back when I was at school which I know contributed to me being awkward and messy. My parents liked to compare me to others when I was younger as they felt bad that I didn't have any friends. They still feel bad at how I don't have any friends but at least they no longer compare me to others now. I wish I had a sibling like you who cared about me but my older sister is just a narcissist who only cares about herself and has subsequently hurt me and everybody else in her life due to this.

I don't have schizoid personality disorder but I have wished that I did have it because I never made a single irl friend during my life and I know that the only way I can not feel lonely is to not care about friendships entirely. I can't cure my loneliness by making friends as my brain is just too fucked up to make friends now. Oh, also, I get temper tantrums as well but I keep it to myself as much as possible so that nobody else can make me worse by failing to deal with me. I honestly don't think that I was meant for this world at all and that I'm just not meant to be a human

I'll look into that post that you're referring to

 

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Obviously that isn't me but I can relate to him a lot. I suffered a lot of bullying too back when I was at school which I know contributed to me being awkward and messy. My parents liked to compare me to others when I was younger as they felt bad that I didn't have any friends. They still feel bad at how I don't have any friends but at least they no longer compare me to others now. I wish I had a sibling like you who cared about me but my older sister is just a narcissist who only cares about herself and has subsequently hurt me and everybody else in her life due to this.

I don't have schizoid personality disorder but I have wished that I did have it because I never made a single irl friend during my life and I know that the only way I can not feel lonely is to not care about friendships entirely. I can't cure my loneliness by making friends as my brain is just too fucked up to make friends now. Oh, also, I get temper tantrums as well but I keep it to myself as much as possible so that nobody else can make me worse by failing to deal with me. I honestly don't think that I was meant for this world at all and that I'm just not meant to be a human

I'll look into that post that you're referring to

Man, I don't think I'm a good brother, I kind of contributed to making the arguments in my family worse, you know, and now I feel bad, I did so many things wrong, that now I have frequent headaches and bizarre dreams . I believe that we are both unqualified to be human.