Discussion applied to 104 jobs since last Saturday and still no reply. Is there anything more traumatizing than job hunting?

[summers]

@Insomniac that two year gap could be hurting you. Just fill in the the by saying you were self-employed as a tutor and test prep instructor. They will have no way of verifying.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I can't get a job cleaning toilets, lmfao @ this planet. Also, you should get a reply saying they don't want to "give you the amazing privilege of getting to work" more often than not. So just wait a little longer and there should be some emails coming in.

 

[noname223]

Is there?

I eventually got over my fear of sending resumes after 2 years of "LDAR" and "NEETing".

I also got over my social anxiety enough to create a LinkedIn account despite having no connections and feeling really lame and unpopular.

However, I'm starting to relapse again into utter desperation and apathy. I feel so lost. Why haven't I gotten an interview yet? After 104 applications? Is it because I did nothing for two years after graduating?

What am I supposed to do while waiting for a reply? How am I supposed to feel? I'm exhausted and can't sleep. My mom is hospitalised for 3 months now in a different country and she's ruined because of her treatment costs. I don't know if she is going to survive. I don't have a job. My dad is an alcoholic. I have a little sister who needs me.

But I just need to die. Why am I so TRAPPED. What would people think if they learn that I CTBed despite my mom being hospitalised and having a sister who is still a minor? I just want to be GONE.

I have my rope here and an anchor. It could all be over in an instant but I can't get over what people would think. And my little sister who has no one but me.

So much pressure. I feel resentful towards my mom that I feel so responsible for her child, my little sister isn't MY CHILD, I DID NOT BRING HER TO THIS HELL HOLE SO WHY DO I HAVE TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR HER??????????????

WHY.

It's not my fault if my mom husband is an irresponsible alcoholic, why do I have to fix my mom's mistakes. am I her slave? Is that it? her slave?

I'm sorry that she is on the verge of death and I'm sorry that I'm such a selfish cunt.

It's just too much.

I also apllied for so many job interviewes in the past. My problem is I am a horrible liar. It took me extremely much effort so that anyone gave me a shot to try. Ironically I collapsed after a short time working. So everything was for nothing. (It hate my cynical life.)

 

[Suicideisgreat]

Lol I remember being fired and not being able to find a job. Then I had two easy jobs handed to me on a golden plate but because of depression didn't bother going into work.

 

[albino_elk]

how is it even possible that you applied 104 jobs and still no response? wow thats really awful....... o.o

 

[ThriveOrDie]

Anyone in the US having trouble finding work should meet with your state employment agency and have them look at your resume and make sure it's not an issue with your resume. Indeed also has a resume scanner that can help you fix some issues. There are so many reasons an employer might overlook you. Are you overqualified, underqualified, gaps in your resume, generic cover letter, no cover letter when it is required? I am having trouble finding work. I live in an area where there is high competition for jobs so employers get so many resumes I don't think they even have time to look at all of them. They may use a scanner to screen resumes and you might get screened out if your resume isn't formatted a certain way. When I lived in Tucson employers would take months to call me for interviews. In Utah it was easy to get interviews in a timely manner. Covid has made getting a job a lot more complicated. I have heard a lot of people are having trouble getting interviews. Everyone is supposedly hiring but people who never had trouble finding work can't get interviews. IDK what is going on.

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

Best of luck to you, OP. I can't imagine how you're dealing with all your pain. The job hunt is so dehumanizing.

 

[Sherri]

Omg, 104 jobs. I'm speechless, sincerely hope you find one soon. From the bottom of my heart. 104 is a lot. What us wrong with these companies these days??? A big hug. A

 

[fini]

My long time job was eliminated 7 years ago. That's what I got for working hard and diligently, always going the extra mile and never calling in sick. And icing on the cake, I recently realized that my pension has been stolen. Before plague time, most jobs I applied for never bothered to even reply with a "thanks, but no thanks". The few that responded said they were inundated with hundreds of applicants. The couple that showed an interest turned out to be trailing gaggles of horrible reviews. Nobody liked working for them.

 

[summers]

Everyone is supposedly hiring but people who never had trouble finding work can't get interviews. IDK what is going on.

I'm having the complete opposite experience. I've been looking for work for a couple months now, mainly because I'm being super selective. I've been getting 5-10 interviews a week consistently for two months. Turned down 4 offers. Currently hired to start 2/15, but hoping for two other offers to come through. I may keep the other job and see if I can work two at the same time, since both are fully remote.

 

[Insomniac]

update: only got one interview so far and it was this morning. I fucked it up ofc because I wasn't even prepared idk why but I find it really hard to prepare for questions such as "why do you want to work here", etc. I feel like these are dumb questions because it's obviously for the money wtf? what else are they expecting to hear?

@Insomniac that two year gap could be hurting you. Just fill in the the by saying you were self-employed as a tutor and test prep instructor. They will have no way of verifying.

I just feel like I'd feelntoo uncomfortable lying. today an interviewer asked about my experience and I said I didn't have any and she asked me what I was good at and I said... not many things... yes I really said that. yes, I'm fucking retarded.

 

[albino_elk]

@Insomniac my dude. try to write down on a papper what you should answer in those situations. you must lie all the time if you want a job:c thats how it works .. and its fked up but what else you can do.. ofc im speaking about those low wage jobs

 

[whatevs]

update: only got one interview so far and it was this morning. I fucked it up ofc because I wasn't even prepared idk why but I find it really hard to prepare for questions such as "why do you want to work here", etc. I feel like these are dumb questions because it's obviously for the money wtf? what else are they expecting to hear?

I just feel like I'd feelntoo uncomfortable lying. today an interviewer asked about my experience and I said I didn't have any and she asked me what I was good at and I said... not many things... yes I really said that. yes, I'm fucking retarded.

Hahaha, definitely not be honest with them in the interviews. If you don't want to say blatant, laughable lies then go for evasive truths.

"Why do you want to work here?". "Well, I need a job as soon as possible and I think I can perform well here. I might not have experience but I will do my best".

 

[ThriveOrDie]

update: only got one interview so far and it was this morning. I fucked it up ofc because I wasn't even prepared idk why but I find it really hard to prepare for questions such as "why do you want to work here", etc. I feel like these are dumb questions because it's obviously for the money wtf? what else are they expecting to hear?

I just feel like I'd feelntoo uncomfortable lying. today an interviewer asked about my experience and I said I didn't have any and she asked me what I was good at and I said... not many things... yes I really said that. yes, I'm fucking retarded.

I have a hard time lying and I am always saying dumb things in interviews. I think a lot of people have a hard time with interviews.

But I'm sure there is something you do well. You are bad at lying. That is a good quality. You seem to have empathy. That is a valuable quality for anyone working with customers. It does help to write down your answers to common questions ahead of time.