applaud my friends, the comedy is over. my goodbye

[mementomori]

i'll drink my SN in 2 hours, and i am so glad that in this time of my life i won't be alone. it's my first attempt, i've been contemplating the idea for at least a year, and now i feel like i am ready.
last year i lost some things that i really cared about and was really really passionate, so i don't feel like there is much for me left here.
i really dont want to feel alone now...

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Anything you feel like taking about to pass the time? Or any specific support you'd like that would help?

 

[Not_Quite_Dead_Yet]

You are not alone; many of us are there with you in spirit, holding you in our communal heart.

 

[itsmeagain]

I completely understand you dont want to be alone. Feel free to utilize the general chat or PM me. <3

 

[Oyoy]

You are not alone. I lost things. Everyone says there just things but I was happy when I had them and now I feel lost and like I failed.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

You are not alone. We are here with you, and for you.

I'm so sorry that this time has come.

Remember that if you change your thinking, we will still be here and will never think less of you.

Wishing you love and light.

 

[issyishere]

You're not alone. I just want to remind you that if you decide not to go ahead with your plans we will welcome you back and be happy to see you stay. if you do, i'll miss you but i'll find comfort in that you're no longer hurting. The point that i'm trying to get across is I hope the next 2 hours are filled with peace, love, and calm. I'll be thinking of you.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I hope that in your heart this is what you want. We're here and I'm thinking about you and all the other people ctbing tonight. Sending you so many hugs and so much love. I hope everything is peaceful and calm. So much love!!!

 

[Jean4]

We are here for you. Is there anything we could do for you? Anything you want to talk about?

 

[foreverbroken28]

i'll drink my SN in 2 hours, and i am so glad that in this time of my life i won't be alone. it's my first attempt, i've been contemplating the idea for at least a year, and now i feel like i am ready.
last year i lost some things that i really cared about and was really really passionate, so i don't feel like there is much for me left here.
i really dont want to feel alone now...

If you choose to go tonight, I pray you go in peace and calmness. As everyone else said, if there is anything you would like to get off of your chest, we are all here. ♡

 

[Broken Chimera]

Don't worry. We're here for you. Regardless of what happens.

 

[MysticPerception]

I understand not wanting to be alone. That part was the hardest for me when I took my SN. Everyone is here for you, you're never truly alone. I hope you find peace if you choose to go through with it.

 

[The Warm Industry]

I am slightly happy to be able to get here in time to accompany you. Since we met and started talking, I feel that I have had a connection with you much stronger than I could want with anyone else, my family or my daily life. Since I met you, I felt understood at a particular level, the songs we exchanged, our practically empty laughter, our moments that seemed like waltzes in an empty hall between two people who did not know or could not touch each other.
Moments that, although they did not bring enough happiness to either of us because they were so short, brought me the satisfaction of having met a person as wonderful as you.
I want you to know that, despite the barriers of life closing in between us, I will never forget your conversations, your "laughters", your music, your affection.

And that if I can continue here embracing the memories that I created with you every day while I am alive, I will. You were one of the best friends I could have had in such a short space in which I interacted with you, in the middle of few conversations.

Espero que essas palavras sirvam de algum conforto por serem sinceras e vindas do fundo do meu coração. Eu te amo. E vou continuar te amando depois que você partir. E independente da onde você estiver, eu irei desejar todos os dias à deuses ou ao nada que você esteja feliz e confortável, fazendo o que ama sem que nada interfira nunca nisso.

 

[mementomori]

thanks for all that support, i really appreciate it.
i always thought of dying like a cold and alone feeling, but honestly... its been quite some time since i felt this warm.
just one more hour to go. =)

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm here for you too. I wish for you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[mesohappy]

I am sorry life has brought you to this point...I send you love and hope you find peace.

 

[enjoy]

here for you if you need anything. if you decide to go through with your plans, peace to you.

 

[Iloveyouall]

i always thought of dying like a cold and alone feeling, but honestly... its been quite some time since i felt this warm.

That's beautiful.

I was wondering, what is the manga from your avatar ?

 

[shadowchaser]

Beethoven. His music encompassed human suffering, and I'm sure you know this, that the only reason he didn't ctb himself was that he felt it his duty to write all the music inside him.

It is a lovely quote, but Beethoven's life was no comedy. I'm sure yours isn't, either.

You seem like a beautiful soul, even from the few words you've offered here. I hope you know that you don't need to do anything right this moment. The sn will still be there even if the night passes. Nothing will be lost.

Is there anything you want to talk about, or get off your chest? I hope you don't mind me suggesting a piece of Beethoven's to listen to, the Appassionata in F minor, op. 57. If you haven't already listened to this piece, it was written when he was completely deaf and just beginning to come to terms with his suffering. You can hear the turmoil clearly in the music. It might be a comfort for you in this moment.

I'll support you no matter what your choice ends up to be, but you are truly beautiful and worthy and I hope you know that. Sending you love and endless hugs

 

[mementomori]

That's beautiful.

I was wondering, what is the manga from your avatar ?

it's from one of tomie's mangas, i don't remember exactly which. every ito reading is great.

Beethoven. His music encompassed human suffering, and I'm sure you know this, that the only reason he didn't ctb himself was that he felt it his duty to write all the music inside him.

It is a lovely quote, but Beethoven's life was no comedy. I'm sure yours isn't, either.

You seem like a beautiful soul, even from the few words you've offered here. I hope you know that you don't need to do anything right this moment. The sn will still be there even if the night passes. Nothing will be lost.

Is there anything you want to talk about, or get off your chest? I hope you don't mind me suggesting a piece of Beethoven's to listen to, the Appassionata in F minor, op. 57. If you haven't already listened to this piece, it was written when he was completely deaf and just beginning to come to terms with his suffering. You can hear the turmoil clearly in the music. It might be a comfort for you in this moment.

I'll support you no matter what your choice ends up to be, but you are truly beautiful and worthy and I hope you know that. Sending you love and endless hugs

thank you for the lovely words, beethoven passed through so much suffering, anyone who loses the hearing know how this can break someone.
apassionata is one of my favorite pieces from him, before i lost all my forces i was studying his tempest sonata, it is a really wonderful piece.
honestly, this makes me remember when my teacher played the apassionata and i fell completely in love with it. wish i could go back to those times...

 

[sickInsominic42]

I hope you find peace and go through this as painlessly as possible

 

[issyishere]

hey still thinking about you, how are you? i hope you're at peace and sending positive feelings and love and always remember there's no pressure

 

[HelensNepenthe]

it's from one of tomie's mangas, i don't remember exactly which. every ito reading is great.

Hopefully we can make a connection. I'm also another big Ito fan. Your icon comes from the sixth chapter "Waterfall Basin". Took me a minute to get my book.



Was there anything you were wanting to talk about?

 

[Iloveyouall]

it's from one of tomie's mangas, i don't remember exactly which. every ito reading is great.

Thanks, I didn't know about Tomié or Junji Ito. I might read Gyo, his work seems really disturbing, I like it.

I wish you find peace, no matter what you decide in the end. You actually already seem at peace.

 

[shadowchaser]

it's from one of tomie's mangas, i don't remember exactly which. every ito reading is great.

thank you for the lovely words, beethoven passed through so much suffering, anyone who loses the hearing know how this can break someone.
apassionata is one of my favorite pieces from him, before i lost all my forces i was studying his tempest sonata, it is a really wonderful piece.
honestly, this makes me remember when my teacher played the apassionata and i fell completely in love with it. wish i could go back to those times...

Yes, the tempest is wonderful. Another outburst of suffering, and written at the time of the his heiligenstadt testament too.

You absolutely don't have to answer if you don't want to, but is there a particular reason those times are lost to you?

After all this time, the emotion of the appassionata is still as clear as the day Beethoven wrote it. I'm sure things are still there for you to come back to. And I know for sure that music is one of the things that always will be.

Wishing you love and strength, we're here for you

 

[sickInsominic42]

Are you feeling at the moment

 

[mementomori]

uuh there is something wrong, it literally looks like water, maybe one tablespoon isn't enough, maybe i am not supposed to mix it with the spoon? i am pretty confused

 

[The Warm Industry]

This one's for you, my dearest. May our souls be together in death as our hearts were in life.

 

[MysticPerception]

uuh there is something wrong, it literally looks like water, maybe one tablespoon isn't enough, maybe i am not supposed to mix it with the spoon? i am pretty confused

Huh my water looked kind of murky I don't know though if you put SN in and it dissolved it should be good.

 

[mementomori]

Huh my water looked kind of murky I don't know though if you put SN in and it dissolved it should be good.

it did, but then i kinda mixed it with the spoon and it lost its color