Yes I do because I wouldn't be in this mess.
If I could at least get a few physical issues fixed, I could feel a tad useful. I've got a hiatal hernia, groin hernia and side muscle injury to which I can't get fixed due to a lack of interest. Along with lower back damage. So I can't bend, lift or walk some days.
Add deafness, tinnitus, anxiety, depression, insomnia, sleep apnia, asthma, and a mind that's slowly decaying (likely concussion related) and it makes pulling through a little harder every day.
I did recently get a new doctor because the last one took no interest in any of it. So maybe this guy will help fix a few things. Fixing the hernias and whatever is wrong with my side would at least make me physically capable, which would be a huge boost to my well being.
I think its pretty messed up that I'm researching methods not because I want death, but because there's no health care available for me. I know I can't cure all my issues, but hernias and muscles can be fixed. To keep on keeping on like this is absolutely bonkers and its wearing me down immensely as time goes on.