Venting Anyone want to ctb because of unemployment?

[SnowyDreams]

So I have very little experience, only had temporary jobs and nobody wants to hire me now. I'm in my late 20s and because of depression going downhill wasted the last two years and couldn't even graduate. I swore if I didn't find a job by New Year (last year) I'd totally leave. Several events have held me back but I'm so ready now. Been trying to find jobs this year still and didn't find anything, I was planning to leave my country (it's about to sink for real), but it's hard to move to other countries to work if you're not highly qualified. I have many other reasons to ctb but this is the main one. I know my parents would be sad for a while but I can't help this... they will be so much better without me, they won't need to rescue me everytime I'm broke anymore. They will only need to look after themselves. It's a relief to think that way tbh...

 

[QueenEtna]

I want to ctb BECAUSE of employment. But yeah I feel you, I'm 22 and I was unemployed since 17. It was hard for me getting a job too so I was with a job agency. Now I'm in a trashy job where I don't even get paid most the time because the company is broke.

 

[bigj75]

I wanted to even while employed it's just that now I'm unemployed which is worse.

 

[Gina]

I'am not unemployed but I owe a lot of money and I can't work to much because I'am a dependent, but I understand. I'm 21, for some reason I can find jobs but I can't keep them because I hate working and I'm extremely lazy with no ambition.

 

[TAW122]

I am currently unemployed and I also have a hard time to find, let alone keep a job (due to Aspergers and social anxiety). I wouldn't say that unemployment alone is my reason for ctb'ing, but it is a major factor itself. I have other reasons, due to social failure, unable to keep and maintain good relationships, and of course, some philosophical and personal reasons too.

 

[Duqu]

I'm on disability with no hope (or effort) of becoming employed in the future. I was more miserable employed (though it's true I did have more sociality (ok spell check is saying that's not a word...but you know what I mean)) because I was in a great deal of physical pain and had to deal with oppression and frustrations of being a minion and such.

 

[Aragon]

Being in or out of employment wouldn't change how I feel inside. If you're not happy, you never will be, it doesn't matter where you are in the world. I can't say "well just get a job," because it isn't that simple. Once upon a time I felt as I do now, but I also had protection, somewhere where I felt safe, and now well that isn't the case anymore. If you can turn your life around, or continue I cheer for you. But ,I feel that I have been suffering for some time now, and nothing will change how I feel on the inside. I mean listen, I've had times where I was put on a pedestal, and I never truly appreciated it.

 

[RainAndSadness]

Unemployment due to mental illness and poverty is a big factor in my decision to ctb. I'm unemployed for over one year now and I'm tired of living in poverty. I can't even afford my own apartement, which is the reason why I have to ctb in a hotel. I'm glad I can check out soon.

 

[ikuchan]

My boss gives me too much workload with little pay (plus unpaid overtime) and my coworkers are often condescending. It's a deprecating, masochistic, and exhausting life. I feel like I should wear a dog costume and woof all day because that's basically how I have to be to make a living. I used to think being a contributing member of society would fix all my problems but it just gave me new ones.

 

[PatKat]

Not only because of unemployment but it is a factor being labeled "disabled" by doctors... its a very small part of my reasons.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I'm a NEET and it sucks big time, but wage slavery wouldn't be any better.

 

[+ + + +]

Shame is bigger while being unemployed at the moment, but working when I didn't care about the job was hell. Scary part for me was that I felt like it would never end. That's scary about life, these struggles never end, until you end it yourself.

 

[MiserableBastard1995]

I am currently unemployed and I also have a hard time to find, let alone keep a job (due to Aspergers and social anxiety). I wouldn't say that unemployment alone is my reason for ctb'ing, but it is a major factor itself. I have other reasons, due to social failure, unable to keep and maintain good relationships, and of course, some philosophical and personal reasons too.

Same here, I feel ya.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

not bc of unemployement but bc of things that comes with it like social isolation, no task, no aim, too much time to think..lack lf money

 

[Trashcan]

I'm kind of the opposite. I want to ctb partially because of employment. I hate having to waste my life away doing something I hate. But then unemployment would also suck because it's hard or even impossible to live decently without a job.

 

[RacilyDank]

Partly. I've just recently become unemployed. That was the final straw.

 

[RacilyDank]

I lost my job because of the same reason I desperately want to ctb - Anxiety and depression - I just can't mentally or physically function like this.

 

[jaemus12]

*puts two hands up* ME! I am literally in the exact same situation as you OP.

Although I wouldn't say it's the only reason I want to ctb, it just made things worse being unemployed. It also doesn't help that I keep on getting rejected for the jobs I actually want to do.

 

[RacilyDank]

I was looking for nearly two years, then got accepted for my dream job, only to lose it because of my mental health taking a nosedive!

 

[bigj75]

I just got a new job after being unemployed for 4 days. I still wanna die.

 

[AveryConure]

Quit my job due to the company having poor management and was just overall toxic with the exception of a few coworkers who were planning on leaving soon anyways, now after I was told to get lost after I called to just get another job that mainly involved just taking out the trash and shit I thought to myself "what's the fucking point" and am convinced ctbing is honestly the best decision I could make in my life.

 

[Deivis]

Guys, please.

I'm not going to tell you that this particular reason is negligible or unimportant (it's not) or that life is beautiful (it's not).
But my point is - in 2018 you don't have to leave your home to make a living.

You don't have to have a bootstrap capital. You don't have to be of any talent (artist, designer, programmer).
If you really want to raise some money, all you need is a stock of cheapest food - rice, corn, beans for 1 month.
Lock yourself up in your house and research the hustling trends for 30 days nonstop.
Only if on a 31st day you can't come up with any idea - you are worthless. But not before.

And I'm not some fucking Tony Robbins with his "I believe in you" bullshit. My funds are drying up as I type this.
I can raise 5k a month, 10k a month, but I don't want to because of my personal preference. But I know a lot
of people much dumber than me, but with greater willpower than me, who can do it. And are doing it.

Don't take my word for that. Look around. I'll repeat: Nobody has to work at some shitty diner or stripclub anymore.
I'm just saying.

 

[Ccre]

Guys, please.

I'm not going to tell you that this particular reason is negligible or unimportant (it's not) or that life is beautiful (it's not).
But my point is - in 2018 you don't have to leave your home to make a living.

You don't have to have a bootstrap capital. You don't have to be of any talent (artist, designer, programmer).
If you really want to raise some money, all you need is a stock of cheapest food - rice, corn, beans for 1 month.
Lock yourself up in your house and research the hustling trends for 30 days nonstop.
Only if on a 31st day you can't come up with any idea - you are worthless. But not before.

And I'm not some fucking Tony Robbins with his "I believe in you" bullshit. My funds are drying up as I type this.
I can raise 5k a month, 10k a month, but I don't want to because of my personal preference. But I know a lot
of people much dumber than me, but with greater willpower than me, who can do it. And are doing it.

Don't take my word for that. Look around. I'll repeat: Nobody has to work at some shitty diner or stripclub anymore.
I'm just saying.

Sharing some of what you know might help people out

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

Being a nigerian prince looking to offload millions comes to mind.

 

[MEoDP]

I suspect this will become a major reason for me. Assuming I live past college graduation.

 

[NOISYMIND]

I'll turn 25 in two months and am unemployable due to my poor mental & physical condition and insufficient personal experience/academic level. I used to have a good life in London but had to come back to Asia as visa expired. Now I'm broke so can't move or travel to anywhere overseas. No friends near me. Just a burden to my family and I wish to leave soon.