Hey, I wish you well, I'm in a complicated situation too so I've felt a lot of those same feelings. I hope you can find peace from the cards you've been dealt also it's okay to feel weak. being human is rough!
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Thank you. I fought really hard through the abuse and past it since I've returned. I'm proud of myself even if others don't see. I know my true purpose is to be a leader and I have high expectations of myself so this inner struggle and resistance is killing me. But I am at my wit's end, rock bottom, almost irreparably damaged. And somehow I keep finding a new bottom. Thank you. I do feel weak... at least I'm not aloneHey, I wish you well, I'm in a complicated situation too so I've felt a lot of those same feelings. I hope you can find peace from the cards you've been dealt also it's okay to feel weak. being human is rough!
Under The Graveyard
There is no death. Only a change of worlds.
- Jun 24, 2021
- 112
I don't feel resentment toward people who are non suicidal, but some days I wish we could switch bodies for a day. So I can see what it feels like to have their happiness, and they can see what it feels like to have my constant sadness.
I don't just feel resentment. I also feel envy. And not just of non-suicidal people, but of anyone who's able to function in this society more normally than me.
I also believe that it's people like this who taught me to feel the shame and self-hatred that I feel every day, for not being able to do what they do. So, yeah, my negative feelings towards them are strong. (But to be honest, I hate myself even more.)
I also believe that it's people like this who taught me to feel the shame and self-hatred that I feel every day, for not being able to do what they do. So, yeah, my negative feelings towards them are strong. (But to be honest, I hate myself even more.)
Wrennie
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- Dec 18, 2019
- 1,546
I don't ever resent people for not being suicidal, but I do resent how most non-suicidals treat those of us who are actively suicidal. Calling us selfish, saying we're taking the easy way out, ignoring our pleas for help. *Those* are the types of things that lead me to resent a person.
For me I feel like my old self/life died and its just so hard to want to build a new one I feel like its lost Its meaning. I feel alone all the time. I feel like a crab at the bottom of the ocean. Remember to not be too hard on yourself with expectations
you never know what will happen. Sometimes I'm just disgusted in being a human lol
