having talent change nothing. I have several ones, intellectuals or artistics but it's not better. Instead of just being a loser you're just a magnificent loser, which could be seen as worst depending the point of view. You could be a huger deception for your close people, because considering your skillz, they don't understand why you don't do more effort or succeed to do so much interesting things, building yourself an amazing life... Same from your own perspective, it's disgusting you even more: you're really skilled on many points but your ability to consider the whole reality block you to do something "productive"with your skillz as you don't see the meaning, you don't feel the need of it. Personally i do keep mine for myself since long and have progressed a lot on some of them. And then what? Without being a comedian of this insane society you won't be in phase with this reality and won't be able to attract opportunities to yourself.... There was even a time, when i was younger where i was interested by this perspective and worked out for it with the possibilities i had and it changed nothing, just showed me even more how this world and people sucks.
It's like love or not love. Not knowing love could be a source of frustration and destabilise you and comfort you how weird and sad you are. have known deep love, passioned love, romantic love or whatever is not saving you, it also could be a huge source of despair, because it's dead/done, because it was not as expected etc... whatever.
There's no better condition than other. We are what we are fundamentally and more or less skillz won't really change that. By the way it's never too late to build some skillz, no matter the age or your condition...