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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Member
Jul 18, 2023
72
Anyone else, just wish they could be good in life -- at least in one thing, at least in what they also dreamed of, and felt deeply about, but was always impossible and hopeless; just feels so weak and hopeless and helpless, knowing you're too stupid to do anything -- without anything else to compensate. All I can do now -- at twenty, with some bad ADHD problems and no concentration -- will be too little or too late.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Illuminated
Jul 29, 2021
3,742
I started taking my toys to pieces age of 5 years old, over time I learned how electronics work including transistors and logic gates then when I was 16 I started to go to the library to learn to program, I programmed every day for months on end creating all kinds of software from a digital logic simulator to games to an image editor, I've learned a lot but unfortunately, every good thing must come to an end, I got a brain injury in 2016 and haven't been able to program since it's a shame because I want to make a living out of it and create something used by a lot of people
 

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vak

vak

🙃💕
Feb 13, 2024
213
I wish I didn't honestly. It only makes me feel worthless when I'm not able to utilize it properly and when eveyone is expecting big things from me 😞 The grass is greener on the other side.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
2,406
Yeah, I wish I had talent. There isn't anything in life that I want or dream of but I think having talent would make things easier for me whilst I'm here
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

The drip finally stops
Oct 21, 2023
979
At this point my lack of talent is a talent in of itself. It's humilating. Whenever we had to write about our talents and interests back in elementary and middle school I would struggle to think of anything to write down. I'd always end up just grasping at straws. My lack of talents and skills, along with my inability to learn how to do shit, only adds to my feelings of worthlessness.

Hell, I've been drawing for years and I'm still bad at it. I can't do anything right and have only failed at everything I've tried, even when I put in as much effort as humanly possible into it. I have to pretend to be good at things in order to not make my family feel bad about putting in so effort into raising a worthless piece shit. It would be nice to actually be talented at something but I've come accept the fact that I'll never be good at anything.
 
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Neowise

Neowise

We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
Oct 7, 2020
352
Same here. I wished I had just one talent or something I'm good at, then I wouldn't feel so worthless. But the way I am I am completely replacable. I am dreading my first real job interview when they ask you "tell us about yourself" or "what are your strenghts?" because there is nothing useful I could answer. I most likely don't have a mental disability and yet I feel like I do, because I seem to be too stupid for anything. Glad I can at least wipe my own ass lol.

[Quoted my own reply from just a few days ago from this thread]
 
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uzuf86

Too many mistakes and regrets
Jan 1, 2024
225
I am quite accomplished academically and in terms of my career. But my mental illnesses ruined my life and the lives of people around me. My mind now keeps telling me it wrong for me to continue living
 
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26mmmm

Experienced
Feb 12, 2024
211
Anyone else, just wish they could be good in life -- at least in one thing, at least in what they also dreamed of, and felt deeply about, but was always impossible and hopeless; just feels so weak and hopeless and helpless, knowing you're too stupid to do anything -- without anything else to compensate. All I can do now -- at twenty, with some bad ADHD problems and no concentration -- will be too little or too late.
I have no skills or talents either but I don't blame myself for it, I blame my parents for raising me wrong and letting me isolate with screens. Why would I pick up any interests or try to be good at something if I could play video games or watch porn instead?

I've also been bad at everything I did up until now, even video games which I've spent the majority of my time playing because my mental and physical state really hurt my function, whether I knew it or not.

My point is, maybe you aren't good at anything, but are you sure it's your fault?

Hating yourself wont help with anything. For the longest time I have hated myself, my present self and past self, but lately I've come to realize that I just didn't know any better in the past and that none of what I've went through or what im going through now is my fault.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
1,332
I think you might have plenty of talent, I believe every human being does. The question is, does it fit in this (sick) society and world?
ADHD is tough. Do you take anything (meds) to be able to concentrate better?
 
Old Friend

Old Friend

Sleep well, Airstrip One.
Sep 24, 2023
475
I have talent. I just can't harness it. Very frustrating.
 
FitsTime

FitsTime

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
641
Anyone else, just wish they could be good in life -- at least in one thing, at least in what they also dreamed of, and felt deeply about, but was always impossible and hopeless; just feels so weak and hopeless and helpless, knowing you're too stupid to do anything -- without anything else to compensate. All I can do now -- at twenty, with some bad ADHD problems and no concentration -- will be too little or too late.
Maybe it's like this, but 20 is not that much.
 
casual_existence

casual_existence

Student
Jul 29, 2023
192
I don't have a particular talent unfortunately. I tend to have a defeatist attitude so I give up or I bounce from hobby to hobby.

The one thing that I would like to get good at is pure math but I hate doing exercises and so I don't move forward in that

Similarly for art I know that if I could just sit down and do the work I could get to a decent level.
 
Judah

Judah

Enlightened
Oct 1, 2020
1,531
I have failed trying to be an artist or produce music, although lately I see music as a refuge and I have practiced a little more, I hope to reach the point of becoming talented in music. Aside from all this, I'm dumb enough to be good at anything.
This is the first song I produced, a couple of weeks ago

View attachment Memories.mp3
 
Bremer

Bremer

Member
Feb 2, 2024
10
It is this infinite emptiness that I feel and my desire to go that first showed me that I have a great talent.

I could probably have had a great acting career, because no matter how well the people around me think they "know" me, they all think I'm an extrovert, courteous and happy person.

Yes, from the outside I appear to be a good neighbour, a caring big brother and a trustworthy friend to others. I should probably be awarded an Oscar for these roles, because I play them all. Every day anew.

I don't feel any of that.
There's just this emptiness.
And the realisation that I am so talented does not fulfil me.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
1,781
Yeah talent to hold still , hand steady only slowly moving trigger to shoot myself. This kind of Talent is only built through practice
 
cursedcure

cursedcure

palliative care
Oct 8, 2023
72
wasted talent, wasted potential, is what i have burdened myself with. there is so much i could have done, so much i wish i was able to accomplish. i was dealt very decent cards, i should've been more than okay, but somehow i am still losing the hand. it's another grief i have to overcome everyday, being less than what i know i could be, and knowing i can never live up to my full potential. it's heart crushing. i guess what i am trying to say is that talent is one thing, but making something out of it is another. hard work and dedication tend to be a lot more useful than "pure" talent.
 
MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,148
sure. only because so many talented people have passed at such an early age. otherwise, what's the point? it will fade eventually and then you face frustration at your own self. talent... once someone notices, they will just exploit you.
 

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