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WaterfallsontheIsle

Member
Oct 24, 2021
6
How do you get to the point of cbt in the moment when there's always that opportunity for the next high?
 
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hamvil

hamvil

Wizard
Aug 29, 2022
650
Never thought of getting high, tbh I do not even know where to get the stuff in my city, nor I would know what to get tbh. Weed?
 
notlongnow

notlongnow

Student
Aug 16, 2022
138
The high is whats kept making me 'miss the bus' in all honesty.
 
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almaranthine

almaranthine

Wizard
Nov 28, 2019
615
I haven't done any harder drugs since I was young/in college. If one of my neighbors knocked on my door offering me ketamine or mdma, I would likely be off to the atm no question though. Weed makes me more psychotic than I already am and alcohol does nothing to take away any of my mental anguish nowadays. I'm tempted to go to the store and get a drink just to have something to keep me occupied, but, I know it won't help anything. All I end up doing is downing beers, chain smoking on my porch fucking talking to myself... then I inevitably end up in tears over my "lost love." Pointless honestly.
 
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TheManIllNeverBe

Member
Aug 3, 2022
70
I smoked weed pretty consistently for the past 12 years or so. But once I cold turkey quit my Zoloft/sertraline a couple of years ago, it just sort of stopped working for me. I don't know if there was a synergy between the weed and the Zoloft that was producing my actual "high," or if cold turkey off of the Zoloft left my nervous system in such a sensitized state that I can't tolerate the weed any more. Either way, I'm sad that it no longer works, because it was a great distraction from the shitty state my life has been in since my accident and all of the other meds I've been on. Now it just makes me anxious and borderline psychotic, even in teeny, tiny amounts (just a pinch at the bottom of a small bowl). Other "substances", like caffeine, have been similar. Before coming off of the Zoloft I would drink 3-4 cups of coffee / day. Now even 1/2 of a cup gives me brain fog and the jitters. So maybe it is just that my nervous system has been sensitized...
 
quietam pacem12

quietam pacem12

Member
Aug 22, 2022
70
High sein hilft in besten Situationen. Aller hat man dann irgendwann das Verlangen immer mehr und noch höher zu werden. Man bekommt von seinen Gefühlen nicht mehr viel mit. Drogen lassen dich die Schmerzen ertragen.
Deshalb habe ich Heroin gewählt. Heute.
Ich meinte high sein.
 
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👁️👃👁️

Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
1,292
Used to. Can't anymore. At least not weed. If I drink alcohol I will end up doing something impulsively. I have stayed sober last year other than krston and pain pills a few times
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,233
How do you get to the point of cbt in the moment when there's always that opportunity for the next high?
I've never tried drugs, but alcohol make me really silly and braindead. Makes me feel super upbeat and happy for a few hours, the way I used to feel as a kid basically.
 
quietam pacem12

quietam pacem12

Member
Aug 22, 2022
70
DDrogen verfolge mich seit ich 14 bin. Zuhause nur Gewalt, Alkohol, Mißbrauch und Schläge. Da haben mir Drogen das gegeben, was ich nicht zu Hause hatte. Wärme und Geborgenheit.
Ich war bis ich 24 war echt übel drauf. Alles hab ich mir reingehauen. Jetzt seit 20 Jahren sauber. Aber die Folgen von meinem tollen Elternhaus spüre ich heute noch.
Deswegen werde ich heute alles holen....
 
Deadweight

Deadweight

It's spilling out of me
Nov 10, 2021
74
I keep a THC vape pen handy, usually use it at night. It makes me depressive and self-loathing but it also knocks me out, so I take a few puffs before bed
 
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onetapgandhi

Student
Oct 4, 2022
119
I've never tried drugs, but alcohol make me really silly and braindead. Makes me feel super upbeat and happy for a few hours, the way I used to feel as a kid basically.
This tbh. Drinking with friends is really really fun
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,471
weed and coke i must spend 700£ at least per month on a budget of £1160 per month
i don't get the same high as i use to on weed its greatly reduced
per month i spend
£160 on food
£35 for intetnet
£50 gas and eletric
£100 on tabbco
£30 couilce tax
£10 water rates
thats £385 outgoings the rest goes on drugs
 
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Eternally Dottie

Eternally Dottie

Dreamer
Dec 17, 2021
191
Alcohol was always my main pleasure/escape mechanism but I've had to stop drinking as it's caused too much trouble in my life and I had lost control over it.
Weed - fills the void left by the alcohol a little and is less of a danger to me.
 
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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
Don't get it from -anything- at all. I wish I could get drunk.
 
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