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Mine are a huge part of the reason I am ctb. I am still trying to come off it all and feel like s**t. I have had medication induced mania and psychosis. I also had a little known side effect of medication that is drinking and being able to drink a huge amount. I have cognitive difficulties due to it so I can't drive at 34. How about you?
 
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i went through SSRIs and antipsychotics at childhood. i think i've developmental delay or permanent mental defect of some sort and i'd discontinued them because they've no effect anyway
 
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I don't know if it was the antipsychotics, antidepressants or pregabalin, but at least one caused me permanent akathesia (restlessness). And Effexor permanently gave me night sweats, still 20 years later.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

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Spent 25 years on antidepressants Before stopping cold… I'm sure they rewired my brain…. I am no longer motivated to do anything…
 
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whatstheporpoise15

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Jul 5, 2022
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Been on antidepressants since childhood, current in benzo withdrawal hell…even if I get through the withdrawal period, the physical and mental symptoms from my other meds are shitty too.
 
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Hope:-)

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Been on antidepressants since childhood, current in benzo withdrawal hell…even if I get through the withdrawal period, the physical and mental symptoms from my other meds are shitty too.
Yeah, and I personally get no sympathy for them. I'm just told that that's how I am but I've researched extensively and it's definitely the meds.
 
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Been on antidepressants since childhood, current in benzo withdrawal hell…even if I get through the withdrawal period, the physical and mental symptoms from my other meds are shitty too.
Currently also reducing benzos. Feel u
 
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TheManIllNeverBe

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Aug 3, 2022
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Currently on 4 meds (1 antidepressant, 1 antipsychotic, and 2 anticonvulsants), down from a peak of 6. Psychiatrists are fucking evil. Been stuck on this cocktail for a couple of years as of now and pretty sure it's responsible for my lack of motivation, brain fog, and general misery. Every time I try to taper one med or another, I end up in an even shittier place... either horrible anxiety and insomnia or more depressed and even more suicidal than usual. So then I go back to where I was, which is stable but miserable, and try again. I'm in hell, honestly, and it's my primary reason for wanting to CTB. I've been on meds for most of my life (40 y/o currently), and had problems with them for about the past 11 years, ever since I was in a serious car accident and psychiatrists started loading me up on the heavy-duty stuff like antipsychotics.
 
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I don't know if it was the antipsychotics, antidepressants or pregabalin, but at least one caused me permanent akathesia (restlessness). And Effexor permanently gave me night sweats, still 20 years later.
Effexor. That wierd Franken-drug whacked so much weight on me. At the time it wasn't a bad thing as I looked like a bag of bones when I went on it. Surprisingly easy to quit immediately though. The shrink pulled me off it after my last 'great ctb plan' made it's way into the open...as they are sometimes wont to do!
Been on antidepressants since childhood, current in benzo withdrawal hell…even if I get through the withdrawal period, the physical and mental symptoms from my other meds are shitty too.
Evil little b@stards no? It can be done.....I take just 2 clonazepam a week now. Make sure you go down incredibly slow & dont greedy them. Best of luck with it ok.
 
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Lookingtotalk

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also here due to getting off psych meds withdrawal/bad reaction to getting back on that never went away, can add more but rather would not wish i never took a psych med ever
 
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onmywayhome

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Sep 7, 2022
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Yes... It's basically the entire reason why I'm here.

A stupid doctor overmedicated me with a toxic cocktail of migraine drugs that destroyed my gut and gave me an autoimmune disease. Depression came as a bonus. This was 10 years ago. I already had other issues and struggled a lot before, but this completely trashed my whole body (including my brain), I became a shadow of what I once was and just surviving everyday became physical torture. And no one would acknowledge I was sick until last year when I got significantly worse and blood tests started to show the abnormalities.

I was already sensitive to meds before, but after all of this happened, almost every one I take gives me bad and sometimes weird side effects that are usually permanent. I have a collection of them now. What's worse is that the most nasty ones came from misprescriptions, and the a-holes who drugged me never took responsibility for anything, they simply sent me away saying it was all in my head. And now I have to hear doctors and people around me say that I "don't want to get better" because I refuse to take medication that can further ruin my poor body. Psych meds never ever worked for me anyway, only gave me side effects. So what's the point?

I think it's crazy how the possibility of permanent side effects is completely dismissed by people (doctors included/especially) and they keep insisting in that bs idea that "there's no such thing as permanent side effects, as soon as you stop any medication, side effects will go away".

Doctors and their poisons ruined my life. The people who forced me to blindly take those too. I hate all of them with all my heart.


P.s. sorry to hijack your post with this rant! This is a subject that seriously triggers me every time.
 
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onmywayhome

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Sep 7, 2022
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but at least one caused me permanent akathesia (restlessness).
Omg, I had akathisia as a result of yet again other dangerous drug combination I was (mis)prescribed (warfarin + fluvoxamine).
It felt as if my body was on fire and I couldn't remain still no matter what. I would feel so much like jumping out of the window just to try to make it go away (just wish I had done it at the time).

Mine took a long long time to go away after I quit the meds, but it did eventually. I can't imagine having to live with such a horrible condition indefinitely. My heart goes out for you.
Have they tried to treat you for it with anything?
 
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jodes2

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Aug 28, 2022
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Omg, I had akathisia as a result of yet again other dangerous drug combination I was (mis)prescribed (warfarin + fluvoxamine).
It felt as if my body was on fire and I couldn't remain still no matter what. I would feel so much like jumping out of the window just to try to make it go away (just wish I had done it at the time).

Mine took a long long time to go away after I quit the meds, but it did eventually. I can't imagine having to live with such a horrible condition indefinitely. My heart goes out for you.
Have they tried to treat you for it with anything?
They offered me the same drug that caused it in the first place (pregabalin) but my psych said the neurologist should have given me other options too so I'm being re-referred
 
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onmywayhome

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Sep 7, 2022
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They offered me the same drug that caused it in the first place (pregabalin) but my psych said the neurologist should have given me other options too so I'm being re-referred
Oh no, how much more stupid can some doctors get? But apparently, there's indeed a number of drugs that could be effective for that (and it seems high doses of vitamin b6 may also help), so hopefully you'll be in luck! I really hope you find an effective treatment soon!
 
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Lookingtotalk

Member
Sep 5, 2022
86
Yes... It's basically the entire reason why I'm here.

A stupid doctor overmedicated me with a toxic cocktail of migraine drugs that destroyed my gut and gave me an autoimmune disease. Depression came as a bonus. This was 10 years ago. I already had other issues and struggled a lot before, but this completely trashed my whole body (including my brain), I became a shadow of what I once was and just surviving everyday became physical torture. And no one would acknowledge I was sick until last year when I got significantly worse and blood tests started to show the abnormalities.

I was already sensitive to meds before, but after all of this happened, almost every one I take gives me bad and sometimes weird side effects that are usually permanent. I have a collection of them now. What's worse is that the most nasty ones came from misprescriptions, and the a-holes who drugged me never took responsibility for anything, they simply sent me away saying it was all in my head. And now I have to hear doctors and people around me say that I "don't want to get better" because I refuse to take medication that can further ruin my poor body. Psych meds never ever worked for me anyway, only gave me side effects. So what's the point?

I think it's crazy how the possibility of permanent side effects is completely dismissed by people (doctors included/especially) and they keep insisting in that bs idea that "there's no such thing as permanent side effects, as soon as you stop any medication, side effects will go away".

Doctors and their poisons ruined my life. The people who forced me to blindly take those too. I hate all of them with all my heart.


P.s. sorry to hijack your post with this rant! This is a subject that seriously triggers me every time.
I think we should start using the phrase """doctors""", lmao, because they clearly have no idea how toxic these drugs are or dont care
 
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Does anyone else have cognitive issues from longterm use of medication? I forgot how to do even basic things like tie my hair up. It has gone for 16 years. A nightmare,
 
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Sep 15, 2020
357
my medications, which i've been on since i was like… ten, have completely fucked my memory. i'm also constantly shaky and i'm really slow
 
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ghqkiiia2

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Jun 15, 2022
67
Insomnia killed my memory ability, so doctor gave me stilnox(Ambien). Only to find out that stilnox also has the side effect of killing my memory ability…….
For a PhD student this is so frustrating.
 
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NaturalBornNEET

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Feb 22, 2022
87
prenatal methadone exposure left me brain damaged and stunted my growth, I don't know why people with my condition aren't aborted when our lives are preordained to be miserable.
 
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BW Blues

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Aug 7, 2022
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Been on antidepressants since childhood, current in benzo withdrawal hell…even if I get through the withdrawal period, the physical and mental symptoms from my other meds are shitty too.
same
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
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Mine are a huge part of the reason I am ctb. I am still trying to come off it all and feel like s**t. I have had medication induced mania and psychosis. I also had a little known side effect of medication that is drinking and being able to drink a huge amount. I have cognitive difficulties due to it so I can't drive at 34. How about you?
It did that to my sister too. They know it makes people worse but it's good for business

Vitamin b can repair brain damage. It can also cause psychosis if you don't take enough. And is required for energy. If it was the problem to begin with, denying you the cure, while blaming you & poisonning you, is a damn crime.
 
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ridedalightnin’

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May 21, 2022
13
I'm in constant pain, altered state, and have eye problems due all the medications/vitmains ive tried. All I really needed was a different way of life. they've ruined me and I live with the guilt pain everyday. I'm mentally ill from the medications. My life has become hell.
 
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mojabaka

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Apr 20, 2022
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yep, covid "vaccine"
 
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Sardonia

Member
Sep 7, 2022
19
Yeah I got brain fog, emotional numbness, apathy, numb skin, insomnia among other problems after taking psych meds. These effects didn't go away when I stopped the "medication" and it has been years now.
 
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Wasabi

Member
Sep 9, 2022
54
I don't know if it was the antipsychotics, antidepressants or pregabalin, but at least one caused me permanent akathesia (restlessness). And Effexor permanently gave me night sweats, still 20 years later.
Akathesia… it's a hell of a feeling.
 
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Klonopin and protonix ruined me.
 
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