Anyone here become suicidal over the pandemic?

[9BBN]

If so, what happened? If not, did things get better or worse?

 

[orange]

Becoming suicidal during the pandemic is so mainstream, I was suicidal before it was cool ;)

 

[LADY007]

If so, what happened? If not, did things get better or worse?

I started planning ctb two years ago, however, the pandemic showed me how boring and desperate being old and vulnerable is...so it solidified my plans.

 

[olkf]

I have always been depressed and I guess suicidal but it never seems like it was inescapable

 

[SoDead]

Pandemic changed little for me so far; I was depressed and suicidal before it. Strict lockdown in Spring 2020 was really bad experience, but it failed eventually and never returned in my country. Of course there is even less hope now that life can get better somehow. More and more reasons to expect bad things in future.

 

[Fenrirsend]

Kinda
It's why my old visa isn't valid and I have to get a new one so I can get home

It's also why I can't do my job online anymore to earn the money for it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Barely noticed it (despite getting the overhyped flu once or twice).

 

[myopybyproxy]

There is another thread like this so I will post my reply again.

I was suicidal before the pandemic. I had just gotten out of hospital and the various levels of 'treatment', was starting to try to get my shit together when the lockdowns began. Had to quit horse riding and ice skating after exactly 1 visit to the farm and 4 lessons at the skating rink respectively. Guitar lessons also stopped after a few months because online was not as good. I practised less and less and felt guilty for wasting money and the teacher's time.

Online therapy and online college is a fucking joke and not a funny one. Seeing people's faces, walking across campus, smelling and experiencing the atmosphere of a different area aside from those in your living space, having a conversation without technological difficulty every other minute, being unable to participate in banter or understand others because of their mask (and I am not deaf - it is likely even worse for those who are) - the little things that shred my soul a little more each day that passes without them.

I am an introvert, but spending all day in my head, with my few activities all being online - terrible for my back, eyes, and chronic headaches, to name a few - was horrible. I thought I was lonely before, but it always gets worse. Listen to the optimists - it can, and it will, ALWAYS get worse. I hooked up with a lot of people and dabbled in sex work partly because of the lack of human contact. And I was living with my nonabusive family for the duration of the pandemic. I do not want to imagine the experience of those who do not have that luxury.

I took it as a sign from the universe - I am not meant for this life. Every time I try to improve, something gets in the way - my own asinine thoughts / actions or an external situation.

And exactly as Siegfrida and xaea13 said. They are dragging this out to manufacture a new normal. Society will never return to how it was before. Not that I liked how it was then. But what it is turning into is even worse. Thus, the government's response to the pandemic (ie lockdowns) tremendously worsened my mental health.

 

[absoluteanimal1]

Yes, the isolation really got to me. It was hard living alone during a global pandemic.

 

[_Seeking]

It is a long story, but I got covid early in the pandemic, had long covid for 6 months, and it resulted in a series of events that have made it necessary that I must CTB sooner than later. Suicide had been in the back of my mind for a long time, as likely to do maybe 10 years down the line, now I strongly doubt I will see 2023.

 

[allesistgut]

before the pandemic i had gone through many periods of severe depression and had a lot of times when i had considered ctb. and i'm not sure if it has a direct link to the pademic, however i've noticed in the past two years my mental health has definitely gotten worse but idk.

 

[SuicideM4n]

I was suicidal before the pandemic and even after it happened it had no influence on my desire to die

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

I was always suicidal and well into it worsening by the time the pandemic went into full swing. So I can't put a lot of blame on it? But it certainly is helping seal the deal with how even work-at-home jobs are requiring people to be vaccinated. At one point I had little fleeting dreams of turning my life around and that just killed it.

 

[readyforsleep]

I was suicidal before, but it made everything worse and caused 2/3 of my suicide attempts. When everything shut down I lost the first stable living situation of my life, started failing school because I had so much anxiety about being on zoom that I just stopped going to classes and lost contact with my friends. The pandemic ruined what little of my life I had left. As soon as I can figure out how to ctb successfully I will do it. I'm so fucking done with this bullshit.

 

[mykitsune]

pandemic was the nail in the coffin for me, i was still saveable before it

 

[LucyB]

I lost a lot of hope during the pandemic. It was very scary to watch every single human being on the planet wear a mask covering up their face simply because they were told to do so. Even children didn't complain they just wore it with no problem. People turned into zombies and obeyed everything they were told to do. Stay in the house, stay this much apart, stay behind the glass, only walk this way and every single person fell in line without question. I'm still not sure how people cannot see that they were lied to about "Corona virus" The fucked up part is everything from the mask over the face to the 6 feet apart to the one way in one way out symbolizes the real situation that we are in here.

 

[Danjor88]

Next thread will be - are you suicidal over the Monkey pox pandemic.

Then the TB pandemic.

Then the hepatitis pandemic.

Then the pandemic of pandemics.

Then the pandemic of pandemic jabs.

Honestly, we've all been played by our glorious leaders. They want us to live in fear, and while Boris the Braindead Banana (who knew far more about how serious this disease was than any of us) was having big booze up parties in Downing Street without a care in the world, we were all locked up, not allowed to go anywhere or do anything, and got fined if you did.

The damage they've done to people's mental health, general healthcare (including serious diseases like cancer), child development, the economy, and all the rest should be enough to see them all hanged at Nurnberg.