anyone going to smoke/drink before ctb?

[_Minsk]

i know its very destructive and not good, but if we're going to ctb anyway, who cares?
i know it will be shortlived joy, if one can call it that way but i tried so long to only do healthy stuff and missed out the one or other drink or cig..

 

[Sabaku]

I think any depressant (probably alcohol is the most available) would help. Just make sure that your method is going to work before you set it up under the influence.,

 

[healthrecovery]

Why not use meth or something else

 

[Elri]

Probably Xanax and chill staring at my wall lol

 

[lobster salad]

i know its very destructive and not good, but if we're going to ctb anyway, who cares?
i know it will be shortlived joy, if one can call it that way but i tried so long to only do healthy stuff and missed out the one or other drink or cig..

Me, even though drinking is not advisable with my method I will still do it. I will be smoking and drinking the day I ctb. Too bad I don't have drugs or anything better. Whatever, it doesn't matter. Life sucks, and my method is very surefire to succeed I am not worried because I know I'm not superhuman to survive through it

 

[anxious_depressive]

Maybe I'll smoke a couple of my favorite menthol cigarettes.

 

[Sherri]

I don't smoke but I vape, but prob buy my old brand if ciggies, Marlboro Red. Love these as a smoker.

 

[Solar1703]

I considered to drink some alcohol (what I do really rarely) but decided to go with clear mind, even if it means substantial physical pain. Here ctb victims are submitted to obligatory autopsy with toxicological analysis and I don't want to be labeled as intoxicated or abuser.

 

[RetroChaos]

I drink heavily a lot anyway so wouldn't be much different. Maybe a glass of whiskey to get some courage to jump and enjoy one of the few things I actually still do.

 

[Nightmare Painting]

I don't smoke but I vape, but prob buy my old brand if ciggies, Marlboro Red. Love these as a smoker.

I stopped smoking ages ago but I might have to get a pack before I go. The cigarettes I use to like are Djarum Blacks which are banned in the US now and only sold as cigars. I'm too lifeless to figure out how to get N much less get those cigarettes imported here.

I really do wish there were some easily attainable drugs like MDMA or something before I went though so I could finally feel some peace.

 

[StarryStarry]

Oh yes! I figure at least five margaritas.

 

[xLosthopex]

I think I will drink some whiskey some time before drinking N to hopefully take the edge off my nerves, and right after to help get rid of the taste
Although after my post-mortem I don't want them to be like "she had alcohol in her system therefore she wasn't thinking clearly so can't be ruled a suicide" or some shit… I dunno how likely that would be but I want it to be clear that it was my full intention to ctb, so yeah probably won't drink to get drunk, maybe just a bit tipsy

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

If I decide to jump, I'll have to take some vodka to get the courage to overcome SI. Otherwise, none.

 

[Sherri]

I stopped smoking ages ago but I might have to get a pack before I go. The cigarettes I use to like are Djarum Blacks which are banned in the US now and only sold as cigars. I'm too lifeless to figure out how to get N much less get those cigarettes imported here.

I really do wish there were some easily attainable drugs like MDMA or something before I went though so I could finally feel some peace.

Oh mdma is so easy to find where I live. So cheap. Loved it when I used to go clubbing, such as E, but mdma is far better. The best I tried was in Amsterdam.

 

[gottago222]

i keep taking benzos n dont care about recovery because im going to die soon. just want to thhink as little as possible before i go

 

[allesistgut]

i don't think i'll drink, but definitely going to have one last smoke before i go.

 

[occamsrazor]

Once I decide it's my time I'm going to take a huge shot of heroin. I've never tried heroin nor shot up anything in my life but I want that warm blanket over my body like death welcoming me with arms open

 

[cocainenosejobs]

Yes

 

[Foresight]

I'd rather go sober.

 

[PrawnCocktail]

I wouldn't want to make my attempt less likely to succeed by drinking on the day, no matter how tempting. I'll just get wasted on the days before to make up for it.

 

[Graytaichi]

Psy ward is no joke, smoke yes. Drugs no. Im on a mission

 

[FentIsMyWay]

I will most likely drink some good rum and beer a bit before I go. Im ctbing via IV H afterall

 

[Squalo]

I have never smoked in my life even though I would like to smoke a pipe, I have one in my room.
sometimes I drink a bottle of beer, but without ever getting drunk, I avoid other alcohol.