Anyone going through something similar ?

[Coffeandamug]

I have felt a pressing intense desire to die since many years ago. The agony that weights on my chest is so incredibly intense that to do anything at all daily, such as brushing my teeth, feels like a herculean task. And yet, here I am. I procrastinate dying... I haven't formed a plan, I have unconsciously avoided dying for years. I don't know the reason. I have tried to reason why this is, I have thought and reflected and I can't find a good answer. I wish my interior weren't such a mystery to me.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

You just wrote my autobiography

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think it's called still clinging to hope. Hope dies when hope dies, if it ever does. There's really nothing you can do to make it die, or even speed up its demise. Hope is a stubborn bitch.

 

[Nothing87]

I also felt like that years ago, but I finally found my answers and reasons to die.

It takes time and we need to endure the pain, struggle and frustration just to find our answers. It's either if we want to live or die and It's up to us. Wishing you peace