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Lullaby

Lullaby

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Mar 9, 2022
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When I was a kid, I used to sit behind my couch at night and stare outside the window. I would look at the stars and always wish to be somewhere else. Being in my childhood home still, that really messes me up, because I think about that all the time.

I have dreams where I'm sitting next to my younger self in front of lake, and I just cry. I cry and just apologize to her, while she sits there looking at me.

My younger self had so many dreams, hopes, aspirations. The complete opposite of everything I've wanted has happened, and all I can do is just mourn for the kid inside me who wanted so much more than this. I would literally wish for a better, happier life every night.

I wish had a protected her more from all the bad people we've met, the trauma, the disappointment. It's only increased over the years. I have these dreams everyday and all I can do is say I'm sorry.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,392
Probably the opposite for me. If I had a chance to meet my younger self I'd probably want to beat him up for becoming me.
 
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DPJ187

Student
Apr 14, 2022
128
When I was a kid, I used to sit behind my couch at night and stare outside the window. I would look at the stars and always wish to be somewhere else. Being in my childhood home still, that really messes me up, because I think about that all the time.

I have dreams where I'm sitting next to my younger self in front of lake, and I just cry. I cry and just apologize to her, while she sits there looking at me.

My younger self had so many dreams, hopes, aspirations. The complete opposite of everything I've wanted has happened, and all I can do is just mourn for the kid inside me who wanted so much more than this. I would literally wish for a better, happier life every night.

I wish had a protected her more from all the bad people we've met, the trauma, the disappointment. It's only increased over the years. I have these dreams everyday and all I can do is say I'm sorry.
Tell us your dreams. You are a person too, you deserve hopes and dreams. Its not a out your younger self just now, it's only about you
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

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Mar 9, 2022
682
Tell us your dreams. You are a person too, you deserve hopes and dreams. Its not a out your younger self just now, it's only about you

I've always just wanted to have a quiet life after all I've been through. A nice career that I like, a nice place to live, friends, settle down and have a family. I've never wanted to be happy but just content and okay with my life.

I know these are all attainable and still possible, but I'm just tired of trying. I'm almost 30, it's scares me to think that I could still be in this position by then. I've struggled for so many years, it seems never ending now.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
Life is not always the way we want it to be (Its not a IG post) and there are many factors that we cannot handle. My life has also been chaotic.
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
785
Yeah. If I could go back again, I'd beat the shit outta the stupid fuck. My life would be perfect now if I could.
 
onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
I've always just wanted to have a quiet life after all I've been through. A nice career that I like, a nice place to live, friends, settle down and have a family. I've never wanted to be happy but just content and okay with my life.

I know these are all attainable and still possible, but I'm just tired of trying. I'm almost 30, it's scares me to think that I could still be in this position by then. I've struggled for so many years, it seems never ending now.
Unfortunately life is really unfair and for some people there are more downs than ups. But I guess it's never to late to change. Life goes around.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,310
To me, it is depressing thinking about the past. I have never wanted to live and I have always been sad. I do not have any positive memories from the past. It is upsetting that I was even born in the first place.
 
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
I'd go back to when I graduated college and punch myself in the face..
 
RubyGloom

RubyGloom

Member
Apr 24, 2022
11
i do. my great grandpa died when i was seven and i often think about how my life would have been so much better if he had been around longer. he was and still is my favourite person. i feel like i died with him. my only happy memories are with him. he was my escape from every other shitty person in my life. argh.
 
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MicropBaldCurrycel

Specialist
Dec 29, 2021
314
i do. my great grandpa died when i was seven and i often think about how my life would have been so much better if he had been around longer. he was and still is my favourite person. i feel like i died with him. my only happy memories are with him. he was my escape from every other shitty person in my life. argh.
yeah same i can empathize with that, but with my mom.

my life would be going well, its hard without a mom.

she loved me unconditionally and everyone else will never care about me like she did.

your grandpa was awesome and proud of you.
 
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