Discussion Anyone feel trapped and without choices?

[downndone]

Anyone feel trapped, as though there is no way out of their current situation, excepting ending things?

 

[erdbeeren]

Yes, always.

 

[creaturecomforts]

Constantly. All the time. I feel physically trapped as well as mentally trapped...

 

[Elegy]

You mean like a cornered caged trapped animal being jabbed with sharp spears?

 

[_Seeking]

Yes, my pain is getting worse and I will have to do it before I can't get around anymore.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Of course, I can do nothing.

 

[medjooled11]

YES.

 

[meetapple]

Today I felt that away.

 

[Manaaja]

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes! I used to feel much better, I used to feel that I actually have choices. Now I feel that my narcissistic relatives decide everything and I have no say in anything. They treat me as if I was a retarded, stupid, worthless kid who's too young to do or say anything even though I have been an adult for a long time now. They make me feel as if I was a worthless slave in a dungeon with no say in anything.

...I wonder how much better I will feel once I never have to meet them ever again,

 

[waitingforthehappy]

I don't even have the option of ending it with ctb. I am forced to live by pro-life loved ones. I think about dying all the time. I wish I could end my pain in the most effective way possible - death - no more beginning and no more end - no yesterday and no tomorrow. But my death would deeply harm mother and husband. I want to do the selfish thing - take myself out. But I feel compelled to think of them and not traumatize them with my death.
I am ready to die. Wish they would let me. I have gone so deep into the darkness. I don't want to go back.

Should I convince myself to not be suicidal - again- only to end up here again.

 

[Bleak]

Outwardly I would appear to have lots of choices. But pretty much everything I do causes my life to be worse so I feel very paralyzed. Plus I have crippling social anxiety and the isolation that causes leads naturally to depression. I don't know how much of this is just me rationalizing my own inaction, laziness and cowardice though.

 

[Hyd999]

When i talk to my therapist i recall many times saying i feel like im trapped. Like i will have to deal with things in life i dont wanna deal with. Like bad feelings are inevitable and it sucks so bad.

 

[OverBeforeStart]

I feel I'm trapped even after I end things, I exist in my own personal self created never ending hell

 

[Rain_Hermit]

Yes .I don't have any choice other than to ctb. I will be reduced to a slave if I stick around. It's a shame really.

 

[redwaymilk]

100% in a prison of my own making

 

[Someoneone]

Yes, trapped and seems no way out. It seems I am only counting the days for ctb.

 

[Round Two]

Yes. Absolutely yes. Except, also feeling trapped to the point where I can't even end things. I feel like an idiot for trying so hard in my youth to stay alive because that's put so many roots into the ground that can't be uprooted without making waves big enough to ruin lives. I try to stress to people that everything they think I brought to their life was really them all along, but that doesn't really work. They wrap me in their growth and love. I see so many people here talk about how lonely they are. The grass is always greener, I guess. My body is failing on me, my mind is held together by staples and duct tape, and I can't leave.

 

[Elegy]

Cornered caged and stabbed with sharp spears. And you are. Unless, you fight back instead of give up. Give in. Surrender.

 

[nopointofliving]

yo yo ... I'm waiting ... for what? NOTHING.... lalala welcome to my empty existence.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Basically, yes. I know if I don't a far more horrible future awaits me.

 

[nopointofliving]

Basically, yes. I know if I don't a far more horrible future awaits me.

Hello friend, it's sad we are still suffering in the same empty loop. You're such a kind soul, hugs <3

 

[Life sucks]

I'm trapped and can't exit, I don't know what to do, time is always moving.

 

[blueclover_.]

We wouldn't be here if life was so beautiful lol

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

No escape…

 

[StringPuppet]

Even with the choice to end things I still feel trapped, because if I fail my first CTB attempt I'm afraid I won't be able to try other attempts thanks to "concerned" third parties who wouldn't allow me to

 

[bed]

I can probably do things to postpone my CTB besides SI but it all seems rather pointless. I don't see myself ever being truly happy. There is no chance I'm living the rest of my life with chronic pain as well when I'm only in my mid-20s.

I will either die by my hands or by a freak accident at this point.

 

[little helpers]

Even with the choice to end things I still feel trapped, because if I fail my first CTB attempt I'm afraid I won't be able to try other attempts thanks to "concerned" third parties who wouldn't allow me to

exactly how I feel…I'm too scared of the getting found - hospital - psych ward - medical debt shit all over again. as if I've not had enough trauma… esp since I've already failed too many times, I don't even know how to have faith in death anymore. I still do. it's just such a faint one.

suicide is an industry. we are made to pay one more medical bill before we finally can't due to old age.

I shouldn't have headed straight to Tenderloin when I was traveling to San Fran - nah. Golden Gate bridge, not Golden Gate Ave.

 

[Crazy4u]

yes. For me, the trapped feeling is the strongest in 2021. I had hope in the past that things can get better

 

[SickSadSlave]

Yes.

 

[Justsogone]

For sure I feel hopeless and without any way out.