Anyone ever had interests, that they'd love to have pursued; if only they could, or if things were different

[FadingDawn]

For example, if they could have been a classical musicians, whatever...

I've been reading a couple days about Georges Dumezil, a famous french philologist and mythologist, etc. Guy apparently could read in over 30 languages; which is very impressive indeed, and very highly commendable. I can understand how that guy could contribute meaningfully to something important -- and, indeed, he did. Apperently, he learned greek, latin and german in his youth... I always wonder how cool that would have been, to be able to understand the massive world of greece and rome, and appreciate the beauty and intricacy of their culture from such an early age; nowadays, classical students in some places don't even have to learn the languages. Maybe I'm just bitter; i'm not much better than monolingual, do not have, and am unlikely to have the prospect of any sort of higher education worth the name(i'm basically borderline retarded.) Even though im my youth that massively interested me, when I started to get into these topics... but quickly i just realized any serious pursuit of this is above my low intelligence, which is basically a prime candidate for eugenics. I realize I'm just too stupid to do anything that truly mattered to me at a truly important level. Oh, sure, everybody can keep to the "low" level, and read some guidebooks or primers on "interesting" subjects, etc.

But basically, being too stupid, and having to spend your life in the dark and heavy trammels of a 9 to 5 job, you don't have the capacity or the time to meaningfully engage with things that might have revealed themselves from behind the oridnary scenes of life, with a light which implied that there's genuinly meaningful and rich things which can profoundly move you. It's all very vague, and I do not have the courage or skill to properly express what i felt, and about what... but this is good enough fot my vent rn i guess, rough and crude as it is .

Nowadays, if you admire famous historians, or linguists, etc, you might get told "well, you 2 can learn teh languages... try duo lingo"; which is fine, for people who spend 5 years learning french and german, and think it's an achievment -- or something to brag about; when linguistic, or philosophical, or literary ability has no meaning or substance at all.

 

[sserafim]

I like music and singing. Maybe I would have been a singer in an alternate universe

 

[FadingDawn]

I like singing and music. Maybe I would have been a singer in an alternate universe

maybe...

 

[Darkover]

i like figuring out how things work i started taking my toys to pieces at age 5 and started programming at age 18 i wanted to be an indie game developer with the end result is creating a game played by millions and making me a millionaire, the only success i had was back in 2014 when i learned how to hack mmo games and made bots for them selling my software made me 10,000£ online in under a year, i feel into a depression mainly because i had no gf to care for me so i turned to smoke weed everyday and that lead to me using headphone to listen to music and that lead me to get a brain injury and tinnitus

 

[FadingDawn]

oh, that sounds interesting

i like figuring out how things work i started taking my toys to pieces at age 5 and started programming at age 18 i wanted to be an indie game developer with the end result is creating a game played by millions and making me a millionaire, the only success i had was back in 2014 when i learned how to hack mmo games and made bots for them selling my software made me 10,000£ online in under a ye

 

[lnlybnny]

in an ideal world i'd probably have had pursued a career in arts, mostly in fashion, but my dreams were killed and i've lost all hope, i'm not made for this world and i wanna get out

 

[FadingDawn]

in an ideal world i'd probably have had pursued a career in arts, mostly in fashion, but my dreams were killed and i've lost all hope, i'm not made for this world and i wanna get out

I can relate... :hugs: . But yeah, im not for this world or this society; I did not choose to, and refuse, to participate in this nonesense. Sorry to hear about your dreams... i know how bad that realization is.

 

[lnlybnny]

I can relate... :hugs: . But yeah, im not for this world or this society; I did not choose to, and refuse, to participate in this nonesense. Sorry to hear about your dreams... i know how bad that realization is.

i refuse too, i hate that people think i should conform and settle into it, they want to oblige me to it, i can't stand crying everyday thinking how i wish i didn't exist and also being too coward to take the step to end it all, but one day or another i'll have to do it

 

[4am]

i never had any interests in terms of pursuing, i always knew that life wasn't for me because i was never interested in it from the jump. but ig if the things were different, i would watch one piece lol

 

[thenamingofcats]

Getting to pursue your interests at a high level is so much about environment, treatment, and luck. Kids that are born into good families with wealth almost all end up at ivy leagues regardless of their intelligence level and get the best education possible. I think treatment plays a huge role in it too. If you were treated well and surrounded by wealth your whole life wouldn't you think you deserved it? If you got into Stanford wouldn't you think it was because you were smart?

Harvard looks like Hogwarts. The dining hall is nicer than any restaurant I've ever been to. Look at online tours if you want to see it. All of this creates this world of people that think they're that way due to being smart and deserving. I'm not saying rags to riches types don't exist but everything has to line up, conditions have to be right. I think the way we're treated plays a huge role in how we think of our intelligence and potential.

 

[Mi Mi]

For example, if they could have been a classical musicians, whatever...

I've been reading a couple days about Georges Dumezil, a famous french philologist and mythologist, etc. Guy apparently could read in over 30 languages; which is very impressive indeed, and very highly commendable. I can understand how that guy could contribute meaningfully to something important -- and, indeed, he did. Apperently, he learned greek, latin and german in his youth... I always wonder how cool that would have been, to be able to understand the massive world of greece and rome, and appreciate the beauty and intricacy of their culture from such an early age; nowadays, classical students in some places don't even have to learn the languages. Maybe I'm just bitter; i'm not much better than monolingual, do not have, and am unlikely to have the prospect of any sort of higher education worth the name(i'm basically borderline retarded.) Even though im my youth that massively interested me, when I started to get into these topics... but quickly i just realized any serious pursuit of this is above my low intelligence, which is basically a prime candidate for eugenics. I realize I'm just too stupid to do anything that truly mattered to me at a truly important level. Oh, sure, everybody can keep to the "low" level, and read some guidebooks or primers on "interesting" subjects, etc.

But basically, being too stupid, and having to spend your life in the dark and heavy trammels of a 9 to 5 job, you don't have the capacity or the time to meaningfully engage with things that might have revealed themselves from behind the oridnary scenes of life, with a light which implied that there's genuinly meaningful and rich things which can profoundly move you. It's all very vague, and I do not have the courage or skill to properly express what i felt, and about what... but this is good enough fot my vent rn i guess, rough and crude as it is .

Nowadays, if you admire famous historians, or linguists, etc, you might get told "well, you 2 can learn teh languages... try duo lingo"; which is fine, for people who spend 5 years learning french and german, and think it's an achievment -- or something to brag about; when linguistic, or philosophical, or literary ability has no meaning or substance at all.

I love music
I would of loved to be a dj, a photographer and dancer who also sings

 

[sserafim]

Getting to pursue your interests at a high level is so much about environment, treatment, and luck. Kids that are born into good families with wealth almost all end up at ivy leagues regardless of their intelligence level and get the best education possible. I think treatment plays a huge role in it too. If you were treated well and surrounded by wealth your whole life wouldn't you think you deserved it? If you got into Stanford wouldn't you think it was because you were smart?

Harvard looks like Hogwarts. The dining hall is nicer than any restaurant I've ever been to. Look at online tours if you want to see it. All of this creates this world of people that think they're that way due to being smart and deserving. I'm not saying rags to riches types don't exist but everything has to line up, conditions have to be right. I think the way we're treated plays a huge role in how we think of our intelligence and potential.

My sister goes to an Ivy lol

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nope, not me. I never had any interests in anything ever since I was born and I never will. Life just wasn't meant for me

 

[hollywhite13]

i like figuring out how things work i started taking my toys to pieces at age 5 and started programming at age 18 i wanted to be an indie game developer with the end result is creating a game played by millions and making me a millionaire, the only success i had was back in 2014 when i learned how to hack mmo games and made bots for them selling my software made me 10,000£ online in under a year, i feel into a depression mainly because i had no gf to care for me so i turned to smoke weed everyday and that lead to me using headphone to listen to music and that lead me to get a brain injury and tinnitus

How did you get a brain injury from headphones can I ask?

 

[Nikitatos]

I would have been a really good guitar player if I wasn't so cripplingly poor my whole life.

 

[hollywhite13]

I wish I'd pursued my writing and not taken an overdose that caused a brain injury. I never believed I was any good. Now my life is finished and I'm so depressed

 

[eatantz]

I would make my own doll company like Barbie, or Pidgin dolls.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

I was introduced to programming the first time when I was 12. I liked it. However, I gave it up and did not pursue computer science in post-secondary because my dad, who molested me, was a software engineer. I wanted as few things to do with him as possible. Nowadays I still only know some very basic things when it comes to coding, but my current job is physical work and I plan to go back to school for a major where knowing how to code is not necessary (although it can be an advantage).

 

[Malaria]

Yeah. For me it's learning languages, drawing, and writing stories.

 

[11April]

I wanted to become a programmer. And I became one. But lately I have no strength or desire to do what I love. It's a shame, because right now information technology is experiencing a great rise (for example, artificial intelligence). I would be very interested in all this and I would try to contribute, but the pain inside does not allow me to do this.
I also liked writing poetry. In my childhood and adolescence, I thought that I could write music for them so that they would turn out to be meaningful songs. But it remained a dream.

 

[halleyscomet]

I wanted to become a doctor, I wanted to become a surgeon probably in neurology. I had very high aspirations but my mental illness and autism has ruined it, there is no way in hell I'd get into med school, let alone survive it. I might settle and become a nurse, but I don't even know if I'll make it that long. I'm heartbroken for my younger self, she would have been so disappointed.

 

[Forveleth]

I wanted to be a carpenter but my parents threatened me into going to college so instead I have a career I hate that pays 1/3 of what a decent woodworker can make. I loved playing instruments but my parents made it such a chore I stopped as soon as they let me. I would have loved to sing but my husband has been such an ass about it that I have let my voice go.

Would have loved to learn juggling, lock picking, origami, and sewing in my free time but between my job and depression, I don't have energy to do beyond the bare minimum.

There's so much I wanted to do in life and it makes me so sad that I never did any of it.